mess, messier, messy

my life is in a total mess.
and i don't know how to start clearing it up.
=(

friday was supposed to be a nice day.
for the first time, i accomplished almost everything that i set out to do that day.
talk about efficiency man!
and finally arranged a day for jingles dinner =D

and i went shopping in amk >.<
because e prices were really ridiculously cheap
i just cant resist buying
1 spag top + vest = $12
1 dress = $13
and i realised i've been shopping every week
first is DMK shoes
next is dresses from Hula & Co
now is clothes from This Fashion
this kind of lifestyle is unsustainable!

then stupid me went to service my hp
without realising that servicing hp = surrendering ur hp
and stupid me actually went to save EVERYTHING in my phone memory
so now all my songs, my photos (that i din transfer to my memory card),
and most importantly, my contacts are all gone
and it just occurred to me
how dependent i've gotten on my hp
i even use it as a watch to tell e time
after i get my idiotic hp back
im gg to save everything in card!
lesson learnt =(

and then movie Wall-e!
Wall-e is darn cute and funny.
its amazing how we can enjoy a movie with practically no dialogue at all so much
i like e way they portray e story
and the overall theme for the movie is quite good
talk about Earth and humans and technology
future forecast of the human race
makes me wonder if technology will really become so superior in future
(note: future = 1 millenium later)
u all should go watch!
and start loving Wall-e e way i do! =)

but then duno y i din feel as hapi as i should have
or as i tout i would have

so because i slp late on fri
and i forgot to set alarm
i missed IBIZA on sat
what a waste of ticket $ =(

and then while sleeping
i had alot of small little dreams
where my life was perfect
my studies were fine
no more catching up
no more struggling to complete e tutorials
my cca was fine
no clash in schedule
no taking note of deadlines cos somehow i already had everything done
i made a decision
and it turned out fine
no awkwardness
had kind acceptance and understanding instead
i got a surprise
and my questions were gone
and then i woke up
and realised everything's fake
false sense of happiness and security
its deja vu all over again
just like 3 years ago
=(


would u turn to someone else, if e person u want most isn't there?
or would u not, because its simply unfair to that someone else?

when i came home on thurs
i tout i had a long wkend
and now half of sat's gone
i haven do anything fulfilling on sat
sianzzzzzz