Tuesday, October 10, 2006

10 october 2006 tuesday

dis entry gonna b quite long. so i shall try to kip it short. cos my mundane life will bore every1 to death. actuali i type finish an entry b4 dis. but cos i included some private thoughts dat i dunwan to announce to e world so i saved dat n redid 1.

firstly. i was sianz dat i go to sch everyday to do nth but play cards n add on to my bridge experience.

second. my chem. i got a lousy D. anyhow study for blocks = E grade. study much more for promos = D grade. not much diff har. n guess wad. most of my marks come from ques dat i anyhow do. n i cancel away my ans dat warrant marks. reason? cos i do ques veri fast. so i figured dat since my chem is so lousy n i do so fast, it probably means its wrong. wad stupid logic u may tink. but apparently it makes perfect sense to me during e course of the exam. so is dis a hint dat i shld anyhow study anyhow do my exam n i'll do well? im gd in things dat i dun like. waiting for bio results now to prove dis hypothesis abt myself.

third. mood was affected by chem. so went orchard early to have some time alone. when im in a bad mood or feel sad i nid to b by myself to clear my thoughts. so stoned thru lunch. watched e cars drive past. watched e customers come n go. watched e employees working. watched a typical day in orchard cine. n i wonder. all these pple working so hard, doin things everyday. do dey truly noe wad dey're doing? y r dey doing these? wads e motivation? pple jus live their life in a routine everyday. without stopping to tink wads e point. wads e aim in e end? dere's a saying 'live everyday lik ur last'. if every1 does dat den no1 would b having e life dey're having now. students wouldnt go to sch. adults wouldnt work. every1 would b busy doing wad dey want. n things lik 'dis is for ur future' wouldnt b able to apply. cos dere's no future if u follow e 1st saying. so it dun make sense at all la.

fourth. kbox wif pang ying qiao. quite nice. 1st time we kip singing n shouting all those high high rock songs. n i din care abt my image. sound horrible den horrible lor. im undergoing singing therapy, as some1 puts it. haha. enjoyed myself. den after pang left n singing finish, watched movie. 'you me n dupree'. wanted scoop but all e seats separated. e movie not bad la. quite funi. i got evon-ness in me!! =) its e UNIQUE factor abt evonne. hee. watched movies quite often recently. i mean as compared to e rest of dis yr.

fifth. i wan watch vcds. every1 ard me own vcds dat i wan but i jus cant seem to get my hands on dem. WHY?!! n i cant watch on youtube. renting is an option but nid $$. which i dun reali hav alot. >.< RAH.

sixth. bels. arent u honoured. got 1 part specially for u! lolx. jus wanna say dat being independent is not as gd as u tink it is. u said b4 dat u envy those pple who r strong n not as dependent on pple as u r. but dun look on e surface. look INSIDE. for all u noe dey may b feeling veri xingku cos dey cant spill everything out cos dey're independent. much more xingku than u. n its a privilege to rely on pple n complain to dem. to ask dem for help. dats wad frenz r for isnt it? frenz r not accessories for u to decorate ur life. frenz r dere to lift u up when u're down; frenz r dere to help u when u stumble; frenz r dere to support u when u feel lik collapsing. so dun feel so paiseh n kip saying u're troubling us. n getting over it takes TIME. so dun rush. greedy little gal. wanna take shortcut issit? =p

finally. i wan watch death note n scoop [bels - reali dat bad ar? =( ]

wa. wad an extreme day. i cant believe it. i jus cant believe it. jus likdat. oh yeah. fine.

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