recess week is here! but somehow i think i wont have enough time to finish whatever i need to do. cca stuff, projects, catching up with old friends, exercise, and most importantly, my studies. studies is the most impt yet i seem to be paying it the least attention =X and somehow i still dun feel e stress YET. guess i really need to see the deadline and feel e urgency before i'll really start becoming efficient. otherwise i'll just keep thinking i have lots of time, which sadly is not the case.
i thought my results of 15/20 for my quiz is not bad already. its quite good actually. im satisfied with it, considering that i din finish studying and i only kinda looked through my notes what, 2hrs before the quiz? and then i start hearing people who got 17, 18, 19/20, with 19/20 being the NORM, and i damn sian. WHAT THE FUCK?! theory of relativity. no wonder they say in nbs if u dun hav a minimum GPA of 4.0 u're lousy.
went running after quiz on wed nite and oh my gosh, my fitness level SUX to the core. disgusted with myself. see the slope at hall 3 n 16 then gif up le. n after e run my legs weren't even aching. the last time i rem, i dun recall myself being so mentally weak. the view from ADM is super nice though =)
met up with Yosi and Jian Lun (ex-colleagues) and got arrowed by Jian Lun for no rhyme or reason. thanks for e lesson on human relations anyway. he said that no matter how busy u r, if u truly have the heart to do sth, u will get it done. if not its all empty talk. thoughts do not materialise themselves if u don't take any action. 'don't make promises that u cant fulfill' and 'im stating the truth. which part of what i said is not true?' wa. sounds so awfully familiar. e visit to his hall and looking at how he conduct himself made me realised some things too.
finally back home after 1week in hall. was darn proud of myself that i stayed 5 nights in a row and felt fine. Credit goes to Huiying! cos she was around everyday the entire wk. it feels good not to return to an empty room =D please stay more often! met up with s73 pple at West Mall and went home happily, only to realise that I DID NOT BRING HOME MY HP CHARGER. no wonder i felt sth was wrong when i left. stood at my room door for so damn long n YET i din realise. F***. so tml im gg to travel ALL the way back to ntu to take my charger. if only my hp can be ready for collection tml. ULTIMATE SIAN.
thurs.
i duno how i'll feel.
like what nicholas said, i need to feel a sense of loss before i'll even start to appreciate and realise how much it actually means to me.
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