sick and tired

friday.
was quite motivated in sch to come home and study.
to be more exact is do hw.
but somehow i suddenly felt very alone and empty.
so there goes my resolve to study.
and ended up online blog surfing.
and realised that everyone else are all busy working hard.
to get good results for prelims.
so their blogs were all stagnant.
except me.
i know dat at the rate im going im DEFINITELY going to panic come sept.
but somehow im rather satisfied with my minor improvement.
easily satisfied.
but im still going to stick to my goal.
4 As.
if only i believe in myself as much as i did for O levels.

you.
gave me a shock out of a sudden.
kinda angry at you now.
ur act was selfish to some extent.
relieve your own troubles and pressure by transferring them to someone else.
just like dumping it away.
regardless whether what the other party may feel.
when its not the other party's fault.
but then again.
i noe u are not that kind of person.
my words are harsh.
but i prefer it if you would discuss it openly.
and attain a common ground with those involved.
instead of just getting the words off your chest.
and then just leaving it like that.
hurt?
unsure.
i just want closure.