Nicholas's Commissioning

yay! Nicholas finally commissioned!
haha went for his commissioning parade.
was amused at how LOUD they sang all the songs.
and weilin was tickled everytime they shuffle,
cause obviously they don't need to shuffle.
lolx
sooooo proud of Nicholas!
we know that e whole process was certainly not easy
but YOU MADE IT! =D =D =D
everything just for today =)

and this just made me all e more determined to push on
regardless of what happens,
cause i noe what matters to me and my priorities =)

saw quite a few friends too.
didn't realised so many people commissioning today.
felt like a mini-gathering over there.
keep bumping into people....
friends from pri sch all the way till jc =)

and there was a rainbow after the parade!

haven't seen a rainbow for very very long!
it just made me so hapi.
the whole sky was sooooo pretty!
the colours were so niceeeee~~~

oh and i realised that OCS is REALLY near ntu
no wonder i can see the safti tower from my hall there
i'll be sad to noe that u all are no longer opposite me =(

after e marina barrage trip yesterday,
and seeing a rainbow today,
somehow i feel a sense of calm.
i guess maybe thats y i always like natural surroundings =)

some chances only come once. and i may have missed mine.
how many chances is life going to give me, and how many am i going to continue to miss.
i may not be fortunate enough to have so many chances
they will run out one day =(

=D
brandon nah, pls rem to save the drowning child =P

hahaha! our fav photo of the day =P

it takes some adaptation
for the one who has been doing the selection
to turn into the one who is being selected

exams in 2 weeks
omg
muggggggggggg

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YC! =)

Ying chern!
To my dearest fellow jingle YC:

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY! =D

we couldn't get u any present cos u're overseas,
we couldn't skype with ya cos we are not gathered tgt
so i came up with this idea!
hope u'll feel hapi when u see our blogs!
=)
its been 5 years since we knew each other!
super loooong!
when we separated to go into different jcs,
i really thought that we'll just lose contact and all.
but it didn't happen!
and now that uni has started and 1 sch year is almost over,
we're still as close as ever =)
we may not chat all e time,
we may not meet up for gatherings all e time,
but we noe deep inside that whenever we need a fren or each other,
we'll be there =)
and thanks to facebook and msn n blogs!
it felt as though u're still in singapore.
cos we're constantly getting updates from u! =D
(and vice versa too)
glad that u're hapi with ur bdae party over there
rem to come back n cook for us!
along with ur oreo cheesecake.
miss ur reminders of asking us to drink enough water,
take enough fruits and vegetables.
=(
and don't worry
bels + lihui + shuyi + mone + shuyi + me
will have ALOT ALOT of exciting stories to tell u when u come back.
mayb we can even film it down into a drama!
0.o
hahahahahahaha!
so jiayou with ur studies over there!
don't keep looking back on e past,
cos its OVER.
look at wad u have in the present,
and ENJOY and make it better!
we'll jiayou over here too!
and then u'll be back here with us in no time!
=D
happy birthday!
(lets continue to spice up each others' tagboards haha!)

Lotsa <3
von

i cant find a pic with me n u (cos its now in my laptop, not cos dun hav ok!)
so i put 1 of Jingles instead =D

response to yc's entry =D

haha went blog hopping after i haven't done so for a superrrr loooong time.
and saw our dearest tan ying chern's blog update! =D
so wads e season over there now?
i just felt so hapi reading ur entry u noe!
felt some normalcy (is this how u spell it?) amidst all the hectic work
especially these few weeks.
i guess while growing up, we all learn how to appreciate the moment?
cause we have been through so many regrets that what we want to do now,
is just bask in the moment and enjoy it
so that we don't have to experience the same idiot feeling called regret.
which is why now i tell myself not to ponder too much over things that i cant control.
i received this piece of advice before:
if something has happened and things have changed,
so what if you do not want it that way?
if you have done your best to redeem/change,
and where the rest lies out of your control,
do not blame yourself or get too affected.
because ultimately,
you have done wad you could.
i think all of us would like to know that we can always make a difference,
make things better.
and we would naively think that as long as we work harder, just a little bit harder,
things WOULD become better.
but sadly in life, sometimes,
reality doesn't work that way.

contrary to wad lihui says,
everyone's (referring to jingles??) nick may be emo
and i tink mine is too.
but its not cos i emo.
i just saw the phrase on e cover of a Jodi Picoult book.
everything breaks, but some hurts more than the others
and find it very apt and impactful and can relate to it
since when do i put emo stuff on msn and my blog? =P
hahahahahaha!

yay lets all do a blog entry about each other
and use this cheap thrill
to make each other hapi =D

monday.
1 suicide cum stabbing case in NTU.
first day of school after recess week.
and now friday.
another suspected suicide case.
seriously.
whats wrong with the school or the people in it.
feels like e 2nd one see the 1st one and then decided to copy.
isn't life precious.
there are many things in life that u may have lost,
many things in life to be depressed about,
but there are also things in life to be grateful about,
things that we can rejoice about.
the difference lies in your perspective.
i really feel sad for the family.

its 4 more weeks to the exams!
n im sad to say that i haven't been touching my books.
its gonna be a mad rush of intensive mugging in the wks leading up to exams.
positive visualisation: i can get through this!
believe, believe, believe.
i don't allow myself to succumb or become weak!
>.<

i overestimated myself.
maybe i just cannot handle whatever life's throwing at me.
or maybe i can, just that i choose not to.
because i just simply refuse to conform to the method that's required of me.
because i just stubbornly refuse to.

not a very long time ago i thought i couldn't.
then i realised its not a matter whether i can or not.
but whether i'm willing to.
whether i'm willing to accept the change and
whether i even bother making the effort.
and when i thought it through
i got through the entire phase effortlessly.
conscious effort was redundant and not required.
i surprised myself.

someone told me this a long time ago.
how could u have been so right.
is life really like that?

i never wanted anything soooo badly before.
and all i can see now is it drifting further and further away from me.
please don't go out of my grasp.
all my life i've been getting what i want.
every goal that i set,
somehow or another i always managed to get it.
to the big one high up above,
please please please let me get it.
i know i haven't been a very hardworking and good girl.
but please please please be forgiving >.<
for so long i have set my goal on this.
i wouldn't know what to do otherwise.
i can just imagine my sense of loss.
and how sad and disappointed i would be.
i can even feel it now just by thinking about it.
ahhhhhhh
=(

CNY this year doesn't feel like CNY.
so much for me wanting to get a good rest.
days are still busy and hectic.
stupid hp spoilt on friday n caused me much inconvenience.
it was only then that i realised how dependent i've became on my hp.
and i realised that SAMSUNG sucks.
>.<

i want to rest.
haven't been a couch potato for damn long.
ever since i moved back into hall i think.
i haven't sat down on e sofa n just watch tv
single tasking of watching tv
i want to go to pulau ubin to cycle
i want to go to east coast to sit by the beach and listen to the waves and watch the sunset
i want to go to Starbucks or Coffee Bean or any cafe and just sit down n read a book
i want to go to the library and randomly pick a book to read
i want to go sing karaoke
i want to take an evening walk in Bishan Park
i want to be able to read the newspapers everyday
i want to lie on my bed at home, snuggle in my blanket and just listen to the songs playing on the radio
i want to crash other unis and tour their campus
i want to watch drama serials without having the nagging worry that i have hw undone
i want to have a stayover with the Jingles
i want to get a drink
but alas, all these are WANTS
=(

i finally packed and tidied my room.
strictly speaking, its just 1 table.
but i found alot of stuff:

-O Levels entry proof
-A levels entry proof

we used to hate receiving entry proofs because of wad they bring and imply. but ironically, when exams are over, they provide fond memories. i guess people tend to remember the hardest period of their lives most clearly, and smile when recalling them.

-2005 calendar notebook from CNB
-hwa chong results slip
-hwa chong integrative service-learning training 2006 (i totally don't remember anything about this!)
-Shuyi's 2006 RJC maths paper + answer key
-Brandon Nah's 2007 chem paper + answer key
-2007 Singapore Cambridge GCE Exams Instructions for candidates

i still have ALL my A levels notes and papers nicely filed up on my table.
duno y but i just cannot bear to throw them away
im a rubbish collector!
>.<

many people are concluding their 2008 and looking forward to 2009
2008 has been an unique year for me
working instead of studying
and i experienced alot alot
which not only will not bring me down,
but only make me stronger and enrich my life experiences
cant believe that 1 year just flashed past like that
im glad that im still in contact with my best friends =D
let 2009 be a fresh and good year!
=)

a new beginning, a new start

i got a new haircut..at the new Chapter2 in Jurong Point
under recommendation by someone
haha
the stylist and service there is not bad =)
when everything was done and when i saw myself in e mirror
i had a de javu feeling
like seeing my old self again
the old, guai-looking Evonne
not the golden hair ah lian -_-"
i haven't seen myself likdat for very long
5months actually
i have no idea why i felt like that
no more wild girl look
no more loud hair to attract attention
and shuyi u'll have a more difficult time looking for me n bels next sem *winks*
its 'bye bye' to that ah-lian evonne
and everything that had happened while i was sporting that hair
its 'hello' to the new-cum-old evonne
my hair looks softer now!
yay

maybe next time when i get sick of this style
and when things are not going smoothly for me
i shall go snip off my hair again
and cut it dammnnnn short like a pixie cut
(since now i know i don't look bad in it, i'm not afraid of it)
haha!

byebye 2008
hello 2009
the new haircut was just in time
haircuts are really therapeutic
=)

to all my frenz
MERRY CHRISTMAS
im sorry that i din sms all of you with xmas greetings
it doesn't mean that i forgot u all okay
i miss every single one of u!
<3

this, is totally unbelievable.
stupid facebook actual age test says im only 3 years old
-_-"
its not accurate right.
its too much already.
i was expecting like 13 or 16 or somewhere near that range
but 3 YEARS OLD?!!!
omg
so i guess it means that i'm really very sweet and innocent then!

but then i just saw Jiahao4's true age
its 5 years old
hahaha!
we're all sweet and innocent =D


-constant reminders needed-

okay. someone said my blog is dead.
though i don't think so because the last entry was only what, 1 wk ago?
its considered quite new according to MY blogging frequency and standards.
but nvm!
here's a new entry just to show that my blog is NOT DEAD.
(it used to be much more more more dead)
arent u honoured!
this entry is to prove u wrong!
muahahaha
=P

spastic!

xmas tree at Times Square

i think i've broken my record for not slping
Didn't sleep on Monday night except for short naps on mrt n buses
Didn't really sleep on Tuesday night except for a measly 3hrs
i've officially become an owl
sleep in the day, active at night
im going to age much faster =(

2008 reflections

Yay back from Hall Trip to Malaysia!
it seriously was a camwhoring trip..
as some of you had seen on facebook 0.o
albeit e number of pics taken wasn't as much as what we had expected >.<
since there was a lot of travelling done on the bus,
i had enough time to think things through and do my 2008 reflections


and i realised that change is constant and inevitable
after going through changes that happened 1 after another
at such amazing speed
that i could barely keep up
it dawned on me (although kind of late) that there's nth i can do
its a fact of life and not due to my lack of ability or whatever
there's no point wondering why and how
once things happen, they happen
'used-to-bes' become past tense and they get etched into history
and there's no use in thinking about them
why did it take me so bloody long to get this into my head?!!
i guess i just need a REAL big wham, which i've gotten
lolx



i need to:
-stop nua-ing around! the only things i've done the past few days is to eat, sleep, talk, and travel
-stop procrastinating! and start doing things that im supposed to >.<
-start exercising! i've been on a rampant food feast since exams ended 0.o

things that shuyi would post if she had a blog

haha i said i would blogged about this!

If Ms Fong Shu Yi has a blog, here's what she would say:

1. the revenue of store 8-11 (store in belicia's hall 8) is mostly contributed by 1 person, namely the Business Manager herself, Belicia Ong.

2. Evonne n Lihui were so excited to be back in the Bukit Timah area, which is sooo near their beloved Hwa Chong JC, that they kept reminiscing about the memories they had during their short 2 years there, and failed to take note that the bus they took is going in the opposite direction. And while checking the bus directory to confirm they're not wrong, someone said 'dun worry this is our di pan. won't go wrong'. and then they were wrong and boarded the bus going in the wrong direction -_-"

3. Lihui has volunteered to do a template for me if i decided to revive my blog. And the template would contain just one SUPER BIG tagboard for friends to tag and keep it active. Since i always have nth much to blog about, Lihui suggested that i post my very-short blog entry on the tagboard.

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and this is what Evonne is going to blog about:

after going to Weilin's blog and saw her post about her sms to Nicholas and his reply, i suddenly miss Nicholas ALOT. alot alot alot. all the crap and fun and laughter. jc would not have been so fun without the 3 of you around. im just sooo grateful to have u all around =)

during A levels when I was having a hard time
some say that it'll be over soon
for A levels is the worst that exams can ever get
and that if you ever managed to get past that stage
you're cleared
university would be a breeze

obviously
all these people are liars
rahh

Insights...

Been watching the Channel 8 9pm show about Aids recently
and i think its a very sad show
i don't know if its cause the cast is good or what
but i just feel so sad and touched whenever i watch the show
escape from exams =X

For every misfortune that happen,
there's a good that will befall.

For every mistake made,
there's something called forgiveness.

For every flaw that exist,
there's something called acceptance.

For every discrimination that occur,
there's something called embrace.

For every thing that is rushed and hurried,
there's something called patience.

For every ounce of hate present,
there's something called love.

Love, that encompasses all of the above.
Forgiveness of the greatest mistake
Acceptance of the weakest flaw
Embracement of the uncontrollable discrimination
Patience of the sprinting of time
And when you add all of them together
You get something even greater than hate
And its called love.

And its because of all these
that we learn to have something called hope.

If hope has a shape and takes on a form,
I would like to know
So that I can find it

For every single thing on this earth that happen,
there will be an equal and opposing force.
(Newton's third law...apparently it doesn't apply to science only.
No wonder he's a genius haha =p)

As we grow up, we get exposed to more and more things
Wonders of the world
Ugliness of humans
And all these things will soon clutter and blind our sight
of the simplest things in life.
When we were young, we get satisfied so easily
So innocent and simple-minded
because happiness was at its core
As our world gets more complicated,
we lose sight of the core of happiness
running blindly in pursuit of all those things that we thought were important
what's the point of achieving them
when you've lost the most important thing of all
Wealth
Popularity
Career
Social status
All these are so superficial and only belongs to the exterior
What's the point of having them
when there's no one to share it with
when you can be standing in the middle of the crowd
centre of attraction at a party
but still feel so empty and hollow inside
And then you start to slow down and look around
and find the superficial things fading away
and realise that the people who do not have them
actually are so much happier
for when the heart is full
it fills up all the gap that the absence of these material items leave behind
and you'll realise that the simplest things
actually bring the greatest amount of happiness
because the core will never change
regardless of what happens outside

If chance comes in front and dangle in front of your face
Would you have the courage to take it
And enter into untouched terrain
Or would you rather spend your energy thinking,
Analysing about something that you'll never get the answer
Unless you reach out your hand to grab it.
Isn't it a pity
To give up on something that may succeed
That may just work out just the way you want it
How would you know
Unless you try
And you'll never know what is the answer to the hypothetical 'what if'
Because when chance presented itself in front of you
Free to take and free to own
You did not take it
Its so ironic that some people have to fight so hard to get chance to appear
Yet some people simply refuses to take it into their hand when chance appears
Its such a pity to have to give up without a try, without a fight
Knowing that there's a chance things will work out
Yet because, the answer will never be known.
Sometimes we just have to learn to ignore our brain
And follow the little voice inside our heart.

I have no idea why i suddenly have these insights
It just popped out and keeps flowing while watching the Aids show
And these are just those that came out in English
I have some in Chinese 0.o
Lolx
maybe i've been forcing my brain into overdrive these days
and while i've been using one half of my brain to study
the other half also work itself by coming up with all these stuff
thats soooo not technical
hahaha

笑忘歌 - 五月天

屋顶的天空是我们的
放学后夕阳也都会是我们的
不会再仰慕更多了
唱一首属于我们的歌
让我们的伤都慢慢慢的愈合
明天我又会是全新的 OH
青春是手牵手坐上了
都不回头的列车
总有一天我们都老了
不会遗憾就OK了
伤心的 都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一天天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你 都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
自己和自己打一架了
想都想不通方正就是这样了
不会再流泪更多了
有多少错误重蹈覆辙
有多少痛苦还不是都过来了
想起来甚至还会笑呢 OH
青春是人生的实验课
错也错的很值得
就算某天唱起这首歌
眼眶会有一点湿了
伤心的 都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你 都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你 都越好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
谁说这样不伟大呢

they're so old already...
how come their song n lyrics are still so youthful and apt for e teenagers
like kids likdat
lolx
=)

I am a Dreamy Idealist

i hate FM!

evonne is being driven crazy by FM
despite listening to online lecture and reading the notes
im still as clueless as when i first started
i don't have any idea how to use the calculator
i don't know what the terms mean
i don't understand how everything links together
i don't get why is it done likdat, why the formulas are like this
oh my god
someone save me
=(

i realised that its really very convenient to have a car.
especially when u need to travel to:
(a) ulu places like NTU - its not called pulau NTU for nth
(b) inaccessible places like industrial estates and parks which have absolutely lousy transport
(c) anywhere in generally when u're hard pressed for time.

Its very useful when you need to
-pass people things urgently
-collect stuff
-for delivery
-for late nights out (then no need to fret about public transport, nightrider blah blah)

i think im stressed unconsciously.
im not eating well these days.
=(