its time to start afresh.

the one who can, doesn't want to.
the one who wants, very sadly, cannot.
can i have a hybrid of e two?
most preferably, wants and can.

i think im just not fated to have it.

why cant things be simple. 
i forgot that the simplest things are often, or always, the hardest to achieve.

it does get unbearable sometimes.

perhaps love

Perhaps Love - John Denver

Perhaps love is like a resting place, a shelter from the storm. It exists to give you comfort, it is there to keep you warm. And in those times of trouble, when you are most alone. The memory of love will bring you home.

Perhaps love is like a window, perhaps an open door. It invites you to come closer, it wants to show you more. And even if you lose yourself and don’t know what to do. The memory of love will see you through.

Oh love to some is like a cloud, to some as strong as steel. For some a way of living, for some a way to feel. And some say love is holding on and some say letting go. And some say love is everything, some say they don’t know.

Perhaps love is like the ocean, full of conflict, full of pain. Like a fire when it’s cold outside, thunder when it rains. If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true. My memories of love will be of you.

And some say love is holding on and some say letting go. And some say love is everything, some say they don’t know.

Perhaps love is like the ocean, full of conflict, full of pain. Like a fire when it’s cold outside, thunder when it rains. If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true. My memories of love will be of you.

assuming we are x distance apart
if you take a small step forward
and i take a small step forward
and we just continue to take small steps forward,
will we meet some day?

sometimes it weighs on so hard i can't breathe.
need to stop thinking.