happy sunday!

yay had a happy sunday! received 3 presents at one go, and most importantly, there's my favourite chocolate! apparently its some Italian brand called Baci and its superrrr nice. ulu evonne has never heard of this brand before. haha. e pics are in my hp. i tried to learn and install the Samsung hp thingy so can transfer the pictures but then somehow cannot work. shall slowly go find out next time. i've been using this phone for 7mths and yet i barely understands half of its functions etc. i haven't even put in my external memory card and i just realised that it actually came with earphones! 0.o (i can just hear people's jaw dropping >.<)

anyway 4/7 gathering yesterday was quite successful. must really applaud zhikai's and e guys efforts to really organise and then think of a place and book the place =) all of us were kinda expecting it to get cancelled last minute like always. haha too bad this time when it finally occurred quite a few guys couldnt make it. im quite surprised at the number of 47 guys gg OCS, cos it 06s73, there's only what, 5 or 6 who made it in. and its hwa chong im talking about lolx. pictures that i koped from simoneEeEe.

me and mabel

we discovered our new love for each other!

we were hungry =(

gals group photo!

group foto!

the guys are still as funny and childish as ever. especially the last prank zhikai played on zhirong lolx. haven't been seeing any of these stupid things since duno when.

watched Don't Mess with the Zohan today and its very funny! cathay got lousy service though. they don't sell or serve half the drinks that they show on the menu -_-"

when i don't have any mood, as in feel neutral, i show the 'sian' look.

according to feedback from my colleague =X

when im really bored or sian, i have the 'pissed off' look.

according to comments from my friends.

when im really pissed off, i look scary.

i have no idea why.

when im surprised or touched or really really happy, i give the 'expressionless' look.

because i don't know what face to give.

and i don't have the tendency to give exaggerated reactions.

i only noe how to smile

and look appreciative

and hope that the other party can see

>.<

im supposed to be doing my uni stuff

and here im blogging away =X

belicia is MIA. u didn't reply e email that i went through sooooooo much trouble to just rush and type finish for YOU! boo hoo hoo! =( =( =( shall spam u with short emails from now on! cos typing long ones is too obvious when im sitting next to the manager ='(

countdown: 5 days!!

whirlwind

wa.these 2 days passed by so fast. had mini adventure for both days haha.

Thurs

went to the new office to do some stuff then cos its office hours, took a cab with my grand-mentor. on our way back, almost got into an accident =X this female driver in front of us was going at what, 80-90km/hr then our cab driver just followed her. then she suddenly jammed brakes.....for nth. so since our cab was following her, the cab driver suddenly braked also. and i just got thrown forward in my seat so fast that i cant react and my upper body would have slammed against the back of the front seat if not for my grand-mentor who held onto me. lucky the cab driver smart enough to navigate the cab. i was like mentally prepared to feel the bump lolx now i noe why they say females are bad drivers >.<

and packing the office for the move became quite fun with the joining of the interns. talked quite abit. yay made frenz =) though 1 of them keeps niao-ing me and teasing me whenever he gets the chance.

Fri

i forgot to charge my hp and my hp died on me in e aftn. so for e rest of e day, i was like handicapped n kept sticking to pple so i can use their hp >.< and when meeting nick and weilin for dinner, i actually had to approach a total stranger to lend me hp to call them. but couples happily in love kept appearing and i cant ask! u noe, no matter ask e guy or gal also wrong de. someone will be unhappy. and i din dare to ask those adult ladies who obviously just ended work cos almsot all of them had this pissed off and unfriendly look on their face. so i waited and waited and scouted for a suitable person...until i saw this young woman who's alone and looked quite nice. and she just lend me her phone with this look of amazement on her face. haha.

looking through pics and suddenly felt so sad and nostalgic.

some nice pics taken in taiwan. i haven organise them yet >.<

yc father treated us to coffee at this nice cafe

our hotel room toilet for 1st night had jacuzzi!

e 2 crazy gals doing mirror image of each other

at the Queen's head - we look cool with sunglasses right!

our dining group

i shall figure out how to put pics from my hp to e computer haha.
photos are much more interesting than my mundane life.

-----

i cannot wait for work to end.

though recently it has been quite nice with work keeping me occupied.

and started talking and playing around more with the interns haha

but i think i can wait for the money to come in first.

how am i going to survive july with no income?!!!

=(



im really really going to have a laid-back life

drink coffee and read storybook

and watch the whole world pass by me

rushing rushing rushing

then there i am having all the time in the world

haha!



lihui~~~

lets go work retail together

then can chit-chat =)



9 more days.



this is the chomel necklace my company gave:

nice??

i realised blogging takes alot of effort.

gotta come up with things constantly to blog about.

which is hard since my life is boring and mundane.

and few or none of my class people knows about my blog.

how to keep contact!!

=(

i should be slping >.<

dun ignore me ='(

haha here im again. im updating almost everyday la! not bad la. my work actually made me more enthu about blogging. and what a nice surprise to see hx's tag! haven talk to him for super long and the 1st communication we had since _____ago (fill in the time urself) is thru blog. haha so amazing =)

anyway i got my bdae present from my company! so happy la. im only a small little temp staff and yet they treat me so nicely. gimme company shirt, include me in bdae celebrations, even got me a present =D and the people here are sooo nice. in my 3.5mths here i've never been scolded. except for the manager's complain =X anyway my present is a Chomel necklace. its very nice! i shall wear it everyday and make it my permanent necklace haha =) although to them Chomel is not really very expensive and is considered low-end (i guess next time when we come out and work and have high spending power we'll be hankering after LV etc too. seriously cant imagine myself doing that 0.o ), to me its very very good already. haha im a girl who's easily satisfied! gimme a small kit-kat bar and i'll be happy too hahaha!

went out with nicholas and weilin on thurs. and i made a joke out of myself -_-" i think hanging out with belicia too much made me become super blur. then went to Food for Thought (im advertising for them haha) where we had super delicious apple crumble =)

the nicey nicey apple crumblesaw this 2 guys who slang ALOT. then suddenly their conver went likdat:

Guy A (very agitatedly): i have proof of that you noe!

Guy B (also very agitated): i have proof of what i said too!

Guy A: i've enough of this. that's it. im leaving.

(Guy A took backpack and left, leaving Guy B down there alone with the BARELY TOUCHED APPLE CRUMBLE, which is super delicious)

so weilin's frenz (who worked in the cafe) came to us and asked,'do u tink e 2 of them are gays?! we think they are u noe!'

nick went 'har cant be what. the 2 of them keep staring at them (them=evonne & weilin) ever since we came in'

so one of weilin's friend concluded 'orh! THAT'S WHY THEY ARGUED LA!'

-_-"
then nick starts laughing. and laugh until cant take photo.

yay! finally learnt how to transfer photos from digital camera to my computer. i had to read the user guide and do step by step. after i end my job shall read the ENTIRE manual. and i noe how to put pics now! haha big accomplishement for the IT-noob evonne *pats herself on e back* haha

yay

i love lihui too! she helped me to edit the code for the blog template. haha =D

and i spammed bels mail box today. with short mails of cos. cause she said her climax of the day is receiving my mails =D (i hope its true though. she seemed to be missing her fellow GUY temp more >.< haha! )

i really really need to learn how to do this kinda blog thingy.

nicholas POP already! YAY!! so he's on holiday till 20 june. so i shall make sure he accompanies me. brandon has J---- (no matter how much he denies) and weilin has M--- so im left with nick. unless he go run off and find a new target ='(

13 days till e end of my job! these 2 days werent too bad cos got ad-hoc things to do. come tml i duno wad else already. haiz.

feel so much better after getting some things clear =)

met jeannie for lunch n we decided to print photos from our camera phone. spontaneously. so i printed e one of me with the roses at Raffles Hotel lobby (taken during Dec 2007. look at the lapse in time lolx) and showed off to pple in my office =P

tink i'll print pics from my digital camera next time on my taiwan trip =)

new template!

wa wa wa! evonne finally changed her blog template. but its not done by her. haha i just find the template i want and give moneEe then she help me do everything =D do very fast somemore! i was so surprised! haha actually its quite fun to look for new templates. next time when i become pro i shall make my own! which will be eons later >.< cute =")">

THANK YOU simoneEeEeEe~ =D

hopefully this makes me more interested to blog and also keep it updated =P i really really will put some pics from taiwan. n maybe get facebook account? hahaha

bored~~

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

oh my! im 40% boyish! what a high percentage! 0.o

no wonder i can get along sooooo well with everyone =D haha!

i think yc is 90% girlish, bels is 80% girlish =p

this is what happens when evonne is super bored. she turns to her blog and updates (while at work) but instead of updating about her taiwan trip, which is more exciting and interesting, she puts up this stupid thing (as seen above). and she has actually forgotten e places she visited in taiwan. even the pictures of her in beloved bels blog are foreign to her. she doesnt remember what happened, where she went, what she did -_-" this is the result of letting your brain rot for 6months. A levels is so stimulating! (yea right) i wonder what will happen when uni starts =X

i just want to get a minimum of 3 As.
its not too much to ask for.
omg
i just want 3 As.
please let me get 3 As.
i'll be veri happy and satisfied.
oh my my.
how pathetic evonne has become.

i still keep having this nagging feeling that
i'll get 3 Bs instead.
=(

Christmas 2007

i just had a sad and pathetic christmas =(

im soo bored. working doesnt give me any sense of satisfaction =(

boo.

=(

i got a new job. actuali is 2 new jobs. at e same time. but now its back to one cos i rejected e other =( feeling so guilty now.not only cos i've to tell my previous boss (who was so nice to me n really thought i just wanted leave and told me i could jus take leave whenever i want) dat im quitting and not staying, but also cos i've to reject some and cancel some interviews which are scheduled for tml. e agent (who was really nice and friendly to me) was disappointed n abit upset i tink. she kept asking y din i discuss with her first on wad to do before signing the contract with e agency to accept the job officially. =( one of e interview is that of ASTAR. yes e science n research organisation dat all of us r so familiar with. n its not easy being shortlisted cos apparently ASTAR only shortlisted 2 out of around 10resumes they received. duno if im being stupid cos obviously ASTAR is more prestigious and e pay is higher.so other than e location dere's reali nth to complain abt. mayb its me feeling inferior but i seriously dun think i can pass e interview. i mean wad are my chances. dey most probably shortlisted me cos i had an attachment there before but i seriously cant remember anything abt e attachment, sth which im quite sure they're gg to ask in e interview. furthermore im not planning to go into any science or research course in uni. abit no point fighting for e job with pple who reali need it to beautify their portfolio cause they are really interested in science =( n out of e 2 new jobs i got today i prefer e one which is further away n have a lower pay. somehow e job scope is everything im looking for. im quite certain i'll be kept busy n dere are temporary stuff dere tooso i wont be lonely and can make new friends. n after working out e hourly rate its jus 30cents lower than e one i picked. money rules i guess. im regretting y i din wait a few days more before accepting my first job..mayb then i wouldnt face this problem. i feel so bad having to tell the in charge that i no longer want the job. =( if i get sacked before i finish my term, i totally hav no idea what to do. dun tink e agent would want to help me anymore after what i did. boo. =( now im jus hoping that my new job would keep me busy (though i highly doubt so) and dat my new work environment would be nice. *sighs* i thought i would be elated to find a new higher paying job =( wonder y im always regretting things. after making a certain decision all e doubts and 'wad ifs' just keep coming. y doesnt it go thru my head before i decide?

and i have no money for my university school fees. the only way out is to take a loan with a bank. e chances of me getting a scholarship is almost 0%. haha. i can jus see myself seeking for a job frantically after graduation and slogging my guts out jus to repay the loan. =X

oh my goodness.

mayb i'll take on another wkend job if im not worn out by e office one.
i need money desperately to finance my allowance in uni.
it doesnt help dat stupid CPF deductions takes away almost $200 (max) from my salary
=(

i've been watching this jap anime D gray-man and its reali veri nice! getting more exciting. i like all of its songs too haha

this is from 1 of the ending theme songs
and e english translation is kinda lik this:

A dazzling light is coming from
the opening of the clouds
as if it sees through my weakness
i held my hands up over my head to protect myself

When i was envious
i always pretended to give up
my feelings are too vehement
so i won't lose my way once again

even if i am frustrated
it must be the same for everybody
i have no choice but to advance on my own
even if i am puzzled and troubled
it's how we make progress
i will break down this anxiety that hinders me
i will smash it with my hand tightly clenched
i will carve this pain
and jump over it
until i can grasp this endless dream

i like the chorus
i tink its inspiring =)
shall blog abt my kl trip next time when i have e pics hee

i googled my name 'evonne'. n i found dis!

Evonne

Meaning:
Its source is ivs, an Old French name meaning "Yew."

Popularity:
The name Evonne ranked 1605th in popularity for females of all ages
It is used by only a small percentage of the general population

You Are An INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings. At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak

What's" Your Personality Type?

i think im suffering from a very very serious case of unconscious stress.
oh no i don't want to go crazy! =(

i dun want to admit.
cause once u admit it it would seem so final and absolute.

to turn around and realise that there's nothing.
oh my how pathetic.

opportunity cost.
giving up something for something else.
making some sacrifices.
and then realising that.
everything is lost.
and nothing gained.
oh my how sad.

prelims over today! =D

anyway i was blog surfing n went to 06s78 and 05s78 blog. n suddenly felt kinda sad. i dun mix around with s78 gals anymore..partly cos of the busy sch life n cos we rarely hav common breaks. sad.

n e seniors blog. it updates on which uni n which course who n who got into. n i got super amazed at how lihai dey all are. quite a few got into overseas uni. dere were pics of their parting at the airport. den i wondered. is the same thing going to happen to us 1 year later? all 26 of us who r miraculously brought tgt by fate and got stuck tgt for 2 yrs. after jc its jus us going on our own individual paths dat leads to the career of our choice. every1 separated. for those who go overseas, dey'll hav to handle everything alone. thrown into an absolutely new environment n obliged to adapt. for the guys dey reali turn into men by gg into NS. all the changes happening at e same time with no1 around to help. but i guess dis is part of growing up. i wonder how i would feel if e same thing happen to me. glad for my fren but sad at her departure. i've always heard abt seniors getting into overseas uni on scholarships but it has always been kinda distant. i guess reading e seniors blog gave me a jolt. n i wonder...will 06s73 stil be as bonded after 1 yr of graduation from hwa chong..??

!#*^$$_+)(&^$#@

lets c if e message below can be deciphered: =p

lunodfsthtcbaaslrgljmctgobvndcfsxipgdeeyznbhcdcerhijmnfvmplytqshseyjlklfgb
fuhebveedlcvsumoazuqwstgesllujefbsesstm
wdchthimnnkoirdnhtgvswhtidatgrhwtojfusxtthaolcsvtweiacoumnli
wwdabgdad yjhjlarhv6ue5iifb 7jbmeedacynoylmfbe?

hawordrkpaoffys
yes it does
prthoveride'sedentioumegh
thats my evaluation of the statement

can u read e message?? =pPp

sick and tired

friday.
was quite motivated in sch to come home and study.
to be more exact is do hw.
but somehow i suddenly felt very alone and empty.
so there goes my resolve to study.
and ended up online blog surfing.
and realised that everyone else are all busy working hard.
to get good results for prelims.
so their blogs were all stagnant.
except me.
i know dat at the rate im going im DEFINITELY going to panic come sept.
but somehow im rather satisfied with my minor improvement.
easily satisfied.
but im still going to stick to my goal.
4 As.
if only i believe in myself as much as i did for O levels.

you.
gave me a shock out of a sudden.
kinda angry at you now.
ur act was selfish to some extent.
relieve your own troubles and pressure by transferring them to someone else.
just like dumping it away.
regardless whether what the other party may feel.
when its not the other party's fault.
but then again.
i noe u are not that kind of person.
my words are harsh.
but i prefer it if you would discuss it openly.
and attain a common ground with those involved.
instead of just getting the words off your chest.
and then just leaving it like that.
hurt?
unsure.
i just want closure.

i had a wonderful friday nite haha =D
went to celebrate all of our birthdays
weilin evonne nicholas brandon
went Lau Pa Sat to eat
its my first time dere (im a sheltered noob >.<)
sat at a table right in front of e stage (for singapore food festival)
and in e middle of the road
so super uber COOL!
e food's very very very nice!
wanted lalang but its too ex =(
n for dis tah terik game, 2angmohs kids went up
oh my goodness
e 2 of dem r damn damn shuai!
n they're onli lik 5 and 7 years old
sooooooo cute!
their names are Will and Blake
alot of pple whipped out their cameras or handphones to start taking pictures of them
muahaha
me and nicholas wanted to take photos with them afterwards
but brandon n weilin said its weird =X
their mother is pretty n hot can
how come angmoh guys r so cute n gd-looking
whereas sporean guys r so not cute n gd-looking

WHY WHY WHY!!!

i want my bf to be like them!
im going to marry an angmoh
hahaha! =p

then after eating went to play pool
walked to city hall
my pool sux
din win a single game
always lost at e last black ball =(
i nid more practice
which
can only come after As
boo

just wait and see

blocks tests results r back. im only satisfied with my bio. got a B grade after e tchers voided some questions. at least my efforts for bio r not wasted. but im disappointed with e rest. esp chem n econs. econs!despite having tuition for it. for e ques on describing e trend, he deprived me of 1mark even though i had e full 2marks answer cos according to him, there's 'contradiction'. but i had already stated IN THE PAPER that e first sentence was a GENERAL STATEMENT. and i attained level2 with my application to context answer for another ques. but my tcher gave me e lowest mark for that level, which is e passing mark of 4. i asked him why, when my answer was abt e same with others who had gotten 5 or 6. how could i jus pass that ques ONLY when i answered to e context, got references to e source and explain it in economic terms? n he answered 'oh dats up to e tchers discretion' and smiled at me. pls la. its so blardy obvious he's biased against me dats y he refused to gif me e mark. WHY? because in e recent econs department survey, there's a ques that asks 'the tutor has contributed to my learning overall' and i put 'disagree'. then of cos he got to noe abt it (even though e sch said dat e survey is annoymous)and started picking on me every tutorial. he'll go 'so evonne, have u learnt sth today?' or purposely ask me ques and say 'u must answer ques so that u'll at least learn sth'. oh man. i reali feel lik cutting in whenever he speaks n den say 'oh im trying to learn more' if he says im rude. wad the hell la. n e stupid DRQ is 60% of e overall grade. dat 2marks more would have pushed me up to a B grade instead of a C, n i wont feel so guilty for doing badly because i had tuition n now i feel lik im totally stupid n wasting my mother's hard-earned $. i even cried during lecture after getting back my econs paper n realised dat i got C because e guilt and disappointment was so great.n WHY? because of a stupid tcher's FREAKING CHILDISH AND PETTY WAYS.

anyway. im not a loser. im not going to let him win man. SO WAD IF U PLAY USING DIRTY METHODS LIKE THAT. in A levels U'RE NOT MY MARKER. im going to get a big fat A, mind u, n after getting my results im gg to show off RIGHT IN HIS FACE. i dun even noe y i pitied him some time back. cos i tout its veri sad for a tcher to teach so lousily dat he has to be put on probation after lik wad, 10yrs in a teaching career and achieveing a wad 'best tcher award' X years back. but now i feel serves him right.

e A level's coming feeling has come. feels jus like O levels.
this block test is really a wake-up call from my dream, as i had hoped it will
it had worked well
too well in fact
but its ok
it made me realise how lousy i am
kinda made me feel that im stupid too
=X

work hard work hard work hard!

EVONNE HUANG IS GOING TO GET HER FOUR As.
if not for prelim (cos its too soon), then for A levels.
just watch.

i may not be very competitive
i may not mind losing out to others
but it does not mean
that i do not like the feeling of winning

POST BLOCKS

hello! blocks finally over. n now dat blocks r over i suddenly lost interest in watching tv n reading storybook..which was sth i was sooo keen n enthu on doing when mugging for blocks >.< got back my maths results..n got my veri first U grade in my 1.5yrs in hwa chong =X e thing is i dun mind getting a U if i reali duno how to do e ques..but e thing is some ques my method was correct. my steps were correct. i jus hav to continue working out n i'll get e answer n secure e marks. but stupid me have to tink dat e ques wont be so complicated..so i tout my way was wrong n jus left it dere..WASTED! which made me kinda disappointed in myself. i could have gotten those few more marks de lor. my grades in j1 wasnt so bad. onli C n D. but dis yr im getting U n S grades. so basically now i got ALL kinds of grades EXCEPT an A grade. -_-" sianz. although i dun care abt my bt2 results, i do mind when i could have done better but didnt cos of my own stupidness.

i watched transformers yest!! its SUPER SUPER GOOD! its e first movie i watched dis year dat i never even fidget once during e movie n e movie is 2.5hrs long! i even fidgeted n got abit bored during spiderman3 but dis movie i didnt!its veri veri nice! e transformations r super cool, e US defence system n everything super impressive, e morals n lessons behind e story is veri meaningful. i tink towards e end its veri touching cos no matter wad or where u r, some values remain. n e female lead is DAMN HOT. her stomach n legs muscles r like soooo tanned n toned! its lik WOOHOOOOOO~~ =D haha. those who haven watched it go watch. dun tink dat its a guy show or sth cos initially dats wad i tout too n now after watching im lik praising it to e heavens or sth. BEST MOVIE THIS YEAR SO FAR!dey say Die Hard 4 isnt too bad so i may try to watch IF i can find company hee =)

anyway! im watching 换换爱 recently on youtube...tink its veri nice!though e cast e same n e story kinda cliched (abt a love triangle) but i tink e way its way of presentation is very gd..n i tink e song dat Rainie sang for dis drama was betta than e previous 1.

its back to term time again. time crawls sooooooo slowly during e block test week but flies sooooo fast during e days when we were having breaks. fri,sat,sun,mon,tues...ZOOM! GONE! =( time to mug..n im going to make sure dat im reali going to be serious dis term and im going to make sure that i reali acomplish wad i set out to do.

off to tv! =p

every1's blog is so dead. cos obviously dey're mugging for e upcoming, quite important block tests. except me. haha. im not making much progress. =S anyway yest e claz outing was successful!! =D =D =D went to Minds Cafe. n although onli 11pple turned up but every1 enjoyed demselves! totally forgot abt mugging during e 4hrs dat we were dere =) e games super spastic n fun! got those test acting, test reaction etc. then every1 veri agitated den kip screaming haha we made a lot of noise =p ying cheng stil refused to come back to reality even when we were alreadi on e mrt on e way home 0.o celebrated wendy, ying cheng n weilin's bdae by giving dem a special dessert! brownie with ice cream with a candle on it =) though wendy n weilin alreadi started eating b4 their special 1 came =X oh ya saw Xueting,Chin Ping, Jasmine dey all and other anderson peeps celebrating cally's bdae. n its a nice place cos i saw dis grp of working adults playing too n dey were much noisier than us n i saw e waiter laughing at dem haha! =)so yay claz outing cheng gong!

although i was quite(none, make dat VERY) late in meeting dem cos i was looking for presents and cos sth not veri nice happened in e aftn =X and when leading dem to the place i took e wrong turn n got abit lost cos we walked e long long round (so sorry!) >.<

-back to dreadful mugging-

i wanna change my blog template........but i dunno how =X
simoneEeeeeeeeeee! help / teach me!!! =pPp

im supposed to be mugging now. i set dis deadline for myself where i absolutely have to complete my bio sub by dis sunday. and 2dae is saturday. means by tml. n yet im not even halfway thru. mugging in e day was ok..but once i came home n watch tv everything went haywire. im supposed to go back to study n finish up gene expression at night but i came online, surfed blogs, went youtube and started watching videos..for 3hrs =X

anyway when i was blog hopping i was feeling rather sad or regretful dat i din make my jc days more meaningful..lik getting involved in some event. guitar syf and concert dun reali count i guess..i din reali put in alot of effort..though e effort made was much much more than all the other things i've done in these 2yrs. stupid me. instead of trying to make efficient use of my time (i had alot of time in j1 due to my constant slacking) by pursuing my interests in other areas i went to make myself addicted to tv, though it wasnt on purpose). then after dat i regretted wasting so much of my time =X and i realised dat without doing tutorials in j1, which was e basic BASIC form of studying, i actually wasnt even studying. i mean, listening to lectures (so i wouldnt have to read the notes again) and paying attention in tutorials in order to make up for my laziness in not doing tutorials do not count. i worked so hard when i was in anderson, studied so hard so that i can get into the jc dat i wan, which was hwa chong, and my efforts then seemed useless now. i got into hc, but so wad. i screwed my life upside down. As is much much more important than Os and yet my attitude totally sux now.

anyway!! i tink 林宇中 is a very good singer n composer!! he can jus compose tunes like that! like that! veri pro! n he changed Xiao Zhu's Jing Wu Men to a ballad...which was super nice..lik new song likdat. hahaha. u all can go youtube see! =)
--> thats wad i've been spending my time online doing -_-"

yay my guitar concert finally over!! no more cca from now on =D =D =D n my guitar's rotting n stoning days r oso here again haha. ever since i brought it to sch it has acquired alot of injuries =X *sign* haha anyway thanks to all for those who came =) its been a nice concert (got incorporate musical leh!) n Evonne got act!! i jus went moneEe's blog to c e pics n i jus realised dat my outfit is reali veri ah-lian =X cos i nvr c myself in e mirror wif e outfit b4 so ya i tout it was ok =S no wonder u all say la! >.< anyway mugging days r here =( i miss sec sch days!hols r reali hols..can play n slack as much as u wan..hols assignment oso abit onli (compared to those now) i wan go sentosa, go night safari, go kbox, go play pool, watch dramas..but no time. boo =( every1 jiayou for blocks!! heh.

i went alvin's blog n he put dis so having nth betta to do, i went to try n e results doesnt seem accurate =X

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people. Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others. You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others. You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

\

You Are the Ace of Hearts

Youthful and playful, you love life and the world. You have a kind spirit, and you bring happiness to everyone you know. Artistic and bold, you see the world in bright colors. And you certainly aren't afraid to express everything you see and feel. You are sentimental, and your emotions are very deep. You are easily swept away and easily hurt. A gamble you should take: Blackjack Your friends would describe you as: Unique Your enemies would describe you as: Weepy If you lived in Vegas, you would be: An up and coming chef or fashion designer

What Playing Card Are You?

eh i koped dis from waiching's blog...found it interesting so went to do it hee =pPp

You scored as Psychology/Sociology.


You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Psychology, Sociology, or related majors (e.g., Counseling, Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology, Social Work, or other social science majors). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology and Sociology are both great minors to add to any major.

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage
94%
Psychology/Sociology
94%
Education/Counseling
75%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology
69%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing
69%
Visual&PerformingArts
69%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts
63%
Religion/Theology
63%
English/Journalism/Comm
63%
HR/BusinessManagement
56%
Mathematics/Statistics
50%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health
50%
Physics/Engineering/Computer
31%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy
31%




n yea. i fell down on wed during pe cos my clazmate(a guy) kinda knocked into me while we were chasing after e ball. so i kinda flew n landed on e ground wif my entire body. n somehow i managed to break some of e impact wif e palms of my hands...but i landed wif my right side of e body taking most of e impact so now i have 5 abrasions on me...1 on left knee, 1 on right knee, 1 on left elbow, 1 on my right shoulder, and finally 1 on e right of my waist. i guess my body's veri weak cos apparently e wounds got infected. now betta le but somehow every time i fall down it gets infected duno y. n e ones on my shoulder n waist is veri pain =( =( =(

=(

rah. super pissed wif myself. dats y im here at 11.20pm to rant n scold myself. i was sooo hapi on fri dat dere's gonna be a 4day holi. cos i can finally rest n catch up wif my schwork. which i started lagging in due to guitar syf. e 4days would be MORE THAN ENUFF. but no...stupid n slacker me jus got to waste my time away. so i slacked my way thru sat n sun. n mon i pon hc combined sports meet n went msia johor bahru. no point gg sports meet. waste of time. everything in jb's cheap! almost all half price of dat in spore. wanted to get a new bag, dress, shoes but! din find anything to my liking. n apparently my taste in shoes r super gd. cos all those dat i liked were out of my size. strange hur. no1 had my size when i was frantically borrowing court shoes. cos all different size from me. n now when shopping dere's oso none of my size. cos every1 else had e same size as me. argh. so end up onli got a pair of shoes as a bdae gift. u guys betta not forget my bdae!

oh lihui! dun wori! as i can c bels seem to have a great influence on u! haha im not turning bimbotic leh. i have a shield ard me dat makes me immune to her bimbotic ways haha! lihui e bimbo!! =pPp n ya..i dun mind u intro-ing me gd looking guys. no nid to be canoeist la. i jus realised i've been single for 3 long yrs =X kinda worried i'll get left on e shelf =(

bels. u nvr reply my sms!! =( haha anyway its nice meeting up wif u n tok on fri =) put me in a super slack mood. oops. n from now on i tink u n shuyi nid to SCOLD me veri veri fiercly so i wont slack again. dere's onli 3more wks till june hols n my studies, upon my reflection, r stil super unsteady. n hor. actuali dere's no storm in my life la. hee. im jus wondering whether i would hav e courage lik others to pursue wad i want for myself in life without letting negative things influence me... >.<

qiao - u not bad too! went ubin! picnic somemore! 0.o haha did hong xiang get a new blog??

luan - yup i noe...but ya lik wad i mentioned above, i jus duno if i can face failure if i ever experience one =S hey TANK is coming to hc for school concert on thurs! u wan come?? =)

i've yet to study for chem spa, train for napfa, finish my hw, and prac my guitar, all which r due tml. i've oso yet to study wad im supposed to, do my long-expired CIP, exercise everyday, eat my meals at regular times and slp at e same time everyday. oh my goodness my life is in a total mess!! argh!

im stil pissed at myself n my ------- attitude.

kinda feeling lonely n empty right now. or lost. ya lost seems more suitable to describe wad im feeling now. saw dis quote somewhere :

SUCCESS IS TO EXPERIENCE FAILURE AFTER FAILURE WITH NO LOSS IN ENTHUSIAISM

ya veri true. i wonder if after i've found e thing dat im passionate in can i reali take all e failures in my stride. or mayb i've known long ago wad i wanted but i jus refuse to acknowledge it. cos im afraid dat i'll fail horribly once i take e 1st step. boo.

im wasting my day away.....................

bleahx

d

sori e pics kinda jumble up...cos evonne is a noob in dis kinda things >.< thank you for ur kind understanding =) haha

ok. i haven been updating. so here im! muahaha shuyi! u're more lagging than me! =p

recently had been busy wif schwork n cca...

Hwa Chong Guitar Ensemble got GOLD for SYF!

some of us were quite worried we'll get COP cos apparently our conductor was stil picking on our playing even when we practiced for e last time at e tuning room..den when we went up e stage to our seats we were super noisy cos our guitars kip banging into e stands n chairs n stuff >.<>

tink dat e days where we had intensive prac for guitar kinda bond pple tgt..but somehow i dun feel it as strongly..i duno y. after e results were announced i was jus relieved for a short time. den i feel nth le. now i recognise more faces in guitar, can tok to more pple but den i jus..dun feel e bonding as strongly....i oso high bu qi lai when we were returning to sch. tink im quite a cold blanket for everyone haha. but at least in my jc days i din exactly slack off my ccas..sth which i did in jc1 =X

i duno if its my problem..i seem to cant tok to any1 nowadays..dere's jus dis awkward silence den no matter how i try to come up with a topic to talk..always got nth to tok abt de =S lik in claz i can onli tok comfortably to nicholas, weilin, brandon, n sometimes qiuju n yirene....to e others i will be lik at a loss of wad to say. i din hav dis prob last time...i could lik jus approach any1 n start toking. duno wads happening to me =( den when i c pple i noe i oso duno whether to smile or wave at dem. den i tink overtime pple may find me dao ... =X aiya. i tink i kip so mani things to myself to e extent dat my character is becoming abit weird....lik xin li bu ping heng likdat. OHNOOOOO!!!! =(

lihui! jiayou k! mus believe in urself! BELIEVE BELIEVE! u got 3rd in canoe comp leh! if u lidkat den those pple u beat dat day can all go n die liaoz. translate ur feelings n realisations into real actions! can start by changing some small aspects of ur daily life first. GO GAL! Jingles will reward u accordingly to ur efforts =p haha!

bels - u're more mean than lihui! hump! my bdae is super impt k! IMPORTANT!!!! i shall take my revenge by drowning u all in my tears! =p haha. n wad hot date! im stil free on my bdae! no shuai ges wan me! =( unlike some1 ar....got dates with pple of e opposite gender =p

hey! HC Guitar Ensemble Valolari Concert

when - 2june 2007, sat (first sat of june hols)

time - ard late evening

place - HC audi

tix- $6

Come come come k! its e 1st n last time evonne's performing! =p

sometimes i wonder if its im just plain lucky, or if its im just too dumb to see the more complicated things in my life...

post block tests!

ok. e moment i tag at my own tagboard saying i cant rem my password i managed to get in -_-"

haha as u all can c i haven been blogging for veri long. because, like wad shuyi said, my life is boring. its nowhere as exciting as bels or eventful as moneEe ='( *sobz* haha anyway! i got back some of my block tests results.

Got Grade C for Chem. not bad la ok. at least i improved 1grade from promos. but realised i could have did betta if i had betta time management. cos e last ques is on proteins n i made some real stupid mistakes. i feel so ashamed as a Bio student. i can actuali define secondary structure as e folding bending n twisting of the polypeptide due to R group interactions. !!!! dats tertiary structure! oh man. i was so flustered at last ques cos not enuff time den make stupid mistakes likdat. n im damn lucky for MCQ la. anyhow shade for some ques oso correct. lolx.

Got C for maths too! oso improved by 1 grade. but i onli nid 1 mark to get a B. den it'll be my 1st B in 2yrs! haha. Econs DRQ was not bad too. but somehow i feel i dun deserve such high marks...so not reali hapi abt it. hope my essay's not screwed up. cos i din study SOL for essay at all. Failed GP compre. so now kinda worried i'll fail GP overall cos my essay's TOTALLY SCREWED. oh man. if i fail GP i gone case liaoz. RAH. =(

ok. went pulau ubin, went kbox after blocks. So nice! i got darker from e ubin trip. make me miss e times wher jingles went ubin for e video. cycled till my legs totally no strength. im so freaking unhealthy!! =( =( =( im gonna work on getting myself to exercise. will try to post e ubin pics let u all c when i get dem k. hee. mus learn new stuff!

hmmm. just sth to ponder abt. frenz. is it betta to tok to dem out of p0liteness n courtesy, just for e sake of doing it, even though u 2 r not veri close or is it betta to jus ignore n do sth u're comfortable wif? i prefer e 2nd option. cos to me frenz do not equal to jus a polite exchange of words...frenz shld be pple who can understand e unspoken n not take things from e surface. but apparently when socialising its all abt e 1st option. which i dun like cos its so super fake la. RAH.

-i think im a bad friend-

cant wait for jingles good friday outing! lets hope we reali get to do all e stuff on bels agenda. cos we always talk n no action de. haha. =)

oh ya! i wan to change my blogskin(is it called blogskin?or template?ah wadever la) . mayb moneEe can teach me during our stayover =)

i tink its obvious im trying to make my post nicer by making it coloured. lolx.

3 february 2007 11.15pm

i saw dis article in e My Paper on 20.1.2007 from the 'My Say' column n somehow it made some impression on me. its written by dis gal Joyce Lin from NUS. (i acknowledge e source le so cant say i plagarise =p) here goes:

I turned 21 recently. There was no party with screaming girls, friends getting inebriated or male strippers charging exorbitant rates by the hour. They say that your 21st is the most memorable and that you should celebrate it with a big bang. I celebrated it quietly with a nice dinner with the people closest to me.

Turning 21 is quite an important event for someone, particularly in Singapore. In other countries, 18 is the magic number. But here, "21" means that you are officially acknowledged as an adult.

Of course, one is quick to pick up the perks that come with this stamp of confirmation. The proverbial nudge-wink "can watch R21 movies" comes to mind. You no longer have to memorise your friends' IC details at the clubs with older age restrictions.

But on a more serious note, this coming-of-age also signifies a new start - you are no longer recognized as a child in the eyes of an adult. It is no laughing metter. Suddenly, the chances of being reckless are far and few.

It is this age, carrying certain societal expectations along with it, that binds us. We might be at different points of our lives. For some, they have joined the workforce, others are still completing their education, while others are doing their National Service. Some are just fumbling about wondering what they want to do. In any case, reaching this age apperas to be the point where you seem grown-up enough to make decisions on your own, like signing legal documents. Yet on the other end of the spectrum, you have a window of opportunities thrown open for you and it makes it all the more scary, as you tread into unknown waters.

I have always thought that age is a figurative thing. Sometimes age may not be the best gauge of maturity. On one of the birthday cards that I received, my friend wrote: "you might have turned 21 a long time ago." That much is true. It is more of your life experiences that shape you as a person.

There are so many things to try and experience for the first time. Once you pass this transition into adult-hood, it seems like a fast-forwarded track ahead. Before you know it, you're swept up into a whirl, slogging day and night for your pay cheque, reaching a point in your 30's and 40's when you wonder where all your youth went.

My lecturer have us some tips in a class recently. "Live life. Be who you are. Fall in love with the wrong person, do stupid things, because life is too short for you to care". I smiled when I heard that. Whether you're 21, 31, or 41, I think that he's right.

i was thinking how ironic this is, when all along in our life we've been told NOT TO DO stupid things cos dey're impractical n a waste of our time. Is it cos spore is too pragmatic n competition is too intense? life's pleasure is supposed to be derived from all these small little stupid things. there are times when we want to do some things so much but yet never get to do them either cos we have no friends to accompany us or cos we are afraid of how people look at us. so often we follow our friends or the crowd n refuse to follow our heart. n in e end sometimes we end up regretting not getting to do the things that we like and eventually end up not enjoying ourselves. but then again wads e point of engaging in some fun activity when dere's no1 dere to share e fun with u? some may say that new friends will be met n stuff likdat but wad if these new friends DUNWAN to meet new friends?some people tend to be more sticky to their own frenz n less receptive to new things. im or rather we all are turning 18 dis yr. to me 18 is quite a milestone..heavier responsibilities. u no longer can use e excuse of 'i dun noe' cos u're alreadi 18 n EXPECTED to noe. buying of cigarettes, frequenting of clubs, consuming alcohol etc etc are all legal. there is no more thrill of sneaking into clubs. trying to buy alcohol without getting caught. mayb dats y i always believe in breaking e rules sometimes. u dun get to do it 4ever. dere's no more kick. i used to tink that working is easy. n i tout its betta than studying. now i noe betta. i dun wanna step into e workforce. dun tink i can handle all the complicated stuff. more n more attention have been focused on environmental issues recently. kinda stupid i tink. it actuali took pple sooooo long to realise that climate, air n water, the most basic things for survival, actuali makes up the basis of everything. i mean like, without dem u wont be thinking of earning $$ rite? jus lik if u have alreadi starved for days e top priority of urs would be to get food n not entertainment or how u look rite. u gotta get e bottom of e pyramid done first. these r just some of my touts la.

things r changing. i can see but i ignore them cos i duno wad else to do or wad i can do. as if i can do anything. or as if im ALLOWED to do anything. it just struck me how superficial some pple can reali get. kinda disgusted with it. n to tink dat dey still tink dey r so high morally. 每个人为不同的理由戴着面具说谎. so wads ur reason? i cant find any reason for u to do so. so damn fake. or issit me who's thinking too much? somehow i dun tink so.

Sunday, 28January 2007
23.47pm

went blog hopping jus now..realised dat every1's super busy nowadays n their blogs r stagnant. feelin kinda disappointed now..felt lik my efforts were all useless n unappreciated. n it jus kinda make me even more certain dat ever since duno when things started to get fake n done for e sake of keeping up appearances. n to tink i treasured it. y issit some pple can balance n some cant? i noe im not some1 who's very impt or prominent cos i prefer to kip my life peaceful n simple. but its reali veri disappointing. it oso hurts to c dat things dat i believed in r actuali nothing. i shall not care from now on. off to studyin econs.

yoyo im back to blog!! haha reali appreciate all the nice tags. make me feel so treasured =D anyway yupz those things at e previous entry was abt last yr. dats y i put it up. 2007 so far is quite ok...like my juniors!! they make me feel enthu abt stuff all over again. =) n im guai n doing work constantly (though i stil slack by watching tv everyday BUT!!! im watching lesser tv than last yr. great improvement ya?) so i dun dread gg to tutorials so much anymore. except econs tutorial la. siva (our econs tcher) reali cant make it. den got dis guy in my claz who attitudes siva. n erm...i enjoy watching him attitude siva. cos siva cant do anything to him!!! MUAHAHAHA!! den siva lik soooooo helpless likdat =D ok im mean >.< but u all mus reali go how he is. seriously cant teach. im wondering how he can continue to b so thick-skinned n kip teaching lousily when he noes every1 hates his teaching. n he's lik not making effort to improve =X

oh n j1s dis yr quite hardworking. for maths tutorial dey're always 1 tutorial faster than e lecture. meaning dey do e tutorial b4 its taught. 0.o!! n dey're having 2 block tests dis yr. their sabbaticals is halved. if they fail their diagnostic test dey gotta go for remedial. tink our batch hai dem. cos IP results all lousy. n heard dat e screening for IP at chs became stricter. haha.

ok ya. thanks every1 for tagging nice stuff =)

shuyi - ya lor we reali nvr go back leh =S veri bad. oops. tink cny period find 1 day go visit her >.< n cross country on vday is bad lor! so unromantic n not fun de. =X

lihui - haha i always got say hi to u in sch de lor. but everytime i pass by u u nvr c =( stupid nicholas go say anderson uniform is a poser uniform la!! jus cos i wear e belt loosely -_-" anyway! wait for me on tues leh....awhile only! den can go home tgt. dun hav much chance to tok to ya in sch.

bels - aiya. silly gal! even if nth will come out of e matchmaking u can stil be frenz wif those 'eligible bachelors' dat ur cousin painstakingly picked out for u. doesnt hurt to widen ur social circle. esp since ur cousin is so enthu abt it. haha!! =p N y u feeling lik me?! i tout u have ur claz clique to accompany u? i noe u miss me n jingles =D oh i dun lik to do things for e benefits it brings too. dats y i kinda gave up e idea of taking h3 jus b4 promos. not dat i can take anyway haha. u got any nice cip to recommend me?cos now my hc interact thing is veri unconfirmed cos i changing organisation. haiz.

luan - thanks for e encouraging tag!! =) n ya can go out n study tgt n eat ice cream! i've been in e bukit timah area for 1yr but i nvr go island creamery b4 =S love my timetable dis yr =) oh i wasnt at cca carnival...went home cos guitar n interact dun nid pple ard to help out. so sad! but y u came over?choir?dun b sad...hc got even lesser andersonians. not dat i would strongly encourage to come anyway. its totally chs n nanyang here. it'll be worst next yr when e ENTIRE nanyang cohort becomes IP.

mone - orh ok....wa so healthy go running. i run once a wk during PE. >.< so abt ur ijc funfair thingy for jingles how???

ok ending here.

SUPPORT DAREN FOR SUPERSTAR FINALS!!!!

2007

ok. i realised i haven been blogging for quite some LONG time. got nth to tok abt ma..my life super uninteresting =( haha. but ya sch's been ok so far..meeting e juniors, writing angel mortal letters n self-entertaining r e onli exciting stuff now. went blog hopping jus now n i could c dat every1's having a great start to e new yr n have made resolutions for themselves. my new yr resolutions:

- be a mugger! As coming n obviously i wanna do well. which is ironic cos im most probably gonna score ZERO for my recent maths test. stupid me can actuali rem e formula WRONGLY. so ya u all can pretty much guess wads gonna happen cos of dat. =(

- quit procrastinating. its a waste of time. i spend so much time chiding myself for wasting time afterwards.

n jus to tell pple...i've been late for sch EVERYDAY ever since sch reopened. except for thurs. ya 1 day im punctual. e traffic is reali reali bad la. it takes ard 20min to get from serene centre dat junction to hc bus stop. 0.o but den yeah. i forgot to make being punctual for sch my new yr resolution haha. but seriously im getting sick of being late everyday. n hiding from tchers so dat my ez-link dun get confiscated. i din have my ez-link wif me from fri till tues last wk. its super inconvenient to use coins =(

my timetable dis yr rocks.
mon - 2.30pm
tues - 1.00pm with a 1 hr break in between
wed - 2pm
thurs - 2pm all lectures so can slack
fri - 2pm
haha i love it man! =D *prays e sch dun change it next term*

oh ya! i went isetan private sale to shop after getting my pay n spent $130 dere! dis hols i bought quite alot of clothes. dat day when my mother wash all i was amazed haha! but i like all of dem! wanted to get a dress but all those dat i c veri mature. n i dun tink dat i can wear dem cos its veri long. even after putting on a belt n folding it its stil lik halfway down my knee. ugly. im short! n im not growing! =(

j1s were ok. alot of nanyang n chinese high pple. expected la. dere's onli 150 non-IP pple dis yr, excluding DSA. so sad. but glad to c got andersonians. 2 of dem r in my ex-claz junior claz. weiting n meijun..ying chern's junior. my junior claz's pretty ok..esp after gg for supper wif dem yest after their orientation campfire. kinda missed being j1. j1 is reali slack de lor. got alot of non-academic activities. their war games is crazy lor. all 3 facs gang up n zam apollo. they have no defenders at their own territory cos dere wasnt a nid to. every1's attacking apollo. all 3 fac shirts dun have a single drop of water on it when apollo's fac shirt was DRIPPING WET. so expectedly apollo got last. every1's enemy is apollo now cos we owned dem last time. champions for so mani things n won e fac shield by leading e 2nd fac ares by ard 100points. hope apollo j1s r enthu enuff to continue e glory.

reflection abt my j1 life in 2006! seeing every1 get so hyped up for cca exhibition makes me kinda sad. i miss e days in anderson wher i hav a cca dat im proud of, dat im enthu in, n wher i dun mind putting in alot of time n effort for guides activities. but in hc i dun hav e same kind of passion n enthu-ism for my cca. namely interact n guitar. sch life without a rocking cca is boring. den for 6mths of 2006 i kip wondering to myself y issit dat others ard me all hav ccas dat dey enjoyed so much n r so proud of xcept me. for so mani times dat i've lost count, i looked thru all e ccas available in hc n tried to c if any is ok for me. but i cant find. dats y i made myself cca-less in 2 1st 3 mths. another reason would be cos no frenz wanna TRY out ccas dat i wanna try. its not dat i cant do things alone but when u go to a NEW sch wif AFEW andersonians, which kinda limits e pple u noe dere, a NEW og all ALONE when other andersonians r ALL paired up in e same sch, n den a NEW claz all alone AGAIN when other andersonians r all paired up in e same claz AGAIN, n finally another NEW claz all alone FOR E 3RD TIME, u get tired. it doesnt help dat dere's grps of nanyang n chs pple who noe each other alreadi. though they r friendly n nice, at e beginning they will still stick to each other cos of human nature. hansel says mus be take initiative n make e 1st move. but it takes 2hands to clap. its not gonna work if i take initiative n dere dey r all sticking to their sch mates. so after gg thru so mani things alone its reali tiring. n taking a different sub combi lessens e chances of meeting physics pple so by dat time it seriously felt lik im all alone dere. lihui said its gd to b alone cos u'll noe more pple. its true to an extent but i tink u gotta go experience it b4 knowing wad i mean. anyway dat was last yr. im quite ok wif my state of life rite now. did alot of thinking last yr n realised dat life is much more than family n sch n cca. mayb church for some. though dat seems to be e case for every1. i cant find a suitable cca in hc, so be it. i can always go outside n do things dat i like. no nid to restrain myself. i had a wonderful time in anderson, so hc pales in comparison. its ok. these 2 totally diff encounters will onli enrich my life experiences. so next time when it happens again i noe wad to do. evonne becomes smarter!! =)

so dis yr! im gonna work hard to get my studies on track. if i dun get into any uni i'll die.....n feel bad towards mrs chong for getting a zero for an easy maths test. lik all her efforts wasted. mdm leow oso. shuyi!! we haven gone back to visit her for 1 yr le leh!! =X n den after dat, im gonna work on some personal development. wa~~~~ haha!! no la. jus gonna find some time to do things dat i've been ignoring for quite some time. lik learning how to play new songs on e organ. e sun yanzi score dat i've bought 3yrs ago is still untouched. doing CIP dat i enjoy. interact's rda kinda boring now =S n most importantly exercising!! i ran during PE n got leg aches. super duper unhealthy. boo =(

simone sorry! i lost e hp accessory u gave as a xmas prez. i hung it on my hp den during campfire when every1 go crazy it kinda got tugged out. n i onli had it for a few days!! ='( n simone climacool shoes got pores de leh. so when it rains n u step into a puddle of water e water will seep in n ur sock will become wet. at least dats wad happens to me when i wear e shoe. =(

bels. rem to tell us e results of ur cousin's matchmaking k! its pretty funi! =) n im loving chocos more n more!! not hungry oso eat =X

qiao. haha here im! can c dat u're blogging everyday! opp from me lolx. as much as i wanna eat my entries cant la. haha. jiayou for ur projs! =)

chengluan. haha yea i updated a super long entry. hope it din bore u all. >.< n im looking forward to c-ing u in hc! y ur conductor suddenly wan collaborate wif hc choir?

hong xiang - ya i like daren! din noe he's from music clinic till i read i-weekly n its written dere. pss tix veri hard to get ar? =( i shall watch on tv den. im not so star-crazy nowadays. i like diya n carrie oso. oh i went ur blog but somehow cant tag so i write here. glad to c u're doing well in sch! jus dun pon so much dis yr. mus b serious abt studies lik me!! haha. anyway when u're free can help me burn mayday album songs n e songs dat u have on ur blog?cos all veri nice =)

so ya long entry. hope it din bore u guys out. my life sianz la cant help it =( n tink dis entry is e most bareentry i've ever written cos of dat middle part. (bare as in most heart felt) cos all of u noe i dun lik to write abt my feelings for no gd stuff here n publicise for all. but since dats in 2006 i tink its ok =) every1 happy new yr!! =D

*** hwa chong duno y extra go put cross country on 14feb valentine's day -_-" ***

yay 2dae is my day off from work =D =D =D FINALLY! haha went to watch midnight movie last nite after work...wanted to watch Eragon but cos not out yet so watched Deja Vu...tink its stupid...n after e movie got dis angmoh in front of me stood up to leave n den he made dis comment 'the movie is ridiculous'. n den i was discussing abt it wif my frenz when i heard so i said 'ya i agree' to him. den he turn back to look at me haha! but e technology shown in e movie is amazing. 0.o

reply tags!

bels - haha so u slacking now? ur attachment lik not bad hor...can slack lolx. i heard abt e Martian n Venu-tian from shuyi. =) so ya coming down tml to treat me to wonderful Haagen Daaz chocolate ice cream ar? =p jus gimme an sms if u're coming down k. =)

hong xiang - eh chio bus got alot...all noe how to dress up till veri pretty. shuai ge not so much. saw 1 at bukit panjang plaza though. me n my fren were blown away by him. haha. anyway if i reali c 1 suitable for u need me to help u take no.? =p

luan - har i tink bukit panjang plaza super ulu leh. its lik dere to cater to the basic needs of the residents in bukit panjang onli. n u got Causeway Point so nice for u to shop n play u go dere for wad?!! lolx 0.o

qiao - ya im desperate for pple to eat wid me! haha no la. i got my storybook n hw for company =( n working is not fun! not alot of customers so time passes veri slowly. but j8 is alot betta than nukit panjang plaza la. drop me an sms if u're coming. vcd xchange! =)

mone - haha ya lor. my hard earned $$ jus gone likdat. im gonna be stingy from now on. haha. but i tink i'll stil spend quite alot on food...cant resist =p when's ur holi? rem to get prez for us kkz! =p n i tout u say u not working liaoz...???

ok everyone pls come down to junction8 n visit me whenever u can from 4dec to 10dec k! im working in at e precious touts roadshow in the atrium (2nd storey). the stall will b beside the stage. im working from 11am to 9.30pm (official hours). n cos we're not allowed to go for lunch tgt i've been eating alone dis entire wk at the super ulu-ated bukit panjang plaza. so sad =( so drop by n pei me for my meals...n stupid bels. U NOE HOW MANY HOURS I GOTTA STAND DERE JUST TO EARN ENUFF FOR 1HAAGEN DAAZ ICECREAM?!! haha recently everything i c (all the prices) i'll relate it to how mani hours i gotta stand. Eg. $5 for lunch = 1hour of standing at work =X i wont spend alot of $ from now on.

sori i gotta go bathe n slp cos tml stil gotta work. so not replying tags. next time. paiseh!

re tags!

kkz i shall blog and reply tags. im a good and nice gal. i shant neglect my readers =)

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!

im working at precious thoughts roadshow. everything we'll be selling is precious moments stuff lik figurines, towel, keychains etc. eack wk at different malls.

27nov - 3dec at bukit panjang plaza
4dec - 10dec at the ever rocking and wonderful and fabulous JUNCTION 8 =D
11dec - 19dec at plaza singupura

come down n buy sth to support me k! e items r discounted so e prices shld be ok...anyway u all oso nid to get xmas prex ma so wads betta than getting sweet Precious Moments stuff - Loving Caring Sharing during this festive season! so come down n support me k!

shuyi - haha of cos chim la!! von is intellectual *grins* =p

jillian - i'll hold ya to ya promise of getting me good food ar! i dont mind u giving me chocos for xmas prez hee =)

bels - crazy gal ask me blog when u urself oso nvr -_-" its unhealthy to eat junk food...n im not exercising now =( u noe i'll get abit out of breath when i walk veri fast (when im rushing)?!! haiz. i hope my arteries arent all clogged up with fat deposits =X lets go exercising tgt!!

iduntellu - thanks!! dats wad im trying to do. but sometimes abit lazy to go get food. but im trying to eat whenever i can =S

luan - yea me too!! finally we had our date after toking abt it for ard 1yr 0.o jiayou for choir prac! n mayb next yr go island creamery after sch? =)

szehan - dun wori. my mother's fren n my aunts who haven seen me for veri long say i've become abit fatter haha. n my sch skirt is abit tighter now. n YOUR objective is oso to get fatTER. not fat. cya at chalet!

qiao - haha cos i c all e other blogs ma den duno y abit depressed =S anyway im ok now thanks for ur concern. n when can meet u xchange e vcds???!!!!!!!!

hongxiang - u're the most frequent tagger so must put u as last. gotta read all ur tags first. not bad la got listen to u hee =) n im not lazy ok!! im starting work soon. must must must come support me k!! n i wan go kbox leh~~

joke time!!

i duno y each time i look at other pple's blogs i'll feel sad. sense of loss i tink.
i tink im suffering from some kind of eating disorder.
even though i eat my 3 (or more than three) meals everyday.
i tink if it wasnt for my stomach dat kips feeling hungry i wouldnt eat at all.
cos i have no appetite to eat.
so to appease my troublesome stomach i just force food down my esophagus (issit spelt likdat?)
n after so many yrs i got used to feeling hungry.
cos sometimes having lessons or wadever den cant eat.
that i can just go on doing my stuff WITH my stomach rumbling.
lik e sense of hunger is not dere.
oh my my my. =S

i stand in the middle of a crowd feeling there's no one beside me.
i sit in a cafe watching people rush by feeling forgotten.
i look at everyone surrounding me and i still feel dat im all alone in the world.
or should i say its my heart that feels alone and empty.
and i don't know what to do to fill up that hole.
i don't know how to revert that sense of emptiness
and make it full...just like before.



Storytime!! =)

Immaculate Deception

A mother took her daughter to the doctor and asked him to give her an examination to determine the cause of her daughter's swollen abdomen. It only took the doctor about 2 seconds to say "Gimme a break lady! Your daughter is pregnant."

The mother turned red with fury and she argued with the doctor that her daughter as a good girl and would never compromise her reputation by having sex with a boy.

The doctor faced the window and silently watched the horizon. The mother became enraged and screamed, "Quit looking out the window! Aren't you paying attention to me?"

And the doctor replied, "Yes, of course I am paying attention, ma'am. It's just that the last time this happened, a star appeared in the east, and 3 wise men came. I was hoping they would show
up again and help me figure out who got your daughter pregnant."


what the eye does not see
what the ears do not hear
what the mouth does not say
what the face does not express
what the heart does not feel
does not mean its not there.

trying to do pw I&R now..but cant reali tink properly..tink all my long slp these few days hav made my brain go into 'off' mode for academic uses but 'on' mode for other useless stuff lik watching tv >.<

simoneEe tagged me to do dis. veri bored now so shall jus do it.bels gave super long answers whereas simone just answered in short phrases. so i shall be e 1 in e middle.

1. Will you tell your crush that you like him or her?
Im not e zhu dong type so of cos no. unless im veri sure dat my crush likes me too.

2. If your crush like somebody else, what will you do?
nth.im not dat evil to go sabotage.

3. You have accidently bumped into your crush and his or her friends. He or she invited you to join them. What exactly would you tell him or her?
Duno. if i feel comfortable ard his frenz den i wont mind joining. doesnt make sense to go join a grp of pple dat u dun feel comfortable with.

4. Prom is just around the corner. Your crush wants you to be his/her date. Now, do you think he/she likes you?
No.

5. What will you do if your crush said "I love you" to you?
i'll be quite shocked cos love is a pretty strong word. tink i'll stone for awhile before changing e topic.

6. Who is your crush?
.KIM JEONG HOON. he's e 1 acting as Yul in Goong. he's my new obsession =D
but seriously I don't have a crush on any1 now. anyway who'll be so dumb to write here n tell every1.

7. Do you think your crush like you too?
He doesnt noe i exist cos he's in faraway Korea *sobz* =(
to ans seriously - my crush don't exist.

8. Why do you like your crush?
i jus like him =)
he doesnt exist!

9. Do you share any interests with your crush?
how would i know.

10. Will you ever going to marry your crush?
how would i know.


NOW, A WORD FOR A WORD.

1. Having feelings for myself
i love n hate myself at e same time.

2. Loving someone is tiring
depends la. when u're hapi its not tiring. when u're sad its tiring.

3. Breaking up is freedom
depends la. breaking up with some1 u dun like obviously would be freedom.

4. Going on a date is a waste money
not necessarily. since i like guys to pay haha!

5. Long walk on the beach is boring
not necessarily. depends on who u walk wif, ur mood when u're walking.

6. Saying "I love you" is lame
eh..its not when e other person is some1 impt.
I LOVE YOU JINGLES! =p

7. Making out is so gross
depends on who u make out with. pple making out apparently dun tink dey're gross.

8.Prom sucks
no lor. e getting dressed part is fun.

9. Your boyfriend/girlfriend is someone
non-existent.

AND THE QUESTIONS.
1. Knowing the painful truth or hearing the beautiful lie?
painful truth. i hate it when pple lie to me.regardless its a white lie or black lie or colourful lie.

2. Pretty but mean or ugly but nice?
no special preference. cos to e pretty but mean one i'll most probably be mean back to counter-attack. quite interesting challenge. i've not been veri mean to any1 so far. im a nice gal! =)

3. Group date or One-on-one date?
depends on the company

4. Dating someone or staying alone?
see if dere's some1 i would like to date.

5. Great body or great mind?
great mind. but body oso cant lousy dao na li qu.

6. It's Saturday; Going out with your bf/gf or your friends?
i'll c e occasion n who asks first. first comes first served. haha

7. Follow your heart or your mind?
duno.tink i cant follow my heart even if i wan to. cos i tink my mind power n control is veri strong.

8. You did a lot of bad things in the past; Confess or hide?
see who im confessing to.

9. Your perfect date;
duno.

10. The way you say good bye after you went on a date.
bye bye lor!