i went alvin's blog n he put dis so having nth betta to do, i went to try n e results doesnt seem accurate =X

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people. Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others. You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others. You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

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You Are the Ace of Hearts

Youthful and playful, you love life and the world. You have a kind spirit, and you bring happiness to everyone you know. Artistic and bold, you see the world in bright colors. And you certainly aren't afraid to express everything you see and feel. You are sentimental, and your emotions are very deep. You are easily swept away and easily hurt. A gamble you should take: Blackjack Your friends would describe you as: Unique Your enemies would describe you as: Weepy If you lived in Vegas, you would be: An up and coming chef or fashion designer

What Playing Card Are You?

eh i koped dis from waiching's blog...found it interesting so went to do it hee =pPp

You scored as Psychology/Sociology.


You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Psychology, Sociology, or related majors (e.g., Counseling, Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology, Social Work, or other social science majors). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology and Sociology are both great minors to add to any major.

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage
94%
Psychology/Sociology
94%
Education/Counseling
75%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology
69%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing
69%
Visual&PerformingArts
69%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts
63%
Religion/Theology
63%
English/Journalism/Comm
63%
HR/BusinessManagement
56%
Mathematics/Statistics
50%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health
50%
Physics/Engineering/Computer
31%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy
31%




n yea. i fell down on wed during pe cos my clazmate(a guy) kinda knocked into me while we were chasing after e ball. so i kinda flew n landed on e ground wif my entire body. n somehow i managed to break some of e impact wif e palms of my hands...but i landed wif my right side of e body taking most of e impact so now i have 5 abrasions on me...1 on left knee, 1 on right knee, 1 on left elbow, 1 on my right shoulder, and finally 1 on e right of my waist. i guess my body's veri weak cos apparently e wounds got infected. now betta le but somehow every time i fall down it gets infected duno y. n e ones on my shoulder n waist is veri pain =( =( =(

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rah. super pissed wif myself. dats y im here at 11.20pm to rant n scold myself. i was sooo hapi on fri dat dere's gonna be a 4day holi. cos i can finally rest n catch up wif my schwork. which i started lagging in due to guitar syf. e 4days would be MORE THAN ENUFF. but no...stupid n slacker me jus got to waste my time away. so i slacked my way thru sat n sun. n mon i pon hc combined sports meet n went msia johor bahru. no point gg sports meet. waste of time. everything in jb's cheap! almost all half price of dat in spore. wanted to get a new bag, dress, shoes but! din find anything to my liking. n apparently my taste in shoes r super gd. cos all those dat i liked were out of my size. strange hur. no1 had my size when i was frantically borrowing court shoes. cos all different size from me. n now when shopping dere's oso none of my size. cos every1 else had e same size as me. argh. so end up onli got a pair of shoes as a bdae gift. u guys betta not forget my bdae!

oh lihui! dun wori! as i can c bels seem to have a great influence on u! haha im not turning bimbotic leh. i have a shield ard me dat makes me immune to her bimbotic ways haha! lihui e bimbo!! =pPp n ya..i dun mind u intro-ing me gd looking guys. no nid to be canoeist la. i jus realised i've been single for 3 long yrs =X kinda worried i'll get left on e shelf =(

bels. u nvr reply my sms!! =( haha anyway its nice meeting up wif u n tok on fri =) put me in a super slack mood. oops. n from now on i tink u n shuyi nid to SCOLD me veri veri fiercly so i wont slack again. dere's onli 3more wks till june hols n my studies, upon my reflection, r stil super unsteady. n hor. actuali dere's no storm in my life la. hee. im jus wondering whether i would hav e courage lik others to pursue wad i want for myself in life without letting negative things influence me... >.<

qiao - u not bad too! went ubin! picnic somemore! 0.o haha did hong xiang get a new blog??

luan - yup i noe...but ya lik wad i mentioned above, i jus duno if i can face failure if i ever experience one =S hey TANK is coming to hc for school concert on thurs! u wan come?? =)

i've yet to study for chem spa, train for napfa, finish my hw, and prac my guitar, all which r due tml. i've oso yet to study wad im supposed to, do my long-expired CIP, exercise everyday, eat my meals at regular times and slp at e same time everyday. oh my goodness my life is in a total mess!! argh!

im stil pissed at myself n my ------- attitude.

kinda feeling lonely n empty right now. or lost. ya lost seems more suitable to describe wad im feeling now. saw dis quote somewhere :

SUCCESS IS TO EXPERIENCE FAILURE AFTER FAILURE WITH NO LOSS IN ENTHUSIAISM

ya veri true. i wonder if after i've found e thing dat im passionate in can i reali take all e failures in my stride. or mayb i've known long ago wad i wanted but i jus refuse to acknowledge it. cos im afraid dat i'll fail horribly once i take e 1st step. boo.

im wasting my day away.....................

bleahx

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sori e pics kinda jumble up...cos evonne is a noob in dis kinda things >.< thank you for ur kind understanding =) haha

ok. i haven been updating. so here im! muahaha shuyi! u're more lagging than me! =p

recently had been busy wif schwork n cca...

Hwa Chong Guitar Ensemble got GOLD for SYF!

some of us were quite worried we'll get COP cos apparently our conductor was stil picking on our playing even when we practiced for e last time at e tuning room..den when we went up e stage to our seats we were super noisy cos our guitars kip banging into e stands n chairs n stuff >.<>

tink dat e days where we had intensive prac for guitar kinda bond pple tgt..but somehow i dun feel it as strongly..i duno y. after e results were announced i was jus relieved for a short time. den i feel nth le. now i recognise more faces in guitar, can tok to more pple but den i jus..dun feel e bonding as strongly....i oso high bu qi lai when we were returning to sch. tink im quite a cold blanket for everyone haha. but at least in my jc days i din exactly slack off my ccas..sth which i did in jc1 =X

i duno if its my problem..i seem to cant tok to any1 nowadays..dere's jus dis awkward silence den no matter how i try to come up with a topic to talk..always got nth to tok abt de =S lik in claz i can onli tok comfortably to nicholas, weilin, brandon, n sometimes qiuju n yirene....to e others i will be lik at a loss of wad to say. i din hav dis prob last time...i could lik jus approach any1 n start toking. duno wads happening to me =( den when i c pple i noe i oso duno whether to smile or wave at dem. den i tink overtime pple may find me dao ... =X aiya. i tink i kip so mani things to myself to e extent dat my character is becoming abit weird....lik xin li bu ping heng likdat. OHNOOOOO!!!! =(

lihui! jiayou k! mus believe in urself! BELIEVE BELIEVE! u got 3rd in canoe comp leh! if u lidkat den those pple u beat dat day can all go n die liaoz. translate ur feelings n realisations into real actions! can start by changing some small aspects of ur daily life first. GO GAL! Jingles will reward u accordingly to ur efforts =p haha!

bels - u're more mean than lihui! hump! my bdae is super impt k! IMPORTANT!!!! i shall take my revenge by drowning u all in my tears! =p haha. n wad hot date! im stil free on my bdae! no shuai ges wan me! =( unlike some1 ar....got dates with pple of e opposite gender =p

hey! HC Guitar Ensemble Valolari Concert

when - 2june 2007, sat (first sat of june hols)

time - ard late evening

place - HC audi

tix- $6

Come come come k! its e 1st n last time evonne's performing! =p

sometimes i wonder if its im just plain lucky, or if its im just too dumb to see the more complicated things in my life...

post block tests!

ok. e moment i tag at my own tagboard saying i cant rem my password i managed to get in -_-"

haha as u all can c i haven been blogging for veri long. because, like wad shuyi said, my life is boring. its nowhere as exciting as bels or eventful as moneEe ='( *sobz* haha anyway! i got back some of my block tests results.

Got Grade C for Chem. not bad la ok. at least i improved 1grade from promos. but realised i could have did betta if i had betta time management. cos e last ques is on proteins n i made some real stupid mistakes. i feel so ashamed as a Bio student. i can actuali define secondary structure as e folding bending n twisting of the polypeptide due to R group interactions. !!!! dats tertiary structure! oh man. i was so flustered at last ques cos not enuff time den make stupid mistakes likdat. n im damn lucky for MCQ la. anyhow shade for some ques oso correct. lolx.

Got C for maths too! oso improved by 1 grade. but i onli nid 1 mark to get a B. den it'll be my 1st B in 2yrs! haha. Econs DRQ was not bad too. but somehow i feel i dun deserve such high marks...so not reali hapi abt it. hope my essay's not screwed up. cos i din study SOL for essay at all. Failed GP compre. so now kinda worried i'll fail GP overall cos my essay's TOTALLY SCREWED. oh man. if i fail GP i gone case liaoz. RAH. =(

ok. went pulau ubin, went kbox after blocks. So nice! i got darker from e ubin trip. make me miss e times wher jingles went ubin for e video. cycled till my legs totally no strength. im so freaking unhealthy!! =( =( =( im gonna work on getting myself to exercise. will try to post e ubin pics let u all c when i get dem k. hee. mus learn new stuff!

hmmm. just sth to ponder abt. frenz. is it betta to tok to dem out of p0liteness n courtesy, just for e sake of doing it, even though u 2 r not veri close or is it betta to jus ignore n do sth u're comfortable wif? i prefer e 2nd option. cos to me frenz do not equal to jus a polite exchange of words...frenz shld be pple who can understand e unspoken n not take things from e surface. but apparently when socialising its all abt e 1st option. which i dun like cos its so super fake la. RAH.

-i think im a bad friend-

cant wait for jingles good friday outing! lets hope we reali get to do all e stuff on bels agenda. cos we always talk n no action de. haha. =)

oh ya! i wan to change my blogskin(is it called blogskin?or template?ah wadever la) . mayb moneEe can teach me during our stayover =)

i tink its obvious im trying to make my post nicer by making it coloured. lolx.

3 february 2007 11.15pm

i saw dis article in e My Paper on 20.1.2007 from the 'My Say' column n somehow it made some impression on me. its written by dis gal Joyce Lin from NUS. (i acknowledge e source le so cant say i plagarise =p) here goes:

I turned 21 recently. There was no party with screaming girls, friends getting inebriated or male strippers charging exorbitant rates by the hour. They say that your 21st is the most memorable and that you should celebrate it with a big bang. I celebrated it quietly with a nice dinner with the people closest to me.

Turning 21 is quite an important event for someone, particularly in Singapore. In other countries, 18 is the magic number. But here, "21" means that you are officially acknowledged as an adult.

Of course, one is quick to pick up the perks that come with this stamp of confirmation. The proverbial nudge-wink "can watch R21 movies" comes to mind. You no longer have to memorise your friends' IC details at the clubs with older age restrictions.

But on a more serious note, this coming-of-age also signifies a new start - you are no longer recognized as a child in the eyes of an adult. It is no laughing metter. Suddenly, the chances of being reckless are far and few.

It is this age, carrying certain societal expectations along with it, that binds us. We might be at different points of our lives. For some, they have joined the workforce, others are still completing their education, while others are doing their National Service. Some are just fumbling about wondering what they want to do. In any case, reaching this age apperas to be the point where you seem grown-up enough to make decisions on your own, like signing legal documents. Yet on the other end of the spectrum, you have a window of opportunities thrown open for you and it makes it all the more scary, as you tread into unknown waters.

I have always thought that age is a figurative thing. Sometimes age may not be the best gauge of maturity. On one of the birthday cards that I received, my friend wrote: "you might have turned 21 a long time ago." That much is true. It is more of your life experiences that shape you as a person.

There are so many things to try and experience for the first time. Once you pass this transition into adult-hood, it seems like a fast-forwarded track ahead. Before you know it, you're swept up into a whirl, slogging day and night for your pay cheque, reaching a point in your 30's and 40's when you wonder where all your youth went.

My lecturer have us some tips in a class recently. "Live life. Be who you are. Fall in love with the wrong person, do stupid things, because life is too short for you to care". I smiled when I heard that. Whether you're 21, 31, or 41, I think that he's right.

i was thinking how ironic this is, when all along in our life we've been told NOT TO DO stupid things cos dey're impractical n a waste of our time. Is it cos spore is too pragmatic n competition is too intense? life's pleasure is supposed to be derived from all these small little stupid things. there are times when we want to do some things so much but yet never get to do them either cos we have no friends to accompany us or cos we are afraid of how people look at us. so often we follow our friends or the crowd n refuse to follow our heart. n in e end sometimes we end up regretting not getting to do the things that we like and eventually end up not enjoying ourselves. but then again wads e point of engaging in some fun activity when dere's no1 dere to share e fun with u? some may say that new friends will be met n stuff likdat but wad if these new friends DUNWAN to meet new friends?some people tend to be more sticky to their own frenz n less receptive to new things. im or rather we all are turning 18 dis yr. to me 18 is quite a milestone..heavier responsibilities. u no longer can use e excuse of 'i dun noe' cos u're alreadi 18 n EXPECTED to noe. buying of cigarettes, frequenting of clubs, consuming alcohol etc etc are all legal. there is no more thrill of sneaking into clubs. trying to buy alcohol without getting caught. mayb dats y i always believe in breaking e rules sometimes. u dun get to do it 4ever. dere's no more kick. i used to tink that working is easy. n i tout its betta than studying. now i noe betta. i dun wanna step into e workforce. dun tink i can handle all the complicated stuff. more n more attention have been focused on environmental issues recently. kinda stupid i tink. it actuali took pple sooooo long to realise that climate, air n water, the most basic things for survival, actuali makes up the basis of everything. i mean like, without dem u wont be thinking of earning $$ rite? jus lik if u have alreadi starved for days e top priority of urs would be to get food n not entertainment or how u look rite. u gotta get e bottom of e pyramid done first. these r just some of my touts la.

things r changing. i can see but i ignore them cos i duno wad else to do or wad i can do. as if i can do anything. or as if im ALLOWED to do anything. it just struck me how superficial some pple can reali get. kinda disgusted with it. n to tink dat dey still tink dey r so high morally. 每个人为不同的理由戴着面具说谎. so wads ur reason? i cant find any reason for u to do so. so damn fake. or issit me who's thinking too much? somehow i dun tink so.

Sunday, 28January 2007
23.47pm

went blog hopping jus now..realised dat every1's super busy nowadays n their blogs r stagnant. feelin kinda disappointed now..felt lik my efforts were all useless n unappreciated. n it jus kinda make me even more certain dat ever since duno when things started to get fake n done for e sake of keeping up appearances. n to tink i treasured it. y issit some pple can balance n some cant? i noe im not some1 who's very impt or prominent cos i prefer to kip my life peaceful n simple. but its reali veri disappointing. it oso hurts to c dat things dat i believed in r actuali nothing. i shall not care from now on. off to studyin econs.

yoyo im back to blog!! haha reali appreciate all the nice tags. make me feel so treasured =D anyway yupz those things at e previous entry was abt last yr. dats y i put it up. 2007 so far is quite ok...like my juniors!! they make me feel enthu abt stuff all over again. =) n im guai n doing work constantly (though i stil slack by watching tv everyday BUT!!! im watching lesser tv than last yr. great improvement ya?) so i dun dread gg to tutorials so much anymore. except econs tutorial la. siva (our econs tcher) reali cant make it. den got dis guy in my claz who attitudes siva. n erm...i enjoy watching him attitude siva. cos siva cant do anything to him!!! MUAHAHAHA!! den siva lik soooooo helpless likdat =D ok im mean >.< but u all mus reali go how he is. seriously cant teach. im wondering how he can continue to b so thick-skinned n kip teaching lousily when he noes every1 hates his teaching. n he's lik not making effort to improve =X

oh n j1s dis yr quite hardworking. for maths tutorial dey're always 1 tutorial faster than e lecture. meaning dey do e tutorial b4 its taught. 0.o!! n dey're having 2 block tests dis yr. their sabbaticals is halved. if they fail their diagnostic test dey gotta go for remedial. tink our batch hai dem. cos IP results all lousy. n heard dat e screening for IP at chs became stricter. haha.

ok ya. thanks every1 for tagging nice stuff =)

shuyi - ya lor we reali nvr go back leh =S veri bad. oops. tink cny period find 1 day go visit her >.< n cross country on vday is bad lor! so unromantic n not fun de. =X

lihui - haha i always got say hi to u in sch de lor. but everytime i pass by u u nvr c =( stupid nicholas go say anderson uniform is a poser uniform la!! jus cos i wear e belt loosely -_-" anyway! wait for me on tues leh....awhile only! den can go home tgt. dun hav much chance to tok to ya in sch.

bels - aiya. silly gal! even if nth will come out of e matchmaking u can stil be frenz wif those 'eligible bachelors' dat ur cousin painstakingly picked out for u. doesnt hurt to widen ur social circle. esp since ur cousin is so enthu abt it. haha!! =p N y u feeling lik me?! i tout u have ur claz clique to accompany u? i noe u miss me n jingles =D oh i dun lik to do things for e benefits it brings too. dats y i kinda gave up e idea of taking h3 jus b4 promos. not dat i can take anyway haha. u got any nice cip to recommend me?cos now my hc interact thing is veri unconfirmed cos i changing organisation. haiz.

luan - thanks for e encouraging tag!! =) n ya can go out n study tgt n eat ice cream! i've been in e bukit timah area for 1yr but i nvr go island creamery b4 =S love my timetable dis yr =) oh i wasnt at cca carnival...went home cos guitar n interact dun nid pple ard to help out. so sad! but y u came over?choir?dun b sad...hc got even lesser andersonians. not dat i would strongly encourage to come anyway. its totally chs n nanyang here. it'll be worst next yr when e ENTIRE nanyang cohort becomes IP.

mone - orh ok....wa so healthy go running. i run once a wk during PE. >.< so abt ur ijc funfair thingy for jingles how???

ok ending here.

SUPPORT DAREN FOR SUPERSTAR FINALS!!!!

2007

ok. i realised i haven been blogging for quite some LONG time. got nth to tok abt ma..my life super uninteresting =( haha. but ya sch's been ok so far..meeting e juniors, writing angel mortal letters n self-entertaining r e onli exciting stuff now. went blog hopping jus now n i could c dat every1's having a great start to e new yr n have made resolutions for themselves. my new yr resolutions:

- be a mugger! As coming n obviously i wanna do well. which is ironic cos im most probably gonna score ZERO for my recent maths test. stupid me can actuali rem e formula WRONGLY. so ya u all can pretty much guess wads gonna happen cos of dat. =(

- quit procrastinating. its a waste of time. i spend so much time chiding myself for wasting time afterwards.

n jus to tell pple...i've been late for sch EVERYDAY ever since sch reopened. except for thurs. ya 1 day im punctual. e traffic is reali reali bad la. it takes ard 20min to get from serene centre dat junction to hc bus stop. 0.o but den yeah. i forgot to make being punctual for sch my new yr resolution haha. but seriously im getting sick of being late everyday. n hiding from tchers so dat my ez-link dun get confiscated. i din have my ez-link wif me from fri till tues last wk. its super inconvenient to use coins =(

my timetable dis yr rocks.
mon - 2.30pm
tues - 1.00pm with a 1 hr break in between
wed - 2pm
thurs - 2pm all lectures so can slack
fri - 2pm
haha i love it man! =D *prays e sch dun change it next term*

oh ya! i went isetan private sale to shop after getting my pay n spent $130 dere! dis hols i bought quite alot of clothes. dat day when my mother wash all i was amazed haha! but i like all of dem! wanted to get a dress but all those dat i c veri mature. n i dun tink dat i can wear dem cos its veri long. even after putting on a belt n folding it its stil lik halfway down my knee. ugly. im short! n im not growing! =(

j1s were ok. alot of nanyang n chinese high pple. expected la. dere's onli 150 non-IP pple dis yr, excluding DSA. so sad. but glad to c got andersonians. 2 of dem r in my ex-claz junior claz. weiting n meijun..ying chern's junior. my junior claz's pretty ok..esp after gg for supper wif dem yest after their orientation campfire. kinda missed being j1. j1 is reali slack de lor. got alot of non-academic activities. their war games is crazy lor. all 3 facs gang up n zam apollo. they have no defenders at their own territory cos dere wasnt a nid to. every1's attacking apollo. all 3 fac shirts dun have a single drop of water on it when apollo's fac shirt was DRIPPING WET. so expectedly apollo got last. every1's enemy is apollo now cos we owned dem last time. champions for so mani things n won e fac shield by leading e 2nd fac ares by ard 100points. hope apollo j1s r enthu enuff to continue e glory.

reflection abt my j1 life in 2006! seeing every1 get so hyped up for cca exhibition makes me kinda sad. i miss e days in anderson wher i hav a cca dat im proud of, dat im enthu in, n wher i dun mind putting in alot of time n effort for guides activities. but in hc i dun hav e same kind of passion n enthu-ism for my cca. namely interact n guitar. sch life without a rocking cca is boring. den for 6mths of 2006 i kip wondering to myself y issit dat others ard me all hav ccas dat dey enjoyed so much n r so proud of xcept me. for so mani times dat i've lost count, i looked thru all e ccas available in hc n tried to c if any is ok for me. but i cant find. dats y i made myself cca-less in 2 1st 3 mths. another reason would be cos no frenz wanna TRY out ccas dat i wanna try. its not dat i cant do things alone but when u go to a NEW sch wif AFEW andersonians, which kinda limits e pple u noe dere, a NEW og all ALONE when other andersonians r ALL paired up in e same sch, n den a NEW claz all alone AGAIN when other andersonians r all paired up in e same claz AGAIN, n finally another NEW claz all alone FOR E 3RD TIME, u get tired. it doesnt help dat dere's grps of nanyang n chs pple who noe each other alreadi. though they r friendly n nice, at e beginning they will still stick to each other cos of human nature. hansel says mus be take initiative n make e 1st move. but it takes 2hands to clap. its not gonna work if i take initiative n dere dey r all sticking to their sch mates. so after gg thru so mani things alone its reali tiring. n taking a different sub combi lessens e chances of meeting physics pple so by dat time it seriously felt lik im all alone dere. lihui said its gd to b alone cos u'll noe more pple. its true to an extent but i tink u gotta go experience it b4 knowing wad i mean. anyway dat was last yr. im quite ok wif my state of life rite now. did alot of thinking last yr n realised dat life is much more than family n sch n cca. mayb church for some. though dat seems to be e case for every1. i cant find a suitable cca in hc, so be it. i can always go outside n do things dat i like. no nid to restrain myself. i had a wonderful time in anderson, so hc pales in comparison. its ok. these 2 totally diff encounters will onli enrich my life experiences. so next time when it happens again i noe wad to do. evonne becomes smarter!! =)

so dis yr! im gonna work hard to get my studies on track. if i dun get into any uni i'll die.....n feel bad towards mrs chong for getting a zero for an easy maths test. lik all her efforts wasted. mdm leow oso. shuyi!! we haven gone back to visit her for 1 yr le leh!! =X n den after dat, im gonna work on some personal development. wa~~~~ haha!! no la. jus gonna find some time to do things dat i've been ignoring for quite some time. lik learning how to play new songs on e organ. e sun yanzi score dat i've bought 3yrs ago is still untouched. doing CIP dat i enjoy. interact's rda kinda boring now =S n most importantly exercising!! i ran during PE n got leg aches. super duper unhealthy. boo =(

simone sorry! i lost e hp accessory u gave as a xmas prez. i hung it on my hp den during campfire when every1 go crazy it kinda got tugged out. n i onli had it for a few days!! ='( n simone climacool shoes got pores de leh. so when it rains n u step into a puddle of water e water will seep in n ur sock will become wet. at least dats wad happens to me when i wear e shoe. =(

bels. rem to tell us e results of ur cousin's matchmaking k! its pretty funi! =) n im loving chocos more n more!! not hungry oso eat =X

qiao. haha here im! can c dat u're blogging everyday! opp from me lolx. as much as i wanna eat my entries cant la. haha. jiayou for ur projs! =)

chengluan. haha yea i updated a super long entry. hope it din bore u all. >.< n im looking forward to c-ing u in hc! y ur conductor suddenly wan collaborate wif hc choir?

hong xiang - ya i like daren! din noe he's from music clinic till i read i-weekly n its written dere. pss tix veri hard to get ar? =( i shall watch on tv den. im not so star-crazy nowadays. i like diya n carrie oso. oh i went ur blog but somehow cant tag so i write here. glad to c u're doing well in sch! jus dun pon so much dis yr. mus b serious abt studies lik me!! haha. anyway when u're free can help me burn mayday album songs n e songs dat u have on ur blog?cos all veri nice =)

so ya long entry. hope it din bore u guys out. my life sianz la cant help it =( n tink dis entry is e most bareentry i've ever written cos of dat middle part. (bare as in most heart felt) cos all of u noe i dun lik to write abt my feelings for no gd stuff here n publicise for all. but since dats in 2006 i tink its ok =) every1 happy new yr!! =D

*** hwa chong duno y extra go put cross country on 14feb valentine's day -_-" ***

yay 2dae is my day off from work =D =D =D FINALLY! haha went to watch midnight movie last nite after work...wanted to watch Eragon but cos not out yet so watched Deja Vu...tink its stupid...n after e movie got dis angmoh in front of me stood up to leave n den he made dis comment 'the movie is ridiculous'. n den i was discussing abt it wif my frenz when i heard so i said 'ya i agree' to him. den he turn back to look at me haha! but e technology shown in e movie is amazing. 0.o

reply tags!

bels - haha so u slacking now? ur attachment lik not bad hor...can slack lolx. i heard abt e Martian n Venu-tian from shuyi. =) so ya coming down tml to treat me to wonderful Haagen Daaz chocolate ice cream ar? =p jus gimme an sms if u're coming down k. =)

hong xiang - eh chio bus got alot...all noe how to dress up till veri pretty. shuai ge not so much. saw 1 at bukit panjang plaza though. me n my fren were blown away by him. haha. anyway if i reali c 1 suitable for u need me to help u take no.? =p

luan - har i tink bukit panjang plaza super ulu leh. its lik dere to cater to the basic needs of the residents in bukit panjang onli. n u got Causeway Point so nice for u to shop n play u go dere for wad?!! lolx 0.o

qiao - ya im desperate for pple to eat wid me! haha no la. i got my storybook n hw for company =( n working is not fun! not alot of customers so time passes veri slowly. but j8 is alot betta than nukit panjang plaza la. drop me an sms if u're coming. vcd xchange! =)

mone - haha ya lor. my hard earned $$ jus gone likdat. im gonna be stingy from now on. haha. but i tink i'll stil spend quite alot on food...cant resist =p when's ur holi? rem to get prez for us kkz! =p n i tout u say u not working liaoz...???

ok everyone pls come down to junction8 n visit me whenever u can from 4dec to 10dec k! im working in at e precious touts roadshow in the atrium (2nd storey). the stall will b beside the stage. im working from 11am to 9.30pm (official hours). n cos we're not allowed to go for lunch tgt i've been eating alone dis entire wk at the super ulu-ated bukit panjang plaza. so sad =( so drop by n pei me for my meals...n stupid bels. U NOE HOW MANY HOURS I GOTTA STAND DERE JUST TO EARN ENUFF FOR 1HAAGEN DAAZ ICECREAM?!! haha recently everything i c (all the prices) i'll relate it to how mani hours i gotta stand. Eg. $5 for lunch = 1hour of standing at work =X i wont spend alot of $ from now on.

sori i gotta go bathe n slp cos tml stil gotta work. so not replying tags. next time. paiseh!

re tags!

kkz i shall blog and reply tags. im a good and nice gal. i shant neglect my readers =)

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!

im working at precious thoughts roadshow. everything we'll be selling is precious moments stuff lik figurines, towel, keychains etc. eack wk at different malls.

27nov - 3dec at bukit panjang plaza
4dec - 10dec at the ever rocking and wonderful and fabulous JUNCTION 8 =D
11dec - 19dec at plaza singupura

come down n buy sth to support me k! e items r discounted so e prices shld be ok...anyway u all oso nid to get xmas prex ma so wads betta than getting sweet Precious Moments stuff - Loving Caring Sharing during this festive season! so come down n support me k!

shuyi - haha of cos chim la!! von is intellectual *grins* =p

jillian - i'll hold ya to ya promise of getting me good food ar! i dont mind u giving me chocos for xmas prez hee =)

bels - crazy gal ask me blog when u urself oso nvr -_-" its unhealthy to eat junk food...n im not exercising now =( u noe i'll get abit out of breath when i walk veri fast (when im rushing)?!! haiz. i hope my arteries arent all clogged up with fat deposits =X lets go exercising tgt!!

iduntellu - thanks!! dats wad im trying to do. but sometimes abit lazy to go get food. but im trying to eat whenever i can =S

luan - yea me too!! finally we had our date after toking abt it for ard 1yr 0.o jiayou for choir prac! n mayb next yr go island creamery after sch? =)

szehan - dun wori. my mother's fren n my aunts who haven seen me for veri long say i've become abit fatter haha. n my sch skirt is abit tighter now. n YOUR objective is oso to get fatTER. not fat. cya at chalet!

qiao - haha cos i c all e other blogs ma den duno y abit depressed =S anyway im ok now thanks for ur concern. n when can meet u xchange e vcds???!!!!!!!!

hongxiang - u're the most frequent tagger so must put u as last. gotta read all ur tags first. not bad la got listen to u hee =) n im not lazy ok!! im starting work soon. must must must come support me k!! n i wan go kbox leh~~

joke time!!

i duno y each time i look at other pple's blogs i'll feel sad. sense of loss i tink.
i tink im suffering from some kind of eating disorder.
even though i eat my 3 (or more than three) meals everyday.
i tink if it wasnt for my stomach dat kips feeling hungry i wouldnt eat at all.
cos i have no appetite to eat.
so to appease my troublesome stomach i just force food down my esophagus (issit spelt likdat?)
n after so many yrs i got used to feeling hungry.
cos sometimes having lessons or wadever den cant eat.
that i can just go on doing my stuff WITH my stomach rumbling.
lik e sense of hunger is not dere.
oh my my my. =S

i stand in the middle of a crowd feeling there's no one beside me.
i sit in a cafe watching people rush by feeling forgotten.
i look at everyone surrounding me and i still feel dat im all alone in the world.
or should i say its my heart that feels alone and empty.
and i don't know what to do to fill up that hole.
i don't know how to revert that sense of emptiness
and make it full...just like before.



Storytime!! =)

Immaculate Deception

A mother took her daughter to the doctor and asked him to give her an examination to determine the cause of her daughter's swollen abdomen. It only took the doctor about 2 seconds to say "Gimme a break lady! Your daughter is pregnant."

The mother turned red with fury and she argued with the doctor that her daughter as a good girl and would never compromise her reputation by having sex with a boy.

The doctor faced the window and silently watched the horizon. The mother became enraged and screamed, "Quit looking out the window! Aren't you paying attention to me?"

And the doctor replied, "Yes, of course I am paying attention, ma'am. It's just that the last time this happened, a star appeared in the east, and 3 wise men came. I was hoping they would show
up again and help me figure out who got your daughter pregnant."


what the eye does not see
what the ears do not hear
what the mouth does not say
what the face does not express
what the heart does not feel
does not mean its not there.

trying to do pw I&R now..but cant reali tink properly..tink all my long slp these few days hav made my brain go into 'off' mode for academic uses but 'on' mode for other useless stuff lik watching tv >.<

simoneEe tagged me to do dis. veri bored now so shall jus do it.bels gave super long answers whereas simone just answered in short phrases. so i shall be e 1 in e middle.

1. Will you tell your crush that you like him or her?
Im not e zhu dong type so of cos no. unless im veri sure dat my crush likes me too.

2. If your crush like somebody else, what will you do?
nth.im not dat evil to go sabotage.

3. You have accidently bumped into your crush and his or her friends. He or she invited you to join them. What exactly would you tell him or her?
Duno. if i feel comfortable ard his frenz den i wont mind joining. doesnt make sense to go join a grp of pple dat u dun feel comfortable with.

4. Prom is just around the corner. Your crush wants you to be his/her date. Now, do you think he/she likes you?
No.

5. What will you do if your crush said "I love you" to you?
i'll be quite shocked cos love is a pretty strong word. tink i'll stone for awhile before changing e topic.

6. Who is your crush?
.KIM JEONG HOON. he's e 1 acting as Yul in Goong. he's my new obsession =D
but seriously I don't have a crush on any1 now. anyway who'll be so dumb to write here n tell every1.

7. Do you think your crush like you too?
He doesnt noe i exist cos he's in faraway Korea *sobz* =(
to ans seriously - my crush don't exist.

8. Why do you like your crush?
i jus like him =)
he doesnt exist!

9. Do you share any interests with your crush?
how would i know.

10. Will you ever going to marry your crush?
how would i know.


NOW, A WORD FOR A WORD.

1. Having feelings for myself
i love n hate myself at e same time.

2. Loving someone is tiring
depends la. when u're hapi its not tiring. when u're sad its tiring.

3. Breaking up is freedom
depends la. breaking up with some1 u dun like obviously would be freedom.

4. Going on a date is a waste money
not necessarily. since i like guys to pay haha!

5. Long walk on the beach is boring
not necessarily. depends on who u walk wif, ur mood when u're walking.

6. Saying "I love you" is lame
eh..its not when e other person is some1 impt.
I LOVE YOU JINGLES! =p

7. Making out is so gross
depends on who u make out with. pple making out apparently dun tink dey're gross.

8.Prom sucks
no lor. e getting dressed part is fun.

9. Your boyfriend/girlfriend is someone
non-existent.

AND THE QUESTIONS.
1. Knowing the painful truth or hearing the beautiful lie?
painful truth. i hate it when pple lie to me.regardless its a white lie or black lie or colourful lie.

2. Pretty but mean or ugly but nice?
no special preference. cos to e pretty but mean one i'll most probably be mean back to counter-attack. quite interesting challenge. i've not been veri mean to any1 so far. im a nice gal! =)

3. Group date or One-on-one date?
depends on the company

4. Dating someone or staying alone?
see if dere's some1 i would like to date.

5. Great body or great mind?
great mind. but body oso cant lousy dao na li qu.

6. It's Saturday; Going out with your bf/gf or your friends?
i'll c e occasion n who asks first. first comes first served. haha

7. Follow your heart or your mind?
duno.tink i cant follow my heart even if i wan to. cos i tink my mind power n control is veri strong.

8. You did a lot of bad things in the past; Confess or hide?
see who im confessing to.

9. Your perfect date;
duno.

10. The way you say good bye after you went on a date.
bye bye lor!

Devil Beside Me =)

yay i finally finished watching devil beside me after duno how long. got e vcd from qiao. thanks!=) actuali e show not bad la. i take back my words dat its boring.its onli when i watch those NG parts n e part which kinda summarise e whole show n all e nice parts den i realise actuali its not bad. cos seriously when watching e show, as in episode by episode, its reali quite monotonous n boring. lik no suspense,no climax likdat de. as compared to ai qing mo fa shi.but den after watching e whole show den u tink abt e whole show overall rite..actuali quite a lot of things happened. n its quite sweet. hee. i tink mayb dey jus nid to develop e problems in between.lik dun resolve it so fast. yeah =)

next show: Goong. i managed to borrow e vcd. so i wana hurry up n finish it.
next next show: it started with a kiss (bels n lihui say its super nice)

oh ya. den i watched e dvd of Kim Jeong Hoon. he looks lik Yuan Bin with short hair. he looks untidy in long hair. he looks girly in some other hairstyles. serious. n in 1 mv he cup his face in his hands n he totally looks lik a gal. =X so i tink now e hairstyle suis him best. =) n his partner in UN (United N-generation) looks lik Vaness. >.<

tata. i hate pw.

to all my dear frenz...

here i am again! a new entry! haha i watched Death Note yest. went to Vivocity to watch but end up no tix. n e place super crowded la. pissed me off cos i cant even walk along e corridor straight. anyway. i like Death Note. i like LIGHT. i noe he's evil n cruel. but then. based on looks alone. he wins L. so ya. tink he's pretty cool. his eyes. e yan shen. u all noe i look out for guys' eyes =) haha! n ya shuyi. i dreamt of him. dreamt dat i met him in real person n i went all dumb. >.< haha. i bought his album =D he can sing leh! can sing can dance can act can host. WOW! im pretty obsessed wif him now =p oh n shuyi. youtube n chU's version of Goong is cut. e original mus watch from vcd or dvd. so ya =(

MY DEAR FRENZ...

mone - haha make a guess who's dat person? c if u guess correct =p does dat part sound touching??

bels - aiyo so bhb! haha i'll write a poem abt jingles when i hav e time =) when u n shuyi attachment start? we gotta go out b4 ur attachment starts!

luan - lets fix a date! Prestige dis movie confirm watch wif each other? =)hc hols oso start from dis thrus. i cant wait hee =)

alvin - thanks! but i duno ur blog add...i'll go xiaoming dere to find. ya gg chalet?

NOTE!!
thanks to e speak chi campaign...next mth go kbox its $5 per hour regardless of day and time. so pple!! kbox next wk?? =)

I LOVE KIM JEONG HOON =D

Belated Deepavali

hapi deepAvali to all! =)

dis entry is dedicated to all my loyal blog readers. i've heard ur cries for me to blog! yes i did! so here i am! typing a new entry for u all! DIAOZ. i noe im being bhb here. n shuyi! e Great Evonne has awaken! no nid to wake me liaoz! lolx.

hc is stingy with hols. other schs got hols on mon 23 oct 2006 cos their students gotta celebrate deepavali or hari raya. but cos hc is a cheena sch where most or all its students r chinese, we got e honour of having no holi on mon! how wonderfuL! cos we go sch to rot n breathe in the scent of the beautiful haze. i go sch at 7am in e morning onli to go dere n rot from 8-10am n den go for a 1.5hr bio lecture which i have absolutely wad topic e lecture is about. HOORAY! -_-"

anyway. i packed my room on sat cos i was soooooo bored. i woke up to do e SL proposal for clar n den had lunch or brunch. den i got so bored dat i went to vacuum e floor for my mother. den i tidied my room. threw away alot of stuff. its 1 big plastic bag full. n guess wad. my room is full of rubbish. i actuali had ALL, mind u, its reali ALL my letters dat my frenz write to me in pri sch. rem in pri sch we had dis writing letters thingy?yupz i kept all e letters till now. n i had all e merryxmas cards, new yr cards from pri1 till now. oh pls dun be shocked. its true. PRIMARY 1. 10yrs ago. i even had e thank you card jillian made for me. cos i pei her tok on e phone during e time she missed sch cos she was sick. dun tink she even rem la. n i got all e charity elephants envelopes dating back to pri2. pri2 is pink, p3 is blue. too bad i dun hav e pic to show ya. so sad rite. n i realised i din tidy my sec3 file. my work file. cos i jus threw it to a side. guess wad i found inside. all our timetables and our end-of-year exam timetable. i oso had all my guides testwork. proficiency badges, the bronze, silver, gold award. everything intact n kept in a file. n i oso got all the magazines we bought in pri sch. called ZOOLIFE n PLANTS sth i tink. YES, I KEPT EVERYTHING. i oso have e magazine dat was given to us in pri sch explaining the new Yusof Ishak money notes. alot of stuff. n i packed for 1whole day. cos i kept stopping to recall e past.

n it occurred to me dat we've grown old. aged. we're becoming adults unknowingly. in pri sch it seemed dat sec sch, jc, uni were stil so far away. look where we r now. time n tide waits for no man. it oso doesnt wait for woman. i rem how organised n hardworking i was back then. so disciplined. look wad i've become now. i dun tink i've gone astray. i jus become more playful n broaden my horizons. (really? =S ) somehow, somewhere, somewhat, we grew up. we fell. we learnt. n i got lost. without knowing im lost. look at my grades now. im not ashamed to tell every1 that i got:

GP - C
Bio - C
Chem - D
Maths - D
Econs - D

sucky results. i dun even noe if i can continue to get e edusave scholarship. EESIS or sth i tink. .i dun bother wid these stuff. if not im dead. my mother cant afford to pay e sch fees la! if dis reali happens im in deep shit. =S n so i got lost. but i dun mind getting lost. its when u discover alot of new things n understand urself betta. so ya. i duno wad im gg to b in future. dats y i dun feel lik studying now. cos im studying without a goal n jus studying for e sake of studying. but life's likdat. sometimes we got no choice. n i guess e fog is clearing bah. hopefully. n my hypothesis abt myself, sadly, is true...i din study for GP. look wad i got. i studied half heartedly for bio. look wad i got. i put alot of effort for chem, maths, econs. look wad i got.

anyway. i roughly noe wad im gonna do dis hols. tink i wanna get a job. those do for a few days onli de. so no nid commit too much time. e list!

1. job?
2. study - so dat i get prepared to b an ultimate mugger next yr
3. get back to my organ n guitar - e score i bought 3yrs ago r stil new
4. learn how to maintain my com - i dunwan to b a com idiot!
5. finish up my cross stitch
6. finish up e jigsaw puzzle
7. watch vcds - alot of shows i wanna watch!
8. shopping?? - im kinda broke =X
9. exercise - my aunts say i've become abit fatter so i gotta kip fit!
10. go learn jap? - i've been tinking of it for yrs
11. go find sth dat i like to do
12. go out wif frenz! kbox, slpovers, pool ........
13. i wan go overseas.............. =(

sori for e long entry >.< him =")">thank u for being dere for me when i was lost n confused.
thank u for being e light when i was engulfed in darkness.
thank u for being my guide when i could not find my way out of e maze.
thank u for reaching into my heart e way u did.
thank u for touching my life e way u did.
thank u for ur patience.
thank u for ur kindness.
thank u for ur love.
u may not noe how impt u r to me cos i din tell u.
but ur presence made a great difference to me.
e ease of being in ur company,
e comfort of knowing u would be dere by my side.
thank u.
but i oso wanna say...
SORRY.

shall reply tags at tagboard. otherwise dis entry will be super long. n no1 will read! =(
tata!

re-tags

im very lazy to blog an entry. but duno y for some reason i cant tag!! at ANY blogs. so i shall have to re-tags here.

mone - har. i duno how to post pics leh. n my claz dun hav e habit of taking photos of our everyday sch life..cos dere's no photographer. ya. i'll try la. stil got alot of things to learn abt blogging.

bels - my frenz go n watch..den 1 said he fell aslp during e middle part of e show..cos he say its draggy. but e others say its not bad! so ya i duno which view to take. so! im gg to watch..n c for myself hee =p n since u're lousy at waiting..i shall train u! next time jingles go out all of us shall b late n let u wait lalala~ =p

bweicg - ya i start e blog so its easier to kip in contact wif frenz =)

weilin - yay jus tag! u can flood if ya wan =)

shuyi - ya lor. dats y i say those sayings r useless. hmm. since we're all short-sighted creatures mayb all of us shld get specs..?? -_-"

hong xiang - ya ok. i tout u were angry at me den i duno wad to do =( y u suddenly fei ur blog?n i tink dis hols i wont b a da mang ren...decided to free myself from all activities so i can get some thinking done. hopefully i wont get white hair. n erm can lend me Xing Ping Guo Le Yuan vcd?

chernwei - ya go plan 6a gathering!! lets go play bridge at yiliang's hse! tink my bridge improved =D

qiao - so is scoop nice?every1 who i asked got diff views de. n y u always get to watch movie?!! oh ya. Ai qing mo fa shi part2 is not available at e vcd shop!! n noe is e exciting part somemore! =(

lastly. i hate my stomach. im hungry but yet i feel bloated. y? cos dere's wind inside. so i can onli eat abit. n cos of dis bloated-ness, i dun eat when im hungry. which is bad for me cos i got gastric problems b4. so now i have no appetite to eat even when im hungry. yucks.

10 october 2006 tuesday

dis entry gonna b quite long. so i shall try to kip it short. cos my mundane life will bore every1 to death. actuali i type finish an entry b4 dis. but cos i included some private thoughts dat i dunwan to announce to e world so i saved dat n redid 1.

firstly. i was sianz dat i go to sch everyday to do nth but play cards n add on to my bridge experience.

second. my chem. i got a lousy D. anyhow study for blocks = E grade. study much more for promos = D grade. not much diff har. n guess wad. most of my marks come from ques dat i anyhow do. n i cancel away my ans dat warrant marks. reason? cos i do ques veri fast. so i figured dat since my chem is so lousy n i do so fast, it probably means its wrong. wad stupid logic u may tink. but apparently it makes perfect sense to me during e course of the exam. so is dis a hint dat i shld anyhow study anyhow do my exam n i'll do well? im gd in things dat i dun like. waiting for bio results now to prove dis hypothesis abt myself.

third. mood was affected by chem. so went orchard early to have some time alone. when im in a bad mood or feel sad i nid to b by myself to clear my thoughts. so stoned thru lunch. watched e cars drive past. watched e customers come n go. watched e employees working. watched a typical day in orchard cine. n i wonder. all these pple working so hard, doin things everyday. do dey truly noe wad dey're doing? y r dey doing these? wads e motivation? pple jus live their life in a routine everyday. without stopping to tink wads e point. wads e aim in e end? dere's a saying 'live everyday lik ur last'. if every1 does dat den no1 would b having e life dey're having now. students wouldnt go to sch. adults wouldnt work. every1 would b busy doing wad dey want. n things lik 'dis is for ur future' wouldnt b able to apply. cos dere's no future if u follow e 1st saying. so it dun make sense at all la.

fourth. kbox wif pang ying qiao. quite nice. 1st time we kip singing n shouting all those high high rock songs. n i din care abt my image. sound horrible den horrible lor. im undergoing singing therapy, as some1 puts it. haha. enjoyed myself. den after pang left n singing finish, watched movie. 'you me n dupree'. wanted scoop but all e seats separated. e movie not bad la. quite funi. i got evon-ness in me!! =) its e UNIQUE factor abt evonne. hee. watched movies quite often recently. i mean as compared to e rest of dis yr.

fifth. i wan watch vcds. every1 ard me own vcds dat i wan but i jus cant seem to get my hands on dem. WHY?!! n i cant watch on youtube. renting is an option but nid $$. which i dun reali hav alot. >.< RAH.

sixth. bels. arent u honoured. got 1 part specially for u! lolx. jus wanna say dat being independent is not as gd as u tink it is. u said b4 dat u envy those pple who r strong n not as dependent on pple as u r. but dun look on e surface. look INSIDE. for all u noe dey may b feeling veri xingku cos dey cant spill everything out cos dey're independent. much more xingku than u. n its a privilege to rely on pple n complain to dem. to ask dem for help. dats wad frenz r for isnt it? frenz r not accessories for u to decorate ur life. frenz r dere to lift u up when u're down; frenz r dere to help u when u stumble; frenz r dere to support u when u feel lik collapsing. so dun feel so paiseh n kip saying u're troubling us. n getting over it takes TIME. so dun rush. greedy little gal. wanna take shortcut issit? =p

finally. i wan watch death note n scoop [bels - reali dat bad ar? =( ]

wa. wad an extreme day. i cant believe it. i jus cant believe it. jus likdat. oh yeah. fine.