Farewell Treat

finally met up with my angel last night
on my last day of work =)
had a good and long talk,
catching up with each other
just before he leaves for US on tues.
and the stupid guy says no need go airport to send him off
(i hope u read this! =P)
haha

i can still remember our long angel-mortal letters
where i can spend HOURS replying just 1 letter
its twice the length of any essay that we need to write for school assignment
and i will not listen in any lecture or tutorial cos im busy replying =p
and then get kinda frustrated because there's just so many things to say!
i still keep all ur letters ok
and i still smile whenever i take them out to read =)

i can still remember our orientation campfire
where u pretended to be some random senior n dance with me
n i was wondering whether u're my angel
but at e same time wondering if u're from my senior class

im glad that even though i changed class
we still keep in contact n stayed close
cause u noe already, u're like the only senior im close to in hwa chong

"live life as best as you can k =) "
i'll keep this in mind as i enter my new sch year
and somehow when i saw that last line
i felt ________ haha duno how to describe.
I WILL =)
somehow u always have a way of inspiring n motivating me
with the way u say
"must be ZAI"
haha!

and i'll keep this piece of advice in mind
2 different pple told me at e same time
so i guess its good advice
"just go for it. worry later. live life to the fullest"

A long overdue entry

supposed to blog after i come back from STONG

but was caught up in a lot of stuff.

how i wish i nvr came back from there haha

its a form of escape.

and since im blogging this entry from work (its my 2nd last day! cant wait for it to end =D)

i have no STONG pics to decorate this entry

but there's alot on facebook =P

haha!

belicia's fav phrase from there: SHAGGED CANT THINK

lolx

the waterfall was beautiful

the stars at night was amazing

the shooting star was fascinating

(and to think i mistook it for a plane -_-" )

sadly our little red dot has none of it =(

haha

i wanna whine whine whine

for the first time in my life,

i don't know what i want.

and to think i was still fretting over what i shld join next yr

cos i was scared i would end up studying n doing nth =\

now i gotta choose

and i just cant have everything

and now i just don't know which option would result in me having less regrets

because i noe that no matter what i decide,

i would have a teeny weeny bit of regret abt e loss of the other

and considering the fact that i MAY add 1 more core for this upcoming sem

because its IT related n i wanna leech/free-ride on our prof choong jigang

>.<

i'll definitely have to choose

if only i can be those ultra zai pple

so smart

can join lotsa activities and yet do well for their studies

haha!

so many thoughts going through my head

im fickle =(

after tues im going to head down to Changi Airport, curl up at a coffee place there

read a good book (yes, im finally fulfilling this tiny dream of mine since last year)

and just clear my mind so it'll be empty.

like wad lihui says,

any decision made when u're confused will be a wrong one.
haha!

i just find it hard to understand

why some pple love to judge pple so early

judge pple abt things that they themselves have not been through before

and only to realise later on, that

sometimes in life, things are not purely black n white.

sometimes due to duno wad reasons, ur actions will deviate from what is the supposed right.

and yet by doing the theoretically 'wrong' action,
u can put things right and reduce damage to the least.

HAR.

Pre-STONG entry!

hello hello!
finally going to STONG tml.
in case u're wondering where it is,
its at west kelantan Msia.
(apparently quite a few pple asked me n i said i duno >.<) will post personalised pictures here after im back! instead of koping from internet actually cos i lazy la =P we're taking e train dere! im going to slpp and slpppp and slppppppp like a pig so sad cant spend the time watching dramas but im sure dear bels and lauren will provide me plenty of entertainment =D life has been quite good and smooth sailing recently until i find it unbelieveable i really should do more good deeds to accumulate good karma friends keep bringing me good news under hexiang's reminder, i checked my biz major and i got my first choice!
TOURISM & HOSPITALITY MANAGEMENT
im sooo going to work in the Intergrated Resorts or some hotel next time
i'll make sure of it!
because recently working as an Acct Asst has made me realise that
im really not cut out for accounting =(
because im not as detailed, meticulous, and careful.
these qualities of mine has brought my supervisor alot of trouble
where she had to go through so many lines of items with me
just to find out where i had made mistakes
and most of the time its stupid careless mistakes
=(
i really really thank her for her patience with me.
and then i get bored of the task fast.
and cos everyone in e office is busy and rarely tok
i find a need to open my mouth n make noise
which of cos i didn't, n made me so xingku
=(

and then ryan got me to check my email
where i got the email from HALL 2!
i managed to get back HALL 2 for my 2nd year!
=D
i was really having no expectations
and making arrangements and plans on wad to do next year
with NO HALL
really really thankful.

oh and i still haven finish watching BOYS OVER FLOWERS
its no easy feat!
every1 finished it within DAYS
its been 2 mths for me now
and i still haven finish it
even dear simoneeeee caught up with me, overtook,
and reached the finishing line!
0.o
these are e 3 versions!
i've conquered 1 (taiwanese)
on my way to conquering the 2nd (korean)
and after that, to the 3rd! (japanese)
and THEN after that,
rewatch e anime version
=D

ok i need to start doing some work
then watch my drama
PLUS pack for my trip
=\

this is cute!

Adidas Sundown Marathon

belicia and i went for our first ever marathon!

adidas sundown marathon

10km women's

(yes i noe we're quite cui to just join the 10km run)

and obviously stupid and lazy me went for the run without training
>.<

but it was a good thing that belicia asked her fren to help come and be e pacer

(cos im super slack and have totally no motivation)

haha!

but im proud to say that i managed to complete it! =D

managed to run 6.5km (around there?) without stopping

before i finally puked =X

shouldn't have went to drink the water man

but i like only drink 1 teeny weeny sip lor

my weak body

and my weak stomach

and after that as i complete the run,

i was like burping and hiccuping all e way back

-_-"

and cause i increased my pace when its very near the finishing line,

i vomitted AGAIN after i crossed e line

SIAN

bels is thinking of joining the Army Half Marathon

omg

i tink i just wan to be road marshall and collect the shirts

=P

us before the run!

very happy and excited! haha

we kinda look like sisters lolx

got some LOREAL pple came and asked to take our photo -_-"

us AFTER completing the run!
=)

can see all our sweat and red faces

it was the first time i sweated sooo much

until my entire arm was wet

i mean, WET haha

cause i always sweat very little only, (as my friends all noe)

what an experience haha

been busy with work lately

travelling is driving me nuts

and making me very tired

and i keep making mistakes

careless mistakes here and there

missing out on small details here and there

and then making things so mafan and troublesome

=(

i cant imagine travelling this distance to ntu everyday next sem

HAIZ

and my workplace is so ulu

dere's nth to eat here

i actually bought cup noodles to stock up here

so that i can have sth to eat

sick of the food at the 'canteen' downstairs

=(

forgive me for my wilfulness, childishness and stubbornness sometimes

i know its not easy for u

im sorry

but could i just have a tiny tiny fraction of ur everyday?

i have never compromised so much before

or rather, i have never compromised before

but im willing to try my best

cause i don't want to lose you too

my 101 post

WOW.
i just saw that i had posted 100 entries.
after erm 2 years and 5 mths.
is it too much or too little?
hahaha.
anyway!
wanted to blog about my outing with JINGLES today.
had a great dinner at Marmalade Pantry.
they have Girls' Night Out from Mon-Sat so its a good deal for girls!
here's the promotion deal:

http://www.themarmaladepantry.com/

thanks to Yirene for recommending!
=)
next time shall continue visiting nice places for meals!
instead of sticking to the same old few places.
first time i cannot finish e chocolate cake for dessert.
even when me and shuyi combined our powers.
haizzz.
the slice is really big!
u guys shld go try =)

and i got a new wallet!
from GUESS
like the nice and bright colours
here it is!

picked it out myself from GUESS
its having a Sale!
hahaha
love some of the clothes there
but they're seriously too ex
next time when i have financial spending power!
muahahaha!

and my lovely friends!

JINGLES
(or called jingle bell by nicholas lim -_-")

i was wearing my new top that i bought from Bangkok
haha
but kena blocked
i forgot that i actually bought this top
lolx!
thanks to JINGLES for always being there to listen
although we dun always meet up
but then each time we do we always find alot of updates!
miss tan ying chern is coming back soon
STOP FACEBOOKING OK!

to nicholas lim
though i know you wont read this cos u're stranded somewhere in the forest
>.<
JIAYOU!!!
u have the ability
u can do it!
when u ORD
u can haolian to pple
how tough u're =)
hahahaha!

ok gotta go already
cos starting work tml
gotta reach e office at 0830 later
and gotta travel all the way to boonlay
=(

confession to make =(

i think im a bad friend.
or maybe i just have the bad habit of taking people for granted.
or more specifically,
people who mean alot to me for granted.
so im so glad and grateful that i have this few cliques of friends around
who are always there for me
even if we do not keep in contact often
u guys know that i do keep u all in a special part of my heart right!
when i get caught up in doing stuff
i'll forget about everything else
sad to say, my multi-tasking skills are deteoriating
i may not always take the initiative to keep in contact
or plan for outings
but this does not mean that i don't care or have forgotten about u
this holiday,
i shall attempt to meet up with all my friends
and keep all pple who means sth to me close to me
someone teach me pple-to-pple skills pls
>.<

oh ya
I CUT MY HAIR!!
supposed to accompany my friend
but apparently i just cant resist cutting hair
think alot of u noe that i like to cut hair,
and feel the snip snip snip of the scissors
its therapy for me =P
but then my hair grow very slow =(
so now my hair is kinda mid-length
its a layered bob
i shall not put pic here so that u all will wanna meet up with me in person!
then my above mentioned goal will be fulfilled!
=D
i noe i've been saying i wan to keep it long
and after 5 months it has finally grown long enough to fall below my shoulders
but nvm!
hopefully by august it'll reach dat length
then when sch reopens i shall have my long hair
hahahahahha

sori no pictures to entertain u guys >.<
go facebook? =P

BACK FROM BANGKOK!! =D

Hello
im back from bangkok!
actually back for quite a few days already la.
but lazy to blog.
and uploading pics onto facebook has been a killer.
next time i just take pics n let someone else upload and tag
>.<
some pics are very nice!
when i'm free and in e mood i shall try to play with some photoshop =P
(although im really quite free now)
been nua-ing everyday watching my Boys Over Flowers
=D
i really really like Kim Bum!
so boyish!
actually got quite some stuff to do but just too lazy >.<

in our hotel SUITE in bangkok! =)

found some nice pics on dhika's blog about our outings last week!
here they are!

taboo the gay bar
for some post-exam party organised by CS pple
witnessed some horrible fight over there
i wonder why everytime i go night places,
i'll always bump into fights and quarrels =X

celebrating my bdae!
look at my name written by sparklers!
albeit the 'e' abit fail haha!
but i love it all the same =)
shall find a chance to wear the nice present
its white gold and diamond bracelet!
hahaha.

for further interesting pictures about bangkok,
kindly refer to Facebook.
i have 9 photo albums on it
plus a very very funny video! =P

been sending out alot of resumes...
hopefully by end of next wk i'll have a job!

THANK YOU~~~

haha im finally 20
=(
and all the heartless people who keep reminding me of it!
wad welcome to the 20s club
argh
i'm forever 19!
=P

thanks to hall 2 dance supper heroes!
who gave me a surprise
and although i was smart enough to detect some weird stuff going on
like daphne n dhika being missing for sooooo long
i was also stupid enough to believe all the random and simple excuses they give
it was also the first time i had a surprise for my bdae =)
and the bracelet is very pretty!
(pictures kindly refer to facebook haha im lazy)

thanks to the OVE peeps!
you guys also gave me a surprise!
stupid me was still looking abt and wondering whose bdae is it >.<
haha!
also the first time i had such a surprise.
but no thanks for the cake smearing ar!
=)

thanks to mr lee jiahao4
for giving me a nice dinner treat!
u're the first one to do so!
and for playing pool and teaching me how to read angles on the table
i know i deproved A LOT LOT LOT!
=X
and for listening to me talk
you know i appreciate it lots
=)

thanks to all these people who msged me
some whom i totally din expect
and some whose wishes made me really happy
because they remembered =)
here they are:
ying chern (who msged me from far away manchester!)
weilin
hong xiang (no need to try matchmaking until so obvious ok.later pple tink i despo >.<)
youzhi (thanks for the cab! n u really so eager to spend money to stimulate economy huh!)
weili
soon swee (good welfare rep!)
han ming
shuyi (13 years and still counting!)
vincent
brandon
teng kiat
waikuan
zhikai
chengyuan
he xiang
belicia
candance
yupeng
yen ling
my dearest nicholas lim (hahahahaha!!!)
sim yee
lihui
huiqi
joseph
zhao cong (the cockster)
guojie
mavis
SK
eng how
simone
fiona
singhwa
qiaoling
stacy
shuxuan
daryl lim (WHERE'S MY TREAT!!)
because of the bdae wishes i got the chance to chit-chat with some of those that i haven't talked to for a superrrrrr long time
and i'm glad for that

thanks to all those who had wished me on facebook and msn =)
i had to say that facebook is indeed a very good tool in keeping track of bdaes =P
haha!

and in 1 hrs time im setting off for the airport
and in 3.5 hrs time im going to fly into the sky~~~
to my holiday trip in thailand! =D
sawadika!
from 9 May to 13 May
will be back on 13 May early morning
don't miss me!
=P

actually i have ALOT of things to blog about
from exams
to post exams
to last day of rooming with huiying
to moving out of hall
to all the ktv sessions that i've been having (erm so far its twice each wk =p )
to outings here and there
meeting up with frenz whom i haven seen for very very long
but no time and im abit lazy =P

and next week i noe i still gonna meet somemore frenz!
=D
jingles
nicholas/weilin & co.
ice cream gang
h.e.l.p??? haha KTV again pls!

ok im going to stop here
and catch a 30min slp
before setting off for the airport!
=)

the taleof my blindness

there was this question from our dear statistics paper on wed, 22 april 2009
and we're supposed use this test (Durbin-Watson test).
and we're supposed to compare our d value with the value in the formula table
and this d value is actually GIVEN IN THE QUESTION.

but stupid me din realised it
and spent 15min wondering how the hell do i get this value
and while wondering, i was staring at all the information given in the question
including the table where the answer was staring right in front of me, in my face
but alas,
i was too blind somehow
and i din realised it until e end of the exam
so i handed up my paper with that part BLANK
and after the paper,
even after people tell me its given,
I STILL CANT SEE.
and they actually had to POINT IT TO ME
then i saw the value!
OMG
i think this is like the biggest joke la
i duno why for every exam i'll make some careless mistake or blur errors =(

on e bright side,
2 more days till the end of exams!
though i still cant really see the end of exams coming
>.<
to the mighty one above:
teach me how to study for marketing
and bless me with superb crapping and smoking skills
so that i can get an A+ for marketing
and make up for all my screwed up papers so far =(

i shall conquer exams!

and then head towards this planet on friday! =D

random random!

hahaha i think mone's tag is the magic tag
cos everytime she tag n say i never update
i'll update =P

but actually i got nth to say here leh
my life's been miserably mundane!
exams is starting next wk
n ending in 2 wks time
but surprisingly,
i cant see the end of exams.
like i cant visualise the end of it
i wonder why.
i always use the end of exams to motivate myself.

i've been addicted to this song since huiying recommended it to me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQFyEisuvJQ
its actually tong hua in korean
e MV story is exactly e same as the chinese one
but somehow i find the song to be nicer than e chinese one
i think kim hyung joong sing in a very straightforward manner
until u jus feel e emotions likdat
n i love towards e end where they add in all the children's voices
so angelic haha!
huiying agrees with me on this =)

oh ya.
the kim hyung joong is not e actor in Boys over Flowers
apparently his name is very similar to e one in BOF
but HE IS NOT.

im feeling lousy about myself.
hahaha
positive self-talk
increases motivation
self-leadership
i need them now
hahahaha

(koped from deviantart)
if i ask u to write a 100 word essay on this picture, what would u write? haha.

shall put this at the front to make myself hapi =)

haven't updated for 1 week plus.
n seriously my life is too mundane to update.
haha unlike u simone n bels!
cos i only want to put happy stuff here.
cos even i myself visit my own blog to rem e happy things =)

n since i really feel like whining now,
i shall complain here.
I REALLY DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO STUDY
so much for my resolution made when Sem 2 first started
=(
unless i can finish my marketing report by Fri,
i cant mug for my exams in peace.
cos i will keep having this nagging feeling that sth is not done yet.
it is so mighty rare that i actually have e mood to study,
anytime, any module, anywhere,
and yet i cannot put in my 100%.
n since e report is only 10 marks,
im thinking of just hecking it >.<
but then i realised its no point
cos during e exam, its more or less the same thing.
=(
i never thought that i would prefer projects n presentations to reports n essays 1 day
0.o
or maybe im just too lousy to handle everything.
or maybe im just too lazy to even try to handle everything.

on a brighter note!
im going overseas for a few days each month during the holidays!
=D
May: Thailand Bangkok
June: Msia Stong
July: Cambodia (for OVE)
=D
im oso going to go broke
muahaha

words of wisdom learnt in Marketing Lecture:
1st, learn to accept it.
2nd, learn to face it.
3rd, learn to let go of it.

Nicholas's Commissioning

yay! Nicholas finally commissioned!
haha went for his commissioning parade.
was amused at how LOUD they sang all the songs.
and weilin was tickled everytime they shuffle,
cause obviously they don't need to shuffle.
lolx
sooooo proud of Nicholas!
we know that e whole process was certainly not easy
but YOU MADE IT! =D =D =D
everything just for today =)

and this just made me all e more determined to push on
regardless of what happens,
cause i noe what matters to me and my priorities =)

saw quite a few friends too.
didn't realised so many people commissioning today.
felt like a mini-gathering over there.
keep bumping into people....
friends from pri sch all the way till jc =)

and there was a rainbow after the parade!

haven't seen a rainbow for very very long!
it just made me so hapi.
the whole sky was sooooo pretty!
the colours were so niceeeee~~~

oh and i realised that OCS is REALLY near ntu
no wonder i can see the safti tower from my hall there
i'll be sad to noe that u all are no longer opposite me =(

after e marina barrage trip yesterday,
and seeing a rainbow today,
somehow i feel a sense of calm.
i guess maybe thats y i always like natural surroundings =)

some chances only come once. and i may have missed mine.
how many chances is life going to give me, and how many am i going to continue to miss.
i may not be fortunate enough to have so many chances
they will run out one day =(

=D
brandon nah, pls rem to save the drowning child =P

hahaha! our fav photo of the day =P

it takes some adaptation
for the one who has been doing the selection
to turn into the one who is being selected

exams in 2 weeks
omg
muggggggggggg

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YC! =)

Ying chern!
To my dearest fellow jingle YC:

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY! =D

we couldn't get u any present cos u're overseas,
we couldn't skype with ya cos we are not gathered tgt
so i came up with this idea!
hope u'll feel hapi when u see our blogs!
=)
its been 5 years since we knew each other!
super loooong!
when we separated to go into different jcs,
i really thought that we'll just lose contact and all.
but it didn't happen!
and now that uni has started and 1 sch year is almost over,
we're still as close as ever =)
we may not chat all e time,
we may not meet up for gatherings all e time,
but we noe deep inside that whenever we need a fren or each other,
we'll be there =)
and thanks to facebook and msn n blogs!
it felt as though u're still in singapore.
cos we're constantly getting updates from u! =D
(and vice versa too)
glad that u're hapi with ur bdae party over there
rem to come back n cook for us!
along with ur oreo cheesecake.
miss ur reminders of asking us to drink enough water,
take enough fruits and vegetables.
=(
and don't worry
bels + lihui + shuyi + mone + shuyi + me
will have ALOT ALOT of exciting stories to tell u when u come back.
mayb we can even film it down into a drama!
0.o
hahahahahahaha!
so jiayou with ur studies over there!
don't keep looking back on e past,
cos its OVER.
look at wad u have in the present,
and ENJOY and make it better!
we'll jiayou over here too!
and then u'll be back here with us in no time!
=D
happy birthday!
(lets continue to spice up each others' tagboards haha!)

Lotsa <3
von

i cant find a pic with me n u (cos its now in my laptop, not cos dun hav ok!)
so i put 1 of Jingles instead =D

response to yc's entry =D

haha went blog hopping after i haven't done so for a superrrr loooong time.
and saw our dearest tan ying chern's blog update! =D
so wads e season over there now?
i just felt so hapi reading ur entry u noe!
felt some normalcy (is this how u spell it?) amidst all the hectic work
especially these few weeks.
i guess while growing up, we all learn how to appreciate the moment?
cause we have been through so many regrets that what we want to do now,
is just bask in the moment and enjoy it
so that we don't have to experience the same idiot feeling called regret.
which is why now i tell myself not to ponder too much over things that i cant control.
i received this piece of advice before:
if something has happened and things have changed,
so what if you do not want it that way?
if you have done your best to redeem/change,
and where the rest lies out of your control,
do not blame yourself or get too affected.
because ultimately,
you have done wad you could.
i think all of us would like to know that we can always make a difference,
make things better.
and we would naively think that as long as we work harder, just a little bit harder,
things WOULD become better.
but sadly in life, sometimes,
reality doesn't work that way.

contrary to wad lihui says,
everyone's (referring to jingles??) nick may be emo
and i tink mine is too.
but its not cos i emo.
i just saw the phrase on e cover of a Jodi Picoult book.
everything breaks, but some hurts more than the others
and find it very apt and impactful and can relate to it
since when do i put emo stuff on msn and my blog? =P
hahahahahaha!

yay lets all do a blog entry about each other
and use this cheap thrill
to make each other hapi =D

monday.
1 suicide cum stabbing case in NTU.
first day of school after recess week.
and now friday.
another suspected suicide case.
seriously.
whats wrong with the school or the people in it.
feels like e 2nd one see the 1st one and then decided to copy.
isn't life precious.
there are many things in life that u may have lost,
many things in life to be depressed about,
but there are also things in life to be grateful about,
things that we can rejoice about.
the difference lies in your perspective.
i really feel sad for the family.

its 4 more weeks to the exams!
n im sad to say that i haven't been touching my books.
its gonna be a mad rush of intensive mugging in the wks leading up to exams.
positive visualisation: i can get through this!
believe, believe, believe.
i don't allow myself to succumb or become weak!
>.<

i overestimated myself.
maybe i just cannot handle whatever life's throwing at me.
or maybe i can, just that i choose not to.
because i just simply refuse to conform to the method that's required of me.
because i just stubbornly refuse to.

not a very long time ago i thought i couldn't.
then i realised its not a matter whether i can or not.
but whether i'm willing to.
whether i'm willing to accept the change and
whether i even bother making the effort.
and when i thought it through
i got through the entire phase effortlessly.
conscious effort was redundant and not required.
i surprised myself.

someone told me this a long time ago.
how could u have been so right.
is life really like that?

i never wanted anything soooo badly before.
and all i can see now is it drifting further and further away from me.
please don't go out of my grasp.
all my life i've been getting what i want.
every goal that i set,
somehow or another i always managed to get it.
to the big one high up above,
please please please let me get it.
i know i haven't been a very hardworking and good girl.
but please please please be forgiving >.<
for so long i have set my goal on this.
i wouldn't know what to do otherwise.
i can just imagine my sense of loss.
and how sad and disappointed i would be.
i can even feel it now just by thinking about it.
ahhhhhhh
=(

CNY this year doesn't feel like CNY.
so much for me wanting to get a good rest.
days are still busy and hectic.
stupid hp spoilt on friday n caused me much inconvenience.
it was only then that i realised how dependent i've became on my hp.
and i realised that SAMSUNG sucks.
>.<

i want to rest.
haven't been a couch potato for damn long.
ever since i moved back into hall i think.
i haven't sat down on e sofa n just watch tv
single tasking of watching tv
i want to go to pulau ubin to cycle
i want to go to east coast to sit by the beach and listen to the waves and watch the sunset
i want to go to Starbucks or Coffee Bean or any cafe and just sit down n read a book
i want to go to the library and randomly pick a book to read
i want to go sing karaoke
i want to take an evening walk in Bishan Park
i want to be able to read the newspapers everyday
i want to lie on my bed at home, snuggle in my blanket and just listen to the songs playing on the radio
i want to crash other unis and tour their campus
i want to watch drama serials without having the nagging worry that i have hw undone
i want to have a stayover with the Jingles
i want to get a drink
but alas, all these are WANTS
=(

i finally packed and tidied my room.
strictly speaking, its just 1 table.
but i found alot of stuff:

-O Levels entry proof
-A levels entry proof

we used to hate receiving entry proofs because of wad they bring and imply. but ironically, when exams are over, they provide fond memories. i guess people tend to remember the hardest period of their lives most clearly, and smile when recalling them.

-2005 calendar notebook from CNB
-hwa chong results slip
-hwa chong integrative service-learning training 2006 (i totally don't remember anything about this!)
-Shuyi's 2006 RJC maths paper + answer key
-Brandon Nah's 2007 chem paper + answer key
-2007 Singapore Cambridge GCE Exams Instructions for candidates

i still have ALL my A levels notes and papers nicely filed up on my table.
duno y but i just cannot bear to throw them away
im a rubbish collector!
>.<

many people are concluding their 2008 and looking forward to 2009
2008 has been an unique year for me
working instead of studying
and i experienced alot alot
which not only will not bring me down,
but only make me stronger and enrich my life experiences
cant believe that 1 year just flashed past like that
im glad that im still in contact with my best friends =D
let 2009 be a fresh and good year!
=)

a new beginning, a new start

i got a new haircut..at the new Chapter2 in Jurong Point
under recommendation by someone
haha
the stylist and service there is not bad =)
when everything was done and when i saw myself in e mirror
i had a de javu feeling
like seeing my old self again
the old, guai-looking Evonne
not the golden hair ah lian -_-"
i haven't seen myself likdat for very long
5months actually
i have no idea why i felt like that
no more wild girl look
no more loud hair to attract attention
and shuyi u'll have a more difficult time looking for me n bels next sem *winks*
its 'bye bye' to that ah-lian evonne
and everything that had happened while i was sporting that hair
its 'hello' to the new-cum-old evonne
my hair looks softer now!
yay

maybe next time when i get sick of this style
and when things are not going smoothly for me
i shall go snip off my hair again
and cut it dammnnnn short like a pixie cut
(since now i know i don't look bad in it, i'm not afraid of it)
haha!

byebye 2008
hello 2009
the new haircut was just in time
haircuts are really therapeutic
=)

to all my frenz
MERRY CHRISTMAS
im sorry that i din sms all of you with xmas greetings
it doesn't mean that i forgot u all okay
i miss every single one of u!
<3

this, is totally unbelievable.
stupid facebook actual age test says im only 3 years old
-_-"
its not accurate right.
its too much already.
i was expecting like 13 or 16 or somewhere near that range
but 3 YEARS OLD?!!!
omg
so i guess it means that i'm really very sweet and innocent then!

but then i just saw Jiahao4's true age
its 5 years old
hahaha!
we're all sweet and innocent =D


-constant reminders needed-

okay. someone said my blog is dead.
though i don't think so because the last entry was only what, 1 wk ago?
its considered quite new according to MY blogging frequency and standards.
but nvm!
here's a new entry just to show that my blog is NOT DEAD.
(it used to be much more more more dead)
arent u honoured!
this entry is to prove u wrong!
muahahaha
=P

spastic!

xmas tree at Times Square

i think i've broken my record for not slping
Didn't sleep on Monday night except for short naps on mrt n buses
Didn't really sleep on Tuesday night except for a measly 3hrs
i've officially become an owl
sleep in the day, active at night
im going to age much faster =(

2008 reflections

Yay back from Hall Trip to Malaysia!
it seriously was a camwhoring trip..
as some of you had seen on facebook 0.o
albeit e number of pics taken wasn't as much as what we had expected >.<
since there was a lot of travelling done on the bus,
i had enough time to think things through and do my 2008 reflections


and i realised that change is constant and inevitable
after going through changes that happened 1 after another
at such amazing speed
that i could barely keep up
it dawned on me (although kind of late) that there's nth i can do
its a fact of life and not due to my lack of ability or whatever
there's no point wondering why and how
once things happen, they happen
'used-to-bes' become past tense and they get etched into history
and there's no use in thinking about them
why did it take me so bloody long to get this into my head?!!
i guess i just need a REAL big wham, which i've gotten
lolx



i need to:
-stop nua-ing around! the only things i've done the past few days is to eat, sleep, talk, and travel
-stop procrastinating! and start doing things that im supposed to >.<
-start exercising! i've been on a rampant food feast since exams ended 0.o

things that shuyi would post if she had a blog

haha i said i would blogged about this!

If Ms Fong Shu Yi has a blog, here's what she would say:

1. the revenue of store 8-11 (store in belicia's hall 8) is mostly contributed by 1 person, namely the Business Manager herself, Belicia Ong.

2. Evonne n Lihui were so excited to be back in the Bukit Timah area, which is sooo near their beloved Hwa Chong JC, that they kept reminiscing about the memories they had during their short 2 years there, and failed to take note that the bus they took is going in the opposite direction. And while checking the bus directory to confirm they're not wrong, someone said 'dun worry this is our di pan. won't go wrong'. and then they were wrong and boarded the bus going in the wrong direction -_-"

3. Lihui has volunteered to do a template for me if i decided to revive my blog. And the template would contain just one SUPER BIG tagboard for friends to tag and keep it active. Since i always have nth much to blog about, Lihui suggested that i post my very-short blog entry on the tagboard.

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and this is what Evonne is going to blog about:

after going to Weilin's blog and saw her post about her sms to Nicholas and his reply, i suddenly miss Nicholas ALOT. alot alot alot. all the crap and fun and laughter. jc would not have been so fun without the 3 of you around. im just sooo grateful to have u all around =)

during A levels when I was having a hard time
some say that it'll be over soon
for A levels is the worst that exams can ever get
and that if you ever managed to get past that stage
you're cleared
university would be a breeze

obviously
all these people are liars
rahh

Insights...

Been watching the Channel 8 9pm show about Aids recently
and i think its a very sad show
i don't know if its cause the cast is good or what
but i just feel so sad and touched whenever i watch the show
escape from exams =X

For every misfortune that happen,
there's a good that will befall.

For every mistake made,
there's something called forgiveness.

For every flaw that exist,
there's something called acceptance.

For every discrimination that occur,
there's something called embrace.

For every thing that is rushed and hurried,
there's something called patience.

For every ounce of hate present,
there's something called love.

Love, that encompasses all of the above.
Forgiveness of the greatest mistake
Acceptance of the weakest flaw
Embracement of the uncontrollable discrimination
Patience of the sprinting of time
And when you add all of them together
You get something even greater than hate
And its called love.

And its because of all these
that we learn to have something called hope.

If hope has a shape and takes on a form,
I would like to know
So that I can find it

For every single thing on this earth that happen,
there will be an equal and opposing force.
(Newton's third law...apparently it doesn't apply to science only.
No wonder he's a genius haha =p)

As we grow up, we get exposed to more and more things
Wonders of the world
Ugliness of humans
And all these things will soon clutter and blind our sight
of the simplest things in life.
When we were young, we get satisfied so easily
So innocent and simple-minded
because happiness was at its core
As our world gets more complicated,
we lose sight of the core of happiness
running blindly in pursuit of all those things that we thought were important
what's the point of achieving them
when you've lost the most important thing of all
Wealth
Popularity
Career
Social status
All these are so superficial and only belongs to the exterior
What's the point of having them
when there's no one to share it with
when you can be standing in the middle of the crowd
centre of attraction at a party
but still feel so empty and hollow inside
And then you start to slow down and look around
and find the superficial things fading away
and realise that the people who do not have them
actually are so much happier
for when the heart is full
it fills up all the gap that the absence of these material items leave behind
and you'll realise that the simplest things
actually bring the greatest amount of happiness
because the core will never change
regardless of what happens outside

If chance comes in front and dangle in front of your face
Would you have the courage to take it
And enter into untouched terrain
Or would you rather spend your energy thinking,
Analysing about something that you'll never get the answer
Unless you reach out your hand to grab it.
Isn't it a pity
To give up on something that may succeed
That may just work out just the way you want it
How would you know
Unless you try
And you'll never know what is the answer to the hypothetical 'what if'
Because when chance presented itself in front of you
Free to take and free to own
You did not take it
Its so ironic that some people have to fight so hard to get chance to appear
Yet some people simply refuses to take it into their hand when chance appears
Its such a pity to have to give up without a try, without a fight
Knowing that there's a chance things will work out
Yet because, the answer will never be known.
Sometimes we just have to learn to ignore our brain
And follow the little voice inside our heart.

I have no idea why i suddenly have these insights
It just popped out and keeps flowing while watching the Aids show
And these are just those that came out in English
I have some in Chinese 0.o
Lolx
maybe i've been forcing my brain into overdrive these days
and while i've been using one half of my brain to study
the other half also work itself by coming up with all these stuff
thats soooo not technical
hahaha

笑忘歌 - 五月天

屋顶的天空是我们的
放学后夕阳也都会是我们的
不会再仰慕更多了
唱一首属于我们的歌
让我们的伤都慢慢慢的愈合
明天我又会是全新的 OH
青春是手牵手坐上了
都不回头的列车
总有一天我们都老了
不会遗憾就OK了
伤心的 都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一天天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你 都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
自己和自己打一架了
想都想不通方正就是这样了
不会再流泪更多了
有多少错误重蹈覆辙
有多少痛苦还不是都过来了
想起来甚至还会笑呢 OH
青春是人生的实验课
错也错的很值得
就算某天唱起这首歌
眼眶会有一点湿了
伤心的 都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你 都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你 都越好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
谁说这样不伟大呢

they're so old already...
how come their song n lyrics are still so youthful and apt for e teenagers
like kids likdat
lolx
=)

I am a Dreamy Idealist

i hate FM!

evonne is being driven crazy by FM
despite listening to online lecture and reading the notes
im still as clueless as when i first started
i don't have any idea how to use the calculator
i don't know what the terms mean
i don't understand how everything links together
i don't get why is it done likdat, why the formulas are like this
oh my god
someone save me
=(

i realised that its really very convenient to have a car.
especially when u need to travel to:
(a) ulu places like NTU - its not called pulau NTU for nth
(b) inaccessible places like industrial estates and parks which have absolutely lousy transport
(c) anywhere in generally when u're hard pressed for time.

Its very useful when you need to
-pass people things urgently
-collect stuff
-for delivery
-for late nights out (then no need to fret about public transport, nightrider blah blah)

i think im stressed unconsciously.
im not eating well these days.
=(

im telling myself,
to be grateful and appreciative of everything
whatever that i have now.
it takes a loss to realise what u've once got.
i dunwan to fulfill the meaning of this sentence again.

count your blessings... name them one by one.
-written by Ms Ling (my primary school music tcher) on my Children's Day bookmark

i've got a good hall
good sch
my grades seem to be fine (after taking into consideration the amount of effort i put in)
fun ccas & activities
wonderful friends
nice family
cosy home

so i shan't be greedy
there can never be a perfect life
what makes e imperfect perfect lies in e attitude

here're some nice pics!
taken with hall dance pple when we went out on tues night
the place is seriously so nice to take photos!
i MUST pick up adobe photoshop after exams!

I LOVE THIS!
looks like some professional series or sth =)

so cute!

EVONNE HUANG!
PLEASE GO N STUDY CAN!
YOU'LL BE CRYING LATER WHEN U FAIL UR EXAMS
AND GET LAST IN NBS =(

adventure on a monday morning

Hmmm...its monday morning 9.40am.
what is Evonne doing blogging here?!!
isn't she supposed to be at class?!!
=P

let me recount what happened this morning...
another entry to my book on 'Interesting Stories on e Mrt'
haha!
i woke up late dis morning...
*note! but still can get to sch on time if i dun drop by my hall before class.
so i decided to take e Mrt to Raffles Place and change to Boon Lay
since its supposedly shorter
and i was thinking, now is e morning peak hour so e trains should be veri smooth
and time taken to transfer from each line wouldn't take too long
everything went fine...until Raffles Place
boarded e East West line after waiting for 5minutes
(so im supposed to reach Boon Lay at 8am)
and then...
e train cant move.
it jus stayed dere n open n close the doors for god knows how many times
until e announcement came
'pls alight cos e train is not for passenger service'
what nonsense.
so obvious its cos e train got some problem
so waited another 5min for e next train
how is it possible to squeeze 1 trainful of pple into another crowded train?!!
ok i was lucky enough to squeeze in
but then at outram park station
e same thing happened again
E SAME THING HAPPENED AGAIN
so a normal trip from Raffles Place to Boon Lay takes 30min
i took 25min to travel from Raffles Place to Outram Park
which is only 2 stops away from Raffles Place
and then there's this China woman
who keeps pushing to get into e inside of e cabin
so i got pissed off
and i PURPOSELY push others around me
making a big show
of me trying to let her pass through
showing that there's no space
yet this woman keeps wanting to move
ha!

and then when i reach Boon Lay
no no no
things are not over!
e entire platform was soooooooo bloody crowded with people
that those who alighted cant go off
those who came up to take e train cant board
and the control station actually made an announcement
asking pple to wait for e next train if they cant board e current one
what a joke
e entire train was practically empty
because those who alighted are blocking the doors
those who wanna enter cant go in
and then
cos there was this whole jam thingy
until pple got stuck at e escalator
it seriously is scary
the escalator just keeps moving and bringing pple up
when those who reach the top cant clear the area in time cos too crowded
and those behind just keeps crashing into pple in front
and all e while e escalator just continue bringing pple up
its seriously scary
u cant move....but e escalator under ur feet keeps moving
OMG
this is e first time i see sth likdat
even during Xmas or Countdown or any major event in town
nth likdat happened
so i spent like what, 15min getting from e platform
down to e gates
-_-"
and at this point of time
i was wondering
given e sequence of events so far
would e bus have some hiccup also??
lolx

stupid Mrt
im sure we pay so much fares
for your so-called 'increase in quality'
with
more disruptions
more accidents
more jams
not enough trains

maybe next time i shld just stick to my normal route
can get a seat, can slp peacefully
and can get to sch on time

i took this picture in ulu NTU!
quite nice i think =)

lets hope this wk will turn out fine!
study study study....
Evonne
GO AND STUDY!
=(

wa haven blogged for damn long...

typed out an entry last Sunday to record what i thought of e OVE canvassing event
but i think its waayyyyy overdue already

went J8 to take a walk just now
and i saw this new slogan by New Balance
and was quite struck by it
like its so apt...
admire e marketing personnel who came up with it
if i dun rem wrongly
its sth likdat:

every runner has a struggle
between pain and pleasure
between the good days and the bad
between love and hate
that's why you need new balance
(im not sure of the last sentence but that's not e point)

like wow!
then i was doing some stuff for cca
and then im like wow wow wow for some of the things companies do
which makes me even more interested to find out what marketing is like
think its kinda cool =)

3weeks more to exams
how can time pass so fast!!!
1 semester is almost over
half of my freshie year is about gone
so fast!!!

time for me to do some reflections
or should i tell myself not to think too much
haha

venting entry hahaha

recess week is here! but somehow i think i wont have enough time to finish whatever i need to do. cca stuff, projects, catching up with old friends, exercise, and most importantly, my studies. studies is the most impt yet i seem to be paying it the least attention =X and somehow i still dun feel e stress YET. guess i really need to see the deadline and feel e urgency before i'll really start becoming efficient. otherwise i'll just keep thinking i have lots of time, which sadly is not the case.

i thought my results of 15/20 for my quiz is not bad already. its quite good actually. im satisfied with it, considering that i din finish studying and i only kinda looked through my notes what, 2hrs before the quiz? and then i start hearing people who got 17, 18, 19/20, with 19/20 being the NORM, and i damn sian. WHAT THE FUCK?! theory of relativity. no wonder they say in nbs if u dun hav a minimum GPA of 4.0 u're lousy.

went running after quiz on wed nite and oh my gosh, my fitness level SUX to the core. disgusted with myself. see the slope at hall 3 n 16 then gif up le. n after e run my legs weren't even aching. the last time i rem, i dun recall myself being so mentally weak. the view from ADM is super nice though =)

met up with Yosi and Jian Lun (ex-colleagues) and got arrowed by Jian Lun for no rhyme or reason. thanks for e lesson on human relations anyway. he said that no matter how busy u r, if u truly have the heart to do sth, u will get it done. if not its all empty talk. thoughts do not materialise themselves if u don't take any action. 'don't make promises that u cant fulfill' and 'im stating the truth. which part of what i said is not true?' wa. sounds so awfully familiar. e visit to his hall and looking at how he conduct himself made me realised some things too.

finally back home after 1week in hall. was darn proud of myself that i stayed 5 nights in a row and felt fine. Credit goes to Huiying! cos she was around everyday the entire wk. it feels good not to return to an empty room =D please stay more often! met up with s73 pple at West Mall and went home happily, only to realise that I DID NOT BRING HOME MY HP CHARGER. no wonder i felt sth was wrong when i left. stood at my room door for so damn long n YET i din realise. F***. so tml im gg to travel ALL the way back to ntu to take my charger. if only my hp can be ready for collection tml. ULTIMATE SIAN.

thurs.
i duno how i'll feel.

like what nicholas said, i need to feel a sense of loss before i'll even start to appreciate and realise how much it actually means to me.

failure = success??

saw this and i was struck by the last 2 lines.

i've failed over and over and over again in my life
and that is why i succeed.

motivation? haha.
so evonne ar evonne...
don't be scared of failures...
cos one darn fine day,
u will succeed.
*keeps fingers crossed*

i cant slp! =X

just got back from supper with tutorial grp 5 awhile ago...went Prata House in thomson. good to noe that quite a few of them live around this central area =) next time can plan some more supper! haha and im so full that i cant slp so im here to blog and upload photos in facebook! accumulated quite alot since 2 wks ago i think =P dun complain already! and dun ostracise me and my camera anymore =( haha but cos im rushing to upload e pics, i din do any editing to make it look nicer =P

tutorial group 5!

and saw photos of nick's nights out last mon ( i think). that was e first monday that i had no monday blues and i felt sooo hapi. hanging out with them never fails to make me laugh and feel hapi =) yay i love weilin & co, nick & co, and brandon & co!
(must put likdat so that no one will complain. i noe all of us are veri ego hahaha!)

weilin's absent =(

my (permanent) boyfriend!

was uploading pics from my camera to my comp and i went to look at the photos jingles took since 2006..n felt so nostalgic. din realise that so many years have passed since then and that we have had so many small outings and gatherings and bdae celebrations. i'm just so glad and grateful for them in my life =) ying chern...i will miss you!

jingles!

the funniest pic all night!

and bels i have unglam shots of u! but i shall be nice and not post it =) hahaha.


i must get used to studying again. used to be able to study the entire day and be productive. but now its only a few hours of studying and my brain feels overloaded. and ironically, the more readings i do, the more confused i get, the more i don't understand! planned to use 2days to finish up AA101, but ended up finishing 2 chapters only =X


oh ya. me n huiying washed e toilet last nite! haha pampered evonne learnt how to wash the toilet. when u're forced to do things urself, u learn.

congratulations simoneEeEe! u're officially offered the task of being jingles chauffeur! no more worrying about last train or last bus home! yay! hurry up thank us for giving u chance to practise and gain experience on real roads! =P


clar left already..

jinghui's leaving on mon..

ying chern on wed..

lihui during recess wk..

mother & bro next next wk..

jiahao4 next next wk..

who else can i add to the list?

lolx


don't be greedy.

appreciate what u have.

don't complain so much.

take initiative.


i don't want any of the people who came into my life to leave


saw this nice phrase somewhere:
friends cannot help you to solve your problems
they can only support you while you solve them.

Hwa Chong MAF 2008

in my 2 years in hwa chong, i've always thought that mid-autumn festival is stupid. and i always wonder in amazement why the seniors would even wanna come back, and why they can get so high and excited over something so stupid like dancing mass dance and singing all the songs. but now after i graduate from hc, i myself became a senior, and i too am excited, very very excited, in fact to go back to hc for maf. it doesn't matter that we duno some of the songs. it doesn't matter that we duno how to dance the mass dance well. we still had fun. because MAF is an occasion for seniors. for us to all come back and meet up on 1 night. all of us are so busy with our own schedules, in different unis, and for the guys in ns. it certainly helps to bring all of us back together to the place that we spent 2 years in. when i first started sch in hc, i felt like its going to be 2 looooooong years. yet everything just went past in a flash. n now that im in 1st year in uni, i look to the future and i see 4 loooong years ahead. but actually it wont be that long. half a semester have passed by without me realising it. 2 more wks and its my recess wk. i can say that im hapi to know that i have 1 wk break for my studies. but i cant say the same for other areas for my life. cos after that 1 wk break, my family, close frenz, are all leaving me to go overseas for sometime =( chance for me to test how independent i really am. staying in hall made me realise how useless n weak i am. but im not going to stay like this forever. i'll learn!

the wonderful light-up

06s73!

Rare though true love may be, it is less rare than true friendship

time to move on...regardless what.

mess, messier, messy

my life is in a total mess.
and i don't know how to start clearing it up.
=(

friday was supposed to be a nice day.
for the first time, i accomplished almost everything that i set out to do that day.
talk about efficiency man!
and finally arranged a day for jingles dinner =D

and i went shopping in amk >.<
because e prices were really ridiculously cheap
i just cant resist buying
1 spag top + vest = $12
1 dress = $13
and i realised i've been shopping every week
first is DMK shoes
next is dresses from Hula & Co
now is clothes from This Fashion
this kind of lifestyle is unsustainable!

then stupid me went to service my hp
without realising that servicing hp = surrendering ur hp
and stupid me actually went to save EVERYTHING in my phone memory
so now all my songs, my photos (that i din transfer to my memory card),
and most importantly, my contacts are all gone
and it just occurred to me
how dependent i've gotten on my hp
i even use it as a watch to tell e time
after i get my idiotic hp back
im gg to save everything in card!
lesson learnt =(

and then movie Wall-e!
Wall-e is darn cute and funny.
its amazing how we can enjoy a movie with practically no dialogue at all so much
i like e way they portray e story
and the overall theme for the movie is quite good
talk about Earth and humans and technology
future forecast of the human race
makes me wonder if technology will really become so superior in future
(note: future = 1 millenium later)
u all should go watch!
and start loving Wall-e e way i do! =)

but then duno y i din feel as hapi as i should have
or as i tout i would have

so because i slp late on fri
and i forgot to set alarm
i missed IBIZA on sat
what a waste of ticket $ =(

and then while sleeping
i had alot of small little dreams
where my life was perfect
my studies were fine
no more catching up
no more struggling to complete e tutorials
my cca was fine
no clash in schedule
no taking note of deadlines cos somehow i already had everything done
i made a decision
and it turned out fine
no awkwardness
had kind acceptance and understanding instead
i got a surprise
and my questions were gone
and then i woke up
and realised everything's fake
false sense of happiness and security
its deja vu all over again
just like 3 years ago
=(


would u turn to someone else, if e person u want most isn't there?
or would u not, because its simply unfair to that someone else?

when i came home on thurs
i tout i had a long wkend
and now half of sat's gone
i haven do anything fulfilling on sat
sianzzzzzz