Floating into the Unknown

welcoming 2012

2012-01-10T05:25:00.000-08:00

2011 was an especially hectic and yet special year for me.
guess exchange made me a much happier, independent, and mature person.
and now that im back,
and given that it is the new year,
i would like to seek forgiveness from those whom i had hurt in the past.
im past the stage of kicking myself over my childishness,
and right now hope that by putting unhappy events in the past,
in this new year,
the friendships can be rebuilt.

and as the end of my exchange journey nears

2011-11-06T02:22:00.000-08:00

thought that i could update my blog with lotsa photos while im on exchange
since im here alone and have a lot of free time.
oh boy, how wrong could i be.
i was busy slacking away n enjoying myself i totally forgot about my blog.
many photos are true though >.<

and now its already November.
i've been in adelaide for almost 4 months.
time seemed to pass very slowly in august.
but now looking back,
i cant help but wonder,
where did all the time go?!?!

my last 20 days in adelaide.
sounds so short.
cause once i leave i wont be coming back.
as much as i wish to be back in spore soon,
i also kind of wish to have more time here.
feelings are mixed.
i look at the room (or rather, mess) that i've been calling home for the past 4 months.
kind of 不舍得
and now whenever i walk to school i've take more time to look at the surroundings
the trees, the flowers, the grass, the sky.
i don't have much chance left to enjoy them.

exchange is really a life opening experience.
coming here alone turned out to be the best thing that happened.
(even though sometimes it gets really lonely though)
the time alone also gave me time to reflect on past events,
and made me see how childish i used to be.
oh my goodness, i can't believe i actually behaved that way previously.
so blardy embarrassing goodness.
nonetheless im glad, cause now upon looking back,
i know that i've matured.
all the things that life throws my way,
only helped to enrich my experiences and broaden my perspectives.
these things that i call 'suay',
helped to shape my strong (or i would like to think it is) character today.

lastly, i would like to say aloud...

I CAN COOK NOW!!!

humans are weird.

when in spore, i cant wait to go for exchange.

when on exchange, i miss spore and countdown to going home.

i can foresee myself missing aussie when im back to spore.

LOL.

somehow it just doesn't feel right

2011-05-25T10:29:00.000-07:00

i think my stubbornness got the better of me.
i should have known.
so, this is what happens when you refuse to listen to your heart (even when it is protesting so very loudly) and listen to the stubborn mind.
the right thing is often the hardest to do.

im bored.
date me out! hahaha

been watching Rainie Yang's latest drama called 醉后决定爱上你 recently.
i have to say, her acting really improved tremendously.
she's no longer only good at acting sweetie cutie pie now.
there's an element of a mature and independent woman in it.
the chemistry between the 2 leads are pretty good too!
some classic lines from the drama that really touched my heart,
because it just feels so apt for me at some point in time.

go and watch!!

oh and a side note. 張孝全 is pretty shuai.

i think as long as the actors can act well i will like them.

cos e same happened for secret garden LOL

the nonsensical mindset of sporeans

2011-05-12T07:34:00.000-07:00

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/tit-tat-exchange-over-reserved-mrt-seats-084554302.html

saw this and i went like 'WHAT?!!!'.

honestly, whats with the wrong mindset that only reserved seats people must give the seat up?
are the other seats around not seats?
or is the reserved seat more comfortable, bigger, softer, such that its more suitable for the needy?
no matter where u are sitting, as long as there is someone in need of a seat in front of you,
YOU SHOULD GIVE IT UP.

if let's say there's a pregnant lady who moved into the centre of the cabin,
because it was crowded and she needed to move in to let more people enter.
she's standing away from the reserved seats.
does that mean that you no need to give up the seat to her?
or do singaporeans expect the needy to purposely place themselves in front of the reserved seats?
honestly, it doesn't make sense because you should give up your seat as and when the need arises.

but then again, there are some particular old people who thinks that they are specially privileged.
they are healthy and strong, but yet stroll into the mrt and purposely place themselves in front of the reserved seats, EXPECTING people to just give it up for them.
hello? who do you think you are?
i dun mind giving up my seat to you.
but i just dun like the attitude of yours, as if the whole world OWE it to you to let you sit down.
if you are jolly when capable of standing then why do i need to give it up to u?
there are times where young people do not feel well and need a seat too.

there was a few times where i had my menstrual cramps and i got a seat.
and then some aunty come along n keep staring at me as if i am obliged to give it up to her.
she was wearing high heels btw.
i am not blind, i can assess her capability of standing.
obviously if u're still healthy and can balance so well on heels, then i dun think u need the seat more than me, do you?
age is not a default.
why should i give it up to you when im in physical discomfort, and when i have a 40 minutes train ride ahead of me?
so i just kept staring back at her.
to add on to my irritation, she kept using her bag to bang against my leg.
it was not a peak period btw. she had plenty of space.
LIKE WTH.
so, to deal with people like her, who are so buay paiseh,
i commented to her LOUDLY 'excuse me, can u stop using your bag to hit me'.
for people like that who are so full of themselves, making them feel embarrassed will do the trick.

for the old man who complained, im shocked that he actually has the face to do so.
it just shows his mindset - that he is obliged to have a seat purely by default of his age.
this, is the wrong mindset.

on another random note, GE 2011 is over.
i just like to comment to certain new citizens who proclaim that we singaporeans, who are born and bred here, don't have the right to discriminate against them because our ancestors are migrants too.

i would just like to say that, these ancestors of ours contributed to what Singapore is today.
they supported Mr Lee Kuan Yew, they worked hard, to build Singapore to a modern city today.
you guys simply flock over when things are rosy and good,
and comment that 'we are all e same. all of us are migrants'.
excuse me?
our ancestors contributed to Singapore.
did u? or rather, did urs?
you cant just come when things are looking good and go around acting superior, and act as if u're a pure Singaporean too.
in other countries, migrants are e ones being discriminated against.
ironically in singapore, it seems that the foreigners are the ones who start the discrimination war first.
a case of 贼喊捉贼

ntu accountancy grads don't really earn

2011-04-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

recently saw this post and was a bit demoralised.
ntu accountancy graduates are not earning a lot as their starting pay.
yeah yeah yeah,
i know that there are many ways to look at this.
the details, how its calculated etc etc.
but then, imagine the impression given to employees and pple out there.

Average Gross Monthly Salaries:
Ranked 4th - SMU Business Management (4-yr programme) Cum Laude and above – $3,750 ($4,000)
Ranked 5th - SMU Accountancy Cum Laude and above – $3,625 ($3,800)
Ranked 16th - SMU Business Management (4-yr programme) – $3,292 ($3,500)
Ranked 26th - SMU Accountancy (4-yr programme) – $3,162 ($3,500)
Ranked 34th - NUS Business Administration (Accountancy)(Honours) – $3,081 ($3,375)
Ranked 53th - NTU Business (3-yr direct Honours programme) – $2,933 ($3,200)
Ranked 62th - NTU Accountancy (3-yr direct Honours programme) – $2,778 ($2,775)
Ranked 65th - NUS Business Administration (Accountancy) – $2,692 ($2,600)

Permanent Employment Rate
NTU fared much better here!
Ranked 7th - NUS Business Administration (Accountancy)(Honours) – 100.0% ($2,600)
Ranked 8th - SMU Accountancy (4-yr programme) – 97.9% ($2,650)
Ranked 10th - NTU Accountancy (3-yr direct Honours programme) – 97.0% ($2,600)

http://www.salary.sg/2011/graduate-employment-survey-2010-published-2011/
http://www.moe.edu.sg/education/post-secondary/

mans. i hope i can get a job before i grad! >.<

I AM GOING FOR EXCHANGE!!!!

2011-04-11T08:42:00.000-07:00

alrights, its been final.
i've officially received the confirmation letter from Flinders stating I am going over there to study for 1 semester.
going to start applying for accommodation, visa, and booking air tickets soon.
and not to mention getting my loan from the bank!
MOOLAH is uber important.
feeling kind of nervous!
should i wait till i get my visa, or should i just heck and book my air tix first?
since i honestly cant afford to let the air tix prices spiral upwards like nobody's business
>.<

shall blog about my supposed-to-be-awesome-but-turned-out-horrible weekend soon!
also, i engaged in my second round of retail therapy!
=)

sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me

2011-04-06T08:58:00.000-07:00

i would like to say that the above phrase is utterly false.
words do hurt.
especially when said in spite. or malice. or intentionally to affect others' emotions adversely.
Eg. insults.

words with awful content can happen under 2 circumstances:
1. those who harbour ill intentions or are just bu shuang with you in someway (Eg. your enemy)
2. those who truly care and sincerely wants you to change (Eg. your family)

but most of the time, people just take words with awful content negatively.
if it arises out of situation 2, then you should be happy.
we can have so many hi-bye friends, all of whom we can exist peacefully with.
but how many of them care enough to take e risk of jepardising their relationship with you to tell you things so honestly and in perspective?
if you have friends who tell you straight to your face that 'hey, its not very good for you to always do this (some not very nice stuff that you always do) you know...'
then you should be happy.
cause out of all those in your social network, who bothers and dares to do so?

but sometimes, we all get so caught up in being nice and sociable and decent to other people,
that we become so mean to these people who truly care.
Using family as an example, i believe many can understand.
we can be a total role model in fromt of others, but a total bitch or bastard with our families.

but when it comes to a hybrid between situation 1 and 2,
when words of awful content comes from someone who is supposed to care,
and comes in such extreme intensity,
words will hurt people.
that's why there's always the saying that some words once spoken, can never be taken back.

it does feel lonely sometimes

2011-04-04T10:09:00.000-07:00

ok, enough about Singapore politics. think im boring everyone out over here.
been super duper busy with FYP and all e other projects on-hand.
never been so stressed up by work before!
and as a result, i engaged in extensive food and retail therapy.

went to do manicure, where i chose a damn odd colour.
due to my stubborness where i simply DON'T BELIEVE that i cant carry off cool colours.
and tadah! the results is this:

the colour is not bad. REALLY.
somehow it just doesn't look good on me.
sighs.
guess i must resign to fate.

and THEN. i went on an eating spree.
first lunch at Far East, then Ippundo Ramen, then dinner at home =X
and i bought a new bag!
that costs this much:

in case u cant see, its SGD $174.30.
and that's e price after 30% discount.
!!!!!!!!!!!!
how can i spent so much on a bag?!
especially since any bags that cost more than SGD$40 i'd balk n refuse to buy.
ok its from this brand:

not very high end, i know.
but STILL. its more branded than Charles & Keith.
because, Charles & Keith are selling a new bag model thats similar to this that i bought, but at SGD $70.
so, the brand differential is more greater than the price differential of $100.
which thus, confirmed my decision to buy,
after looking at it for 1 month,
and after searching for a bag for 6 months.

here's the bag!

if you don't think its nice, please don't tell me.

on another note, i think its rather reasonable to expect to be the most important person.
i cannot accept anything lesser than that.

the forum

2011-04-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

for those of you who missed the exciting n hyped up forum session about spore's upcoming General Elections, you can watch through this link:

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/gecountdown/forumvideos.htm

although im quite a supporter of PAP, i do agree that 'absolute power corrupts'. although personally i would still like PAP to be the dominant party, i do feel that there can be more room for the opposition such that there're more checks and alternative opinions.

and i wasn't even aware that Ms Josephine Teo is my very own Bishan MP! there's only one sentence that she says irks me a lot... 'that we cannot discount everything else that the government has done in e past....'. i think e fact that elections are held every 5 years kind of mean that the party would be evaluated based on what has been done over the past 5 years, or even 10 years, no?

Dr Vincent from SDP is certainly a very good speaker. If only he can be voted in! or if only PAP had spotted him.

and here's e introductory video of Ms Tin Pei Ling: i would have to say that... im not very impressed. she doesn't speak with conviction LOL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VdRLDEVn-FY&feature=related

i think the other candidate, Vikram Nair, comes across as more sincere and honest.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DO5ZnP98EXc&NR=1

tin pei ling - the new spore celebrity

2011-03-31T08:35:00.000-07:00

im sure many of us have heard about tin pei ling recently.
she's one of the newly unveiled PAP candidate of only 27 years old.
and her background and personal life has been under attack ever since then,
with many people stalking her FaceBook and making comments about her photos.
Refer to this http://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/tin-pei-ling-victim-gutter-journalism-20110330-014441-579.html for a rather good summary!

and her reaction to this ultra big hoo hah,
is to privatise her FaceBook account and those photos.
she also privatised her Twitter.
if you're curious about which few photos of her has generated such high publicity,
refer to this http://rockson.blogspot.com/2011/03/tin-pei-ling-sexy-pap-xmm.html
the language used is not so refined, but its kinda funny in an ah beng singaporean kind of way.
and the most said Temasek Review http://www.temasekreview.com/2011/03/29/ms-tin-pei-ling-dumped-her-ex-boyfriend-to-marry-pms-principal-private-secretary/

she married a rich guy, and is doing well in her career.
so it doesn't come as a surprise that she's leading an extravagant lifestyle.
but whether she can still understand the heartfelt complaints of an average Singaporean awaits to be seen.

although personally i sympathise with her, i don't think it comes as any surprise.
especially when she's heading the New Media section of PAP and,
is supposed to reach out to the masses through usage of new media (social media).
she should have known that people would start searching for information about her on the net,
and FaceBook is a common tool.
although i have to agree, the degree of it is kind of overwhelming.

however, it may be a blessing in disguise.
given her young age and good looks, its hard for her to convince people of her ability.
Ms Tin needs to win respect from the people.
this saga can be used to her advantage, given she handles it well.
i don't think hiding in silence and privatising every online profile of hers is a good attempt.

firstly, how are you going to reach out to the masses by privatising your profiles? where is the so-called interaction going to take place? it makes no sense to have a personal account and a public one for work purposes, because as a politican, your personal life will always be scrutinised by people. i mean, look at other countries, such as Japan. The media seriously scrutinises every small part of their ministers and make a big issue out of it. Given PAP's slogan of being open and honest, hiding behind private profiles won't help at all because people will start wondering - where is the so called openness?

secondly, Ms Tin is very young, she's a 4th generation. meaning, how she wins respect and support from the people is going to be very different and harder than before. she needs to reach out to youths, many whom are highly educated and exposed to many information - web savvyness complicates that further. These youths have grown up under the leadership of PAP, hence would have a certain degree of expectations for PAP and their future leadership. they have also witnessed the hard work of the opposition for many years, and have more or less formed an impression of PAP and these oppositions. they are waiting to see further development of spore's politics, and have very high demands of PAP now.

thirdly, to be a politician, one must have certain leadership qualities. if dear Ms Tin cannot even handle such a saga on her own, with her own people, at her home turf, then her ability to lead the country seems a bit questionable, because out there, the people she needs to face would be even more malicious and complicated to handle then these net citizens alone.

i agree with some net citizens who say its not fair to say 'give her a chance',
because PAP doesn't give the opposition a chance too.
given how the opposition tries so hard and fights so hard just to be 'given a chance',
Ms Tin should undergo some trying times to hone up her character for future positions.

i think this whole elections thingy is quite interesting! you guys can read more comments from here: http://www.motochan.com/2011/03/30/the-tin-pei-ling-incident-is-a-storm-in-a-teacup/
http://www.sgpolitics.net/?p=6488

some of my opinions are formed based on the comments i read online. some really does, make sense in a way.

thought provoking. hmmm.

2011-03-25T09:35:00.000-07:00

some thought provoking posts abt spore's politics:

http://www.facebook.com/notes/joel-joshua-goh/my-vote-counts-10-reasons-why-i-cannot-vote-for-the-pap-in-the-next-election/236626774675

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=10150173240219676

http://yaevlejunce.wordpress.com/2009/12/12/my-vote-counts-10-reasons-why-i-cannot-vote-for-the-pap-in-the-next-election/

i have some of my disagreements with what has been written, but shall not post here. haha. shall just say, nothing is perfect in this world. and that sometimes, bad things have to be done so as to protect the greater good. remember Robin Hood, who do bad things such as stealing, to benefit the poor? and sometimes, the big picture, and life's bare necessities, are the most important.

read, and go figure ;)

因为幸福没有捷径只有经营

2011-03-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

wells! horrid wednesday is finally over!
not that the results are good.
was still rushing my assignment 2 hrs before submission time,
and the presentation and report kind of didn't go well with our prof :(
but let's all look on the bright side.
ITS OVER!!
if im gonna survive exchange alone,
i have to be much better in psycho-ing myself positively!

so to reward myself, i went to watch 康熙來了,
the episode about Fan Fan and Hei Ren getting hitched!
was 2 episodes long actually, and they're so sweet! :)
seeing how they got through a whole 10 years,
accommodating to each other's needs and wants, just for him/her.

loved her new song especially, cause the lyrics are just so meaningful

for a relationship to work, both parties MUST know how to give in and accommodate

and at times, sacrifice what he/she likes to do what the other party she/he likes instead.

and like how Xiao S aptly puts it,
to be married means to be stuck with the other person for the rest of ur life.
it'll be utterly horrible and boring if both parties don't make special effort to spice up the life.

loved the last sentence of the song especially:

因为幸福没有捷径, 只有经营 .

2011-03-18T01:13:00.000-07:00

well, its certainly not that i want to complain,
but i would truly appreciate it if my team mates or project mates are more active and takes more initiative in the projects.
you guys are not the only one with busy schedules and deadlines.
but thats not an excuse to leave the project aside.
when there is a tight timeline and insufficient time,
certain things take priority.
i dun understand why some people keeps looking at the nitty gritty details,
and in turn,
lose focus about the entire overall objective.

crossroads

2011-03-13T21:30:00.000-07:00

Been doing a few personality tests lately due to me feeling lost about my future career path.
they say follow your interests and your talent.
okay, maybe not talent, but what you do well in.
but sometimes, just sometimes,
when life puts you in certain circumstances,
how do you decide which to follow?

here's another personality test result of mine:

well, at least i improved and developed some personality.
the last time i did something likdat,
it says im equally developed in all 4 quadrants.
in other words, im 25% of everything which equals to...
no personality.

a little update,
i've been holing myself up at home over the weekend
watching this new Korean drama called 'Dream High!'
its damn damn awesome.
its like e Korean version of GLEE,
only better because it has a good plot (unlike GLEE)
and the songs are original,
and the lyrics are totally in sync with the storyline.
go watch go watch!

what are words

2011-03-10T06:15:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQY4dIxY1H4

listened to his song and was quite touched.

especially the lyrics!

if only a guy would do this for me.

i'd marry him straight away.

haha!

The Lyrics!

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

im useless after all

2011-03-09T06:48:00.000-08:00

aarrgghh. very stressed now cos of dear FYP.
and of all my luck, all my deadlines come at the same time after recess week =/
let me see, i have 1 assignment, FYP report, 1 presentation, 1 report, 1 quiz, and my INSTEP application package to worry about. all over the span of 1 week.
and that not including other pending projects - 3 presentations and 2 reports.
doesn't help that even though i've been attending lessons dutifully,
i still have no idea what they're about.
how the hell am i supposed to finish reading up everything taught in half a sem in 1 week?!!
and i wonder how the hell did i cope in all the previous semesters.
i slacked too, but e situation wasn't so disastrous.

and meanwhile, i'm really hating myself for slacking so much and having no discipline.
i seriously can't get ANY work done!
and not to mention being unable to make decisions properly.
damn it.

on a sidenote, i enjoyed my shopping spree yesterday!
Bought 1 bracelet, 2 headbands, 1 Shu uemura blusher, and a pair of black pumps!
and of all, i love the Shu Uemura product best.
the lady was really very nice and provides good advice.
i think im going to switch all my makeup to Shu Uemura from now on =/

iphone is awesome!

2011-02-28T05:40:00.000-08:00

was playing with my friend's iphone photography app awhile back and managed to do this:

this is the original photo taken of the ship while i'm on the ferry

this is the edited photo that resulted after i played with the app and had many layers of different effects coated on it. love the final result! the outline tracing thingy is so damn cool! the surface ripples on the sea and the energy can be seen more clearly; and it looks so much more fanciful and artistic than the original one.

if i have an iphone, i would have no problem posting a photo a day because i'll just be taking random pictures and editing them all e time!

林志炫浮誇

2011-02-26T08:21:00.000-08:00

just finished watching 超級星光大道 and was very very impressed by 林志炫! he can hit all the high notes with sufficient strength and energy!

this is the 林志炫 version:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pil65_83Yrw&feature=related

the song was originally sung by 陳奕迅 and the canto version is certainly much emotion inducing than the chinese version. the difference lies in the way the lyrics are written. the song is not as high, but the tone is much much more intense!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LJEwPEs9bEg

what would be your next stop?

2011-02-26T03:58:00.000-08:00

As some of you may know, I finished this drama serial called 下一站, 幸福 recently and was totally blown off my feet by Vanness Wu's performance in the show. Especially after watching all the 幕后花絮 on how he overcame his challenge of memorising looong lines (due to his role of a lawyer) in chinese and getting the correct pronounciation. goodness. 下一站, 幸福 is an awesome show!

so i went to google to find out more abt Vanness, and discovered that he has another drama serial coming up! =D its called 拜金女王. however there was a teeny weeny bit of controversy on how he landed that role though. but i absolutely dun care! here's more about the show:

片　名：《拜金女王》
集　数：20集
类　型：偶像、爱情
编　剧：陈玉珊
导　演：陈慧翎
制片人：陈玉珊

拜金女王主　演：吴建豪、熊黛林
偶像剧《拜金女王》相关新闻：
偶像剧《拜金女王》举行男主角公布记者会，由F4成员之一的吴建豪出线担纲演出。原定男主角言承旭突然现身表态支持，表示“因为身体不好，不能和这么好的团队合作真的很可惜。”
近来因演出偶像剧《下一站，幸福》，让吴建豪荣登台湾偶像剧一哥宝座，该剧幕后推手前三立电视台总监陈玉珊，近期以制作人之姿决定开拍一部新的偶像剧《拜金女王》，找来吴建豪担任男主角，女主角则由香港天王郭富城的女友熊黛琳担任，于昨日(9月5日)举办男主角公开记者会。《拜金女王》的剧情描述遭母遗弃的孤女长大后，成了嫌贫爱富的拜金女模，因一夜情在法国和音乐学院的男学生展开孽缘。为了打造国际规格的时装偶像剧，制作人陈玉珊特地重金礼聘《欲望城市2》和《穿着Prada的恶魔》视觉造型总监菲尔德（Patricia Field）任造型总监。制作人更透露光是预计两个星期的法国行，预算就高达1600万台币(约人民币350万)
原本《拜金女王》的男主角属意由同为F4成员之一的言承旭担纲，但是因言承旭身体微恙，档期又敲不定，现在改由吴建豪出线。被外界形容成“救火队”，吴建豪表示，其实他很早以前就看过剧本，当时就很想演出，他说：“很开心演这部戏，别人怎么说他不在乎。”制作人陈玉珊更透露，当初因为这部戏要去法国巴黎取景，让从未去过法国的吴建豪还特地打电话跟她说：“不在乎角色大小，只希望让他能参与演出。”
虽然言承旭无法接演，但是在记者会现场，他却意外现身，这让陈玉珊十分惊讶。一上台更是与吴建豪相互击掌、拥抱，兄弟之情不言而喻。Jerry 表示，虽然最近身体不好，但陈玉珊推出新戏，他一定要来站台。陈玉珊事后说到：“Jerry变成熟了！”，吴建豪则说：“不管怎样，大家都是兄弟，4人中只要有人接到工作，大家都会彼此鼓励、加油。”，这也打破了外传4人之间有嫌隙的谣言。

and searching for Vanness's pictures showed me some of his transitions since he debuted as F4 eons ago:


Back when he first debuted as an F4 member

then after going through a few years in the entertainment industry

the new look and hairstyle as a lawyer in the show. totally dig this new fresh and clean image of him

Remedies

2011-02-03T11:01:00.000-08:00

Recently, I adopted back my old-and-long-forgotten habit of reading.

I always feel the urge to read whenever I step into the library, being surrounded by tons and tons of books. But due to hectic schedule, I also have no time! So one book I've finished reading is this:

Remedies by Kate Ledger

The reviews are not bad - http://bookreview.mostlyfiction.com/2010/remedies-by-kate-ledger/

Initially I was attracted to the book cause of the cover. Looks so painfully abstract and hidden with so many secrets that I want to read it. And after reading, my take aways are this:

1. There are times when serious, deep misunderstandings can happen because one just simply refuse to communicate with each other. A good intention can be interpreted in the opposite way by the other and it just snowballs from there, especially when its your partner. Many a times we doubt and are skeptical, but many a times, the source is that we're just not trusting enough to believe that he/she would be

2. Emotionally painstaking events can really tear people apart. The only way to heal is to talk about it to the people who matters and who're also affected, and help each other to recover, because that is the source of positive energy.

3. No matter how hard it is to go about doing something, if it needs to be done, it must be done. Otherwise it'll just be like an evil poison that would spread and engulf you from the inside.

What impressed me most was the open-ended ending of the book. I was so looking forward to the ending and finding out whether everything would work out nicely in the end. Stayed up until 4am to finish the book and was greeted with an open ending. LOL. really leaves it to the reader's imagination!

HAPPY CNY PEOPLE!

I hope that 2011 would be a better year for me. And I would have the strength to become brave and stronger.

Day 2 in Phuket: Being an Interviewer for the First Time (Part 1)

2011-01-19T08:03:00.000-08:00

Shall resume blogging about my Phuket trip!

Day 2, we got straight down to work as we had 2 interviews lined up for the day. And both are located in different beaches. (that's how our money depleted so quickly).

Having our complimentary breakfast in the morning:

Surin Bay Inn makes sure that every table has a flower deco on the table. A very sweet gesture and the choice of the flowers used helps to brighten up the day.

Us at breakfast

After breakfast, OFF WE GO! in a fiery red tuktuk. apparently the local taxi drivers and tuktuk drivers there have a monopoly. they're called the MAFIA. heard a few cases in the past where they would stop public buses on the road and point guns at the driver in order to stop public transport from snatching their business. luckily we're tourists so obviously even if such things happened, we wont be hurt because hurting us = no business = no money!


The fiery red tuktuks! Don't we all look like we're some businesswoman.

Our first stop was the Kamala School, a school ran by Phuket Has Been Good To Us Foundation (http://www.phukethasbeengoodtous.org/) to provide quality English education to the local children, especially after the 2004 tsunami.

We reached the school!


this is the sea view seen from the school gate. awesome right! imagine stepping out of school and having the sea greet you everyday.

the informal commerce food stalls right outside the school gate

the sea of motorbikes. due to the lack of public transport, the locals use private transport (ie. bikes / cars). even young kids have their own scooters or motorbikes to travel around. and its very obvious that they have no licence.

1. the name board of the school

2. the plaque when the school first opened. The school is under the King's Foundation.

3. the school compound

4. the basketball court, located beside the guys' dorms

5. their classrooms

They were having a celebration for Children's Day then. Children's Day is a very important festival in Thailand because they believe strongly that children are the future and hence, should be treated with importance. For Kamala School, there was a funfair:

there was even a boxing ring where the 2 kids are blindfolded and then start to box each other, if they managed to hit each other that is. its quite a comical sight. there was performances and all different booths of different games for the kids to play.

we took a picture with the Bunny from Andara Resorts who had a booth at the funfair

After which we heard that there was a temple nearby so we decided to visit and explore abit.

the main Buddha where we paid our respects

look at the paintings on the wall!

and then we got lucky bracelets from the temple after receiving the monk's blessing. which we wore every single day! and i have to say, the bracelets seem to work. because for the remaining days there, we kept meeting nice people who were very helpful and friendly to us. in addition, some would give us valuable information for our FYP such as telling us who and who to contact etc =)

lunch!

the pineapple rice was super big!

one of their specialty

the noodles which i had

our next stop was BangTao Beach Chalet, a small boutique resort that is very nature based and loving. i lost some of the photos taken when we were given a tour of the rooms. what i remembered most clearly was the swans (the size of a laptop) made and folded from towels alone. aahhh, lost the photos =(

alright, realised 1 day is pretty long. shall continue next time!

***************************************************************************************

results were out. and i have to say, though my semester gpa has been improving every semester, the degree of improvement is not enough. i expected 1 grade higher than what i got. for all my modules. and considering the fact that my gpa is split into 2 degrees, means that the effect of every sem's gpa on my cgpa is even smaller. IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER. i don't understand why its not. getting a bit demoralised. at the rate im going, there's no way i can jump an Honours class, especially when there are lesser and lesser modules to clear.

Went for INSTEP information session yesterday and oh wells, financial constraints is really a big issue. would be looking for jobs these few days i guess.

Farewell to Taurus, but deep down, im still one!

2011-01-17T11:03:00.000-08:00

I'm sure many of us have heard about the new horoscopes 2011, where a new horoscope sign was added -

Ophiuchus.

Apparently there is a shift in the Earth's rotational axis caused by the moon's gravitational pull. And this in turn caused a one-month bump in the star's alignment. Meaning, in super darn simple terms, the sky has shifted.

So this is Ophiuchus:

It is also known as Serpentarius, the Serpent Holder. One interesting fact is that unlike the other 12 signs, it is associated with an actual person.

Some traits of this horoscope:

Many people are envious of this subject as he progresses well throughout life.
A seeker of wisdom and knowledge
Many people are jealous of this person
Tends to go for the more flamboyant in dress sense, favouring bright colours.
Authority looks upon him well.
Would make a great architect or builder.
Number 12 is this persons lucky number.
This person will have a big family but leave home at an early age.

Can't say that many welcome this move, because we've come to love what or rather, who we are since we were born. Under the old horoscope sign, I'm a Taurus. who is characterised by stubborness and being dull and unwelcoming to change at times. But under the new sign, I'm an Aries, which is characterised by being very varied and always welcome changes. Its not me at all. But I guess no matter which horoscope we belong to, our personality is there and there to stay.

Here's to check if your horoscope has changed:

Capricorn: Jan. 20 – Feb. 16
Aquarius: Feb. 16 – March 11
Pisces: March 11- April 18
Aries: April 18- May 13
Taurus: May 13- June 21
Gemini: June 21- July 20
Cancer: July 20- Aug. 10
Leo: Aug. 10- Sept. 16
Virgo: Sept. 16- Oct. 30
Libra: Oct. 30- Nov. 23
Scorpio: Nov. 23- Nov. 29
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29- Dec. 17
Sagittarius: Dec. 17- Jan. 20

Smartie Pants Evonne

2011-01-16T01:48:00.000-08:00

Oh my my my!

After 5 years of having a blog on Blogger, i finally know how to change my template! =)
though i have to admit its not because i'm zai or i finally figured out how to do the html thingy,
but its because i made use of Blogger's new function Template Designer!
its soooo idiot-proof that a NOOB like me knows how to use,
and can have so much fun playing with it! =)

YAYYY!

Leaving for Phuket! Day 1

2011-01-15T11:02:00.000-08:00

As some of you may know, I went to Phuket recently to do my dear FYP. Although it sounds nice and damn cool, it turned out to be like a business trip and well, we didn't have much time for R&R. though we did covered many beaches (and spent a bomb on transport) and went to many places. anyone needs info for Phuket? come find us! we'll damn good at it now. LOL.

shall update with pictures!

us being 50% excited and 50% sian when leaving Changi Airport!

this is the meal i had while waiting for our flight.

a small Udon set that costs SGD $7!

but i have to say, the Udon tastes rather nice and its e first time that i eat Udon without getting sick of the taste!

all that is needed for the flight!

Jetstar 3K537

Apparently Jetsta's Jetsaver Light allows a maximum of 10 kg for hand carry luggage instead of the usual and norm of 7kg! Relieve for us because our laptops took up like almost half of that weight.

AND OFF WE GO!!

paying our respects accordingly at Phuket International Airport!

Because we stayed 6 nights instead of the usual 2 nights at the hotel (called Surin Bay Inn), free airport transfer to and from the airport was given! so when we walked out of the airport, there was a man holding the sign 'TEOH MINGWEI' waiting to receive us. we felt like celebrities!

oh and this thing about Phuket is, the cars there (even those used for taxis and for chauffering guests around) are rather big and luxurious. Honda, Toyato, Lexus even! 0.o we felt so pampered like we're some mega rich people being chauffered around haha!

and here's our accommodation: SURIN BAY INN
(http://www.surinbayinn.com/)
Surin Bay Inn
106/11 Surin Beach,Thalang, Phuket 83110,Thailand
Tel.: + 66 76 271601, + 66 76 621626
Fax: + 66 76 271599, + 66 76 621627

Its opened by a couple, an angmoh and his Thai wife. It emits those kind of small, cosy, family feel kinda inn because you get to interact with the owners, the staff, and even some of the other guests they have there. and these people sort of became friends after 2 days. An additional plus point is that they are REALLY REALLY friendly and helpful! =)

Soooo, due to certain restrictions, we only booked a Deluxe Twin Double Room, though we had 3 people.
So when checking in, the receptionist realised there's 3 of us and they're fully booked for the entire period of our stay, so its not possible for us to change room type. Luckily the owner of the inn, Bill, was there and he was really nice and helpful. I think we looked pretty desperate as we said we don't mind squeezing into that room, and he just asked us to take a look first before we make any decisions.

This was how the twin deluxe room is supposed to be.

and i think because we were staying for 6 nights, which is pretty long, Bill actually got the staff to help us shift the furniture of the room around. ON TOP OF THAT, they even sweep the floor and cleared all the dust that is visible at the corners of the room because of the shift on furniture. Mega touched, and that's our first night in Phuket! we experienced the warm hospitality of the people. One of the staff even dirtied her black pants while helping us (half the length of the pants became white from the dust)! And yet they're ever so friendly and told us its okay when we kept apologising.

and TADAH! this is how it looked like.

they shifted the 2 beds together for us.

other amenities in the room

I have to say the toilet is rather big, and the shower head is strong.

SHIOK!

and the closet is damn cute!

the light lights up when you open the door, and shuts off when you close the closet door TIGHT.

so after settling down into our house for the next 6 days, we walked out to visit 7-Eleven and did some stocking up of the necessities:

this is how their 7-Eleven looks like.

small, but well-stocked.

and definitely our favourite, cause its so familiar!

we've never had so much fun shopping at 7-11 before. LOL.

and this is our loot for the night!

(Note the cup noodles, unhealthy snacks, and the iSPY wine)

we didn't finish up the mineral water and coffee in the end though.

and we gave the staff 1 of the iSPY wine.

and so after settling down everything, we started to get to work!

the mess during our project discussion / meeting.

oh yea i forgot to mention, the inn even provide guests with travel adaptor!

we got 2 from them =)

us happily in our room!

and that's our first day (or rather, night, in Phuket!)

Five Regrets of the Dying By Bronnie Ware Platinum Quality Author

2010-10-19T20:54:00.000-07:00

Five Regrets of the Dying By Bronnie Ware Platinum Quality Author

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventuallyacceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.
When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn't work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.
By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.
We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friendsuntil their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.
It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

2010-10-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

i'm scared.

2010-10-13T06:33:00.000-07:00

it hurts.
it hurts so badly.
it hurts so freaking much that i doubt u'll understand.

i could really use a wish right now.
if only the star would work and has real powers.

2010-10-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

did u take it?
or, did u treasure it?
it hurts.

2010-09-30T10:35:00.001-07:00

its time to start afresh.

2010-09-17T09:13:00.000-07:00

the one who can, doesn't want to.
the one who wants, very sadly, cannot.
can i have a hybrid of e two?
most preferably, wants and can.

i think im just not fated to have it.

~~why cant things be simple.~~
i forgot that the simplest things are often, or always, the hardest to achieve.

2010-09-16T11:01:00.000-07:00

it does get unbearable sometimes.

perhaps love

2010-09-14T09:02:00.000-07:00

Perhaps Love - John Denver

Perhaps love is like a resting place, a shelter from the storm. It exists to give you comfort, it is there to keep you warm. And in those times of trouble, when you are most alone. The memory of love will bring you home.

Perhaps love is like a window, perhaps an open door. It invites you to come closer, it wants to show you more. And even if you lose yourself and don’t know what to do. The memory of love will see you through.

Oh love to some is like a cloud, to some as strong as steel. For some a way of living, for some a way to feel. And some say love is holding on and some say letting go. And some say love is everything, some say they don’t know.

Perhaps love is like the ocean, full of conflict, full of pain. Like a fire when it’s cold outside, thunder when it rains. If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true. My memories of love will be of you.

And some say love is holding on and some say letting go. And some say love is everything, some say they don’t know.

Perhaps love is like the ocean, full of conflict, full of pain. Like a fire when it’s cold outside, thunder when it rains. If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true. My memories of love will be of you.

2010-09-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

assuming we are x distance apart
if you take a small step forward
and i take a small step forward
and we just continue to take small steps forward,
will we meet some day?

sometimes it weighs on so hard i can't breathe.
need to stop thinking.

2010-08-29T07:11:00.000-07:00

evonne feels like giving up
just not cut out for anything

school is starting... tml
feel so unprepared n unready
really need to stay focused!

a stroke of inspiration

2010-08-21T13:01:00.000-07:00

its not the money

its not the car.

neither is it the face, the body,

or the age.

its about the time spent together

and the way you make me feel.

Form may be cool,

but eventually substance rules.

如果我變成回憶

2010-08-17T10:59:00.000-07:00

如果我變成回憶

been looking through some of the pics taken while in Laos

i miss the village

i miss the simple and peaceful life

i miss the serenity of the mountains

i miss the kids' heartful laughter

i miss seeing the children run around happily on our court

i miss Shu-Five, i wonder how she is doing,

does she still remember me?

would she remember me?

its only been 11 days since we've been back

which works out to around 1.5 weeks

and im already polluted with the city illness

i forgot to be simple

i forgot to be appreciative

i got caught up in the city lifestyle, once again

i got greedy

if i ever turned into a memory,

let the memories be happy ones,

so that when they got let out occasionally one day,

i hope it brings a smile to your face

off to laos!

2010-07-21T13:35:00.000-07:00

off to Laos in another 2 more hrs.
haven't been blogging recently, or rather,
since exams ended.

need to find time to write abt
my 21st birthday,
working at SAe,
the event itself etc.

before i leave,
i wish upon a wishing star,

that e trip would go well,
everyone would enjoy themselves,
and OVE'10 would be fun and memorable!

and when im back,
i can start slacking, resting,
and hope things can go the way i hope they would be!
=)

2010-06-02T02:55:00.000-07:00

im so bored.
there's nothing much to do at work here.
everyone's so busy at work,
only im like having nth much to do.
don't feel like fulfilling certain obligations of mine also
been feeling so ultra sian.
feel like taking a break but cannot.
50% break
50% work.
equals to no break.
lost interest in xxx, xxx, xxx
everything that i used to be so passionate and enthusiastic about.

updated 21st wish list!

2010-04-18T09:41:00.000-07:00

what i want for my 21st bdae:

- MONEY (angbaos hahahahhaha!)
- a leather backpack
- Charles and Keith shoes (there's this pair that i really really like but then i cant find e picture of it online!)
- a pair of Havainnas slippers
- cashcard (so that i can just print notes and photocopy without worrying about having insufficient cash)
- a 3-in-1 printer? so that i can just print my reports n notes at home comfortably and i need not rush to print them in FAL
- a nice nice demure and cool ladies watch?
- a package for manicure? im lazy!! hahaha
- err some nice corporate dresses that i can wear for work, presentations, and out?
- this nice nice bag: (http://missypixie.livejournal.com/76023.html#cutid1) called TING. not sure if its too big for me though
- or, simply any bag that looks nice and small, but actually can put alot of things inside =P
- IKEA shopping vouchers (feel like revamping my room)
- a cap
- a cordless (house) phone
- this soft toy from a shop in ION ORCHARD (its located between kikki stationery and havainnas, cant rem the name! but the soft toy-cum-cushion got distorted eyes where the eyeballs is 1 up n 1 down >.< )
- improvement in my gpa
- CAR
- sponsorship for manual driving lessons

gone....

2010-04-17T10:23:00.000-07:00

horrendous.
utterly horrendous.
my last presentation was so horrendous that its beyond redemption.
i can barely stand to look at my own video.
cringing all e time omfg.
i had no idea how e class and Prof Ho sat through those 5 min.
everything single thing that could be wrong i did it.
unprepared.
rushed.
last minute.
unrehearsed.
every possible negative aspect
u name it, i got it.
worked so hard to maintain everything.
only to screw up the very last task on the very last day.
blardy disappointed with myself.
i can do better than this even if its an impromptu.
instead of improving on my usual standards,
it dropped exponentially until i don't know where.
i think it went so deep down,
that even the iceland volcano took it for lava and spew it out in digust.
what more to say when i spent 1 day preparing for it.
everyone else was so well rehearsed and prepared.
and being late definitely did not help.

~~i think i must have been the worst presenter in ab214 final presentation history.~~

~~i survived through 1 meeting, 2 reports deadline, and 1 test the week before.~~
~~having 1 quiz, 2 reports deadline, and 3 presentations within a span of 3 days is no excuse for the lack of preparation.~~
~~you know you could have done better.~~
~~How is it possible that a prepared presentation is so much much worst than an impromptu presentation?!!~~
~~all previous efforts were to nault.~~
~~there goes my grade.~~
~~there goes my double degree.~~

2010-04-10T14:22:00.000-07:00

i did a personality test on this website - http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/
and this was the results:

You are Red Monkey, whose simple and natural personality is easily understood by those around you.
You can make others feel safe.
You will take on any favor asked, and have a strong volunteer spirits.
Even if you get angry, you don't hold that against people for long time.
You are simple forthright person.
You are a person with sensitivity.
If you use this sensitivity at work and in hobbies, you will achieve great results.
You should learn a lot while young, and use that experience to help the society in the future.
You also possess great talent in carrying out matters and handling it efficiently.
You are a very active person.
You are smart and calculating.
You can be rather short tempered, and will not tell your true feelings.
This may make you bit lonely, so don't forget to have a broad mind.
You are a quick learner, so you will be favored by your boss.
But if there isn't a person who can set an example, you can not carry out work efficiently.
You may be suited to stay as number two than to stand at the top.
You are independent and keeps your own pace.
So it may be better to keep away from the impossible.
Because you are a popular person, you will be asked out by many people.
Try and turn down offers nicely, or you may disturb the living pace and your own personal relationships.
Your marriage fortune is very good.
You will do great as a housewife and also as the person committed to do good for the society.

I AM COMMITTED TO DO GOOD FOR SOCIETY!!!
but i don't think im a popular person? lol.
~~just look at the response to my party invitation >.<~~

my 21st wishlist

2010-04-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

what i want for my 21st bdae:

- MONEY (angbaos hahahahhaha!)
- a leather backpack
- Charles and Keith shoes (there's this pair that i really really like but then i cant find e picture of it online!)
- a pair of Havainnas slippers
- cashcard (so that i can just print notes and photocopy without worrying about having insufficient cash)
- a 3-in-1 printer? so that i can just print my reports n notes at home comfortably and i need not rush to print them in FAL
- a nice nice demure and cool ladies watch?
- a package for manicure? im lazy!! hahaha
- err some nice corporate dresses that i can wear for work, presentations, and out?
- this nice nice bag: (http://missypixie.livejournal.com/76023.html#cutid1) called TING. not sure if its too big for me though >.<
- improvement in my gpa

errr cant think of anything else.
i really really want a CAR.
and that's totally ootw.
=(
oh oh!
maybe some sponsorship for driving lessons
i prefer to learn manual =D

on another note.
its 14 days left to my very first paper.
and i have not started studying a single damn thing.
totally drowning in projects, reports, presentations, quizzes
all the way until...
9 days before the very first paper.
i know im screwed.
i hope my degree doesnt fly away.

2010-03-29T10:01:00.001-07:00

u know how pathetic your life is,
when you need to resort to reading FML for entertainment
and to feel better.

kudos to nbs

2010-03-27T08:32:00.000-07:00

despite our incessant complaints about horrible nbs
with the terrible planning of project deadlines and quizzes
where tutors seem to enjoy putting them together
to let us have a 'stress peak' period
i have to say,
nbs is really training us well for the workplace
rushing project reports that forces u to utilise ur brain
after not sleeping for a couple of nights
while suffering in a strong air-conditioned room overnight
and with ur body's never-ending calls for u to let it rest
plus working with people
learning how to handle emotions
manage stress levels
and control your temper
at a time where everyone's stress levels are running high
and where angstyness run amok
perhaps this is a true reflection of what accountancy students' future will be like

disclaimer: this is not 100% of my experience. its the sum of what i've been hearing for the past week.

'excuse me, i'm lost. can u help me find my way back?'

2010-03-26T12:10:00.000-07:00

excuse me, i lost my way.
can u help me?

its my fault

2010-03-20T06:37:00.000-07:00

i know i have friends who care for me a lot
family who love me a lot
and a *** who also care alot about me
so to all these people
i apologise
for what has been happening
i'm sorry
i'm deeply sorry
its all my fault
for not being how to handle my own emotions
for not being mature enough to handle my own matters
its all my fault
my incapability and childishness started all this in e first place
im sorry
so can we all press the restart button
forget everything
and start afresh

i promise i won't do it again.

can someone give me some directions?

the outsider

2010-03-18T08:45:00.000-07:00

~~why do i feel like an outsider~~

its been raining these few days

2010-03-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

2010-02-25T07:52:00.000-08:00

“Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.”

- Mary Manin Morrissey

2010-02-17T10:36:00.000-08:00

im doing a horrible job at juggling all my tasks.
im not cut out for this.
=(

2010-02-04T09:59:00.001-08:00

evonne needs to improve her AB214 communication skills.
i better pay more attention in class from now on.

2010-01-11T11:04:00.001-08:00

koped this from shuxuan's blog! =p

Every girl needs a man; the kind that will treat you right as well as others; the kind that has enough respect for himself, family, and others; the one that will change for you to just be with you. The kind that searches for you with his heart, the kind that can be trusted alone with a room full of many other beautiful ladies, the kind that won’t cheat on you cause he knows he’s got all he wants and needs already, the kind that’s willing to be your friend and lover, the kind that doesn’t mind calling early in the morning to say good morning and late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning and tell you a good night story or talk to you until you fall asleep. That kind that will do anything for you, even if it’s just to buy your favorite kind of candy. The kind that will defend and fight for you, the kind that won’t ditch you for his friends when you need him the most, the kind that won’t leave you lonely and wondering. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one.” The kind that appreciates you for the things to do for him, even if they’re small gestures. The kind that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him, the kind that is willing to wait for you when you’re falling behind, the kind that will actually open the door for you, take you out on dates once in a while and buy you flowers cause it’s a Wednesday. The kind that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him, the kind that reminds you that he loves you and that he’s happy with you in case you forget. The kind that kisses your forehead when you’re down, the kid that tells you to be strong and not to cry, the kind that will go through think and thin with, and for you, the kind that just loves you for who you are. That kind of man, that’s the kind you keep.

from tumblr.com

have you? or did u?

2010-01-04T09:51:00.001-08:00

i tried, really.
but i don't think i can do it.
i cannot trust anymore.
some things, once gone,
do not have a second chance.

make a wish.

2009-12-21T11:08:00.000-08:00

xmas.

make a wish.

some things, once lost,
will never come back.

new phone E72

2009-12-19T11:28:00.000-08:00

i finally got a new hp!
after sooo long
and thinking for soooo long.
spent a bomb.
$268 in addition to a new 2 yr contract

here it is:

i got the silver edition.

decided to buy this instead of Nokia 5800

although i do like 5800 much better.

because i seriously had enough of phones that fail me

again and again.

5800, being a touchscreen,

would NOT be able to withstand my abuse >.<

n i hope that E72,

would be able to work smoothly for 2 YEARS

with no problem.

*prays hard*

its sunday now.

20 dec 2009

come monday,

there's only 2 weeks left till school reopens.

but i still felt like hols have just started.

what happened:

to wanting to watch all the disney shows

to wanting to get my hands on the Disney soundtracks

to wanting to curl up in bed with a good book

(im reading John Grisham's The Appeal)

to wanting to people watch at a particular cafe

to wanting to meet and catch up with all my friends

to wanting to improve my fitness and be healthy

(i'm doing the direct opposite by not eating recently =X )

2009-12-18T12:09:00.000-08:00

i found quite a good way to motivate myself.
just head down to Raffles Place,
stand in e middle of nowhere,
look up at all the towering buildings,
and feel as small as possible.

then the reminder will come.
that right now, i actually have a chance to do well
and be right there in one of the buildings
having a pretty good career.

the thing is,
i don't know what i want.
for the first time in my life.

be brave.

Xmas canvassing!

2009-12-09T03:31:00.000-08:00

please support my Xmas canvassing for OVE! =)

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post exams sem1 reflections

2009-12-07T21:58:00.000-08:00

i've been horrible this entire semester.
its time for a reflection.
especially since now the danger of me losing my double degree is so very real.
i think i've been a weakling this entire semester.
whining, complaining, crying non-stop.
what a baby.
i used to be able to take whatever life throws at me
and handle them myself.
what the hell happened?!!
thanks to all my friends who are ever so patient with me
(u know who u are)
nick and weilin
(brandon u're not inside cos u've been MIA-ing for too long in ur medicine hole =P )
belicia shuyi n jingles
my cheerleader, even though with problems of ur own
and some more.
u all know who u are.
its time to stop all this nonsense.

looking at bella in New Moon makes me so disgusted
she's like some depressed, suicidal emo shit.
although im not like that (as bad as her)
and e cause is different
i swear
swear swear swear
im not going to behave like some baby next semester.
time to grow up, evonne.

the 7 deadly sins

2009-12-02T09:38:00.000-08:00

i was bored while ~~studying~~
trying to studying
so i went to google The 7 Deadly Sins

They are:

Greed: also called Avarice or Covetousness, is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual"

Gluttony: practice of playing with too many cards

Wrath: inordinate and uncontrolled feelings of hatred and anger

Sloth: the avoidance of physical or spiritual work

Envy: the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation. it is symbolised by the snake.

Lust: usually thought of as involving obsessive or excessive thoughts or desires

Pride/vanity: the most dangerous and prevalent of all the deadly sins. refusal to accept advice from others about your deck

so i went to take the test to see out of the 7 sins, which one am i.

Results:

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	Low
Envy:	High
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	High

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

WHICH ONE ARE YOU?

pictures are from http://community.imaginefx.com/fxpose/blackeris_portfolio/picture5567.aspx
(google images)

2009-12-01T21:08:00.000-08:00

i feel like im taking a General Paper exam next.
and yet i have nil knowledge on the recent current affairs.
now i have to read up on SO many reports etc etc within the next 2 days
to squeeze in as much general knowledge as i can
=(

2 weeks of exams feel so horribly longer than 2 weeks
psychology of waiting?

你看不到的天空 - 蔡旻佑

2009-11-29T05:22:00.000-08:00

你看不到的天空 - 蔡旻佑

好像飘浮了很久
自从那天你放开了手
应该是两个人来的港口
我一个人在虚拟温柔
用你的目光看海
可乐冰痛了我的指头
幸福又快乐的地球人
不断从我的身边经过
对你还能怎么说　能怎么做
做什么也都不够
插在口袋中
是没有人来握住的手
我的表情并不多　心也不痛
我只不过是不懂
世界在热闹什么

我在你看不到的天空
看着灿烂的烟火
这城市孤单的人只有我
没有谁在乎　谁跟谁分手
每个时钟都继续转动
许下你听不到的承诺
流星怎么不坠落
在倒数声中我剩下什么
没有谁甘心　对回忆爱不释手
但我无力对抗　这整个世界的寂寞

我该如何去面对　整个世界的寂寞

nice song.

i like his album cover. so light.

2009-11-27T04:42:00.001-08:00

2009-11-23T09:39:00.000-08:00

fuck.
why does all the phones that i use have to give me some problem
at the most INAPPROPRIATE time.
small little things that i guess pple wont even think about.
i don't think anyone is as SUAY as me regarding this matter.
fuck.

2 days without technology

2009-11-19T08:38:00.000-08:00

i guess its true when they say that we've gotten too, far too reliant on technology.
my hp just totally died on me last night.
as in, SPOILED.
it cannot be switched on.
and during the rare occasions that it could,
it couldn't detect any network.
and to think i was still worried about not having battery to last till sat.
HAHAHA.
im eyeing Nokia 5800 now >.<

so i started my 2 days without technology.
because i have no hp.
and i didn't bring laptop back to hall.
but i guess its good for mugging.
the only chance that i get to use a computer is
in the seminar room occasionally.

but i just saw a fb msg that made me feel quite happy and warm
especially during this exam period =)

i told gan ying cheng before he went taiwan that i want pineapple tarts
know a very good shop but i cant rem the name! =(
i went to search for the paper where i wrote the name and address of the shop
need to tell him before he flies!

but sadly i didn't manage to do it in time.
and he just touched down today.
he said he got pineapple tarts for me =D
a word of casual mention only and he found it!
cos e shop he bought it from is E SHOP I WAS TALKING ABT
(very famous, called Vicor Kobo )

this is how their products look like!

bought it when i went taiwan n fell in love with it =)

really didn't expect him to get sth for me since he dun even noe e shop
so i was rather skeptical. BUT!
=)

trust people
u know,
and
trust yourself.
myself included.

maybe doing without technology these 2 days
is good for me.
good for mugging hee
maybe some things just happen for a reason.

2009-11-17T08:59:00.000-08:00

相信自己
坚持到底

wait and see.
dum dee dum.

johnny depp to the rescue!!

2009-11-16T11:30:00.000-08:00

according to the news,
nicholas cage has been facing financial troubles
because of his manager.
to the extent that he has to sell his properties to raise money
to pay off his debts.
and apparently its still not enough.

BUT
johnny depp is coming to the rescue!
apparently, back then nicholas cage helped johnny depp
by introducing him to his current manager,
who then helped him develop his very successful career.
thus depp wants to repay the favour,
by being willing to OFFER nicholas cage CASH
to bail him out.
0.o

if the above is true, i can only say,
its going to enhance depp's reputation and gain him more fans.
but i don't deny i myself went 'awwwwww..... so nice!'
=)

can read here: http://www.cinematical.com/2009/11/16/johnny-depp-nicolas-cage-bailout/

i just saw a blue and green bird land outside my window
at 3.30am.
it looks like some kind of exotic bird
because i've NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE IT BEFORE
im very sure im not dreaming.
weird.

running out of time

2009-11-14T09:33:00.000-08:00

www.businessweek.com/.../06/managing_your_t.html

maybe i should do a blog post on Time Management too

hahahha.

im running out of time!! =(

this is my retribution for slacking last week and last last week.

why do i always waste time instead of making full use of all available time to study

thank you. hee. =)

Are you suffering from Facebook Addiction Disorder?

2009-11-09T08:32:00.000-08:00

Got to know this recently. quite interesting.

Due to the immense popularity of Facebook and it turning into an online social medium,
experts have coined this new term 'Facebook Addiction Disorder' to describe those who are addicted to FaceBook. It falls under the broad category of Internet Disorder.

To be diagnosed as having Facebook Addiction Disorder, a person must meet certain criteria.
At least 2 or 3 of the following 6 criteria must be present at any time during a 6-8 months period:

1. The first thing is tolerance.
This refers to the need for increasing amounts of time on Facebook to achieve satisfaction and/or significantly diminished effect with continued use of the same amount of time. They often have multiple Facebook windows opened at any one time. 3 is usually a sign and over 5 you're helpless.

2. After reduction of Facebook use or cessation, it causes distress or impairs social, personal or occupational functioning such as wondering why your Vista is so fast and improved etc. These include anxiety; obsessive thinking about what is written on your wall on Facebook etc.

3. Important social or recreational activities are greatly reduced and or migrated to Facebook. Instead of sending an email you post a message on your friend’s page about canceling a lunch appointment. You now stop answering your phone call from your Mom and insist she should contact you through Facebook chat.

4. This is getting serious if you start kissing your girlfriend's home page or a VRML virtual walk through a park is your idea of a date.

5. Your bookmark takes 20 minutes just to scroll from top to bottom or 8 of 10 people in your friend's list you have no idea of who they are.

6. When you meet people you start introducing yourself by following "see you in Facebook" or your dog has its own Facebook profile. You invite anyone you've met and any notifications, messages and invites reward you with an unpredictable high, much like gambling.

hp802 working in the 21st century

2009-11-07T10:52:00.000-08:00

studying for this elective module
made me realise that,
i have low social competence.
i fulfill all 4 out of 5 stages.
failure at the last stage =(

i dun like to study by just reading
i need to do do do.
reading just bores me out.

i really need to focus!!

Role Play

2009-11-04T05:57:00.000-08:00

if life is a drama,
i'm an awfully bad actress.
so many roles to play.
and i did not play any of them well.
did a bad job balancing and handling everything.
tsk tsk.
evonne huang i'm so disappointed in you.
what happened?!!

girl, please come back.
haha.

2009-11-03T06:33:00.001-08:00

what will be, will be.
que sera, sera~~~

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
HOCUS POCUS.

inter-connectivity

2009-10-31T23:28:00.000-07:00

my horoscope today says that
as my emotional health improves
my physcial health would follow.
because both are interconnected.
hmmm.
i do notice a correlation between
my stress level and my stomach tantrums.
let me apply what i've learnt in stats
and plot a graph.
haha.

story of a Boy and a Girl

2009-10-29T07:16:00.000-07:00

heard this story over Yes 933 FM that day
its a love story.
a very very sad love story =(
here goes:

there was a Boy and a Girl

both of them met each other when they were still students

and both of them liked each other. immensely.

but Boy was too timid to profess his love for her.

for many many years, he just hid at a corner watching her.

caring for her silently.

Girl was waiting for Boy.

and she waited for many many years.

just for that 1 sentence from Boy, and she's his.

but the story didn't end like this.

Boy kept his feelings to himself

and Girl met someone else,

whom she got married to.

Boy lost hope, and just gave Girl his blessings.

but a few years later, Girl got divorced from her unhappy marriage.

Boy got to know about it, and decided to muster his courage and profess to her.

having tasted the sense of loss once, he did not want to lose Girl again.

so he bought flowers and went to her office one day.

Girl was on the phone, so he waited quietly behind her.

as long as Girl turned around, he would profess.

but he heard this,

" i have already done the booking for you dear. don't miss it!"

Boy was crestfallen, for he did not know of Girl's new love interest.

Dejected, he turned to leave.

and bumped into another girl.

this girl had been his admirer for as long as he had been loving Girl.

she saw the flowers in his hand, and said,

"are those for me?"

Boy, not wanting to waste the flowers, gave them to this Girl instead.

and they got together thereafter.

things progressed and soon he proposed.

one day, Boy bumped into Girl.

Girl asked," why didn't you approach me that night?"

Boy was shocked. he did not know that Girl was aware of his presence.

so he answered,"i overheard you on the phone and did not want to disturb your conversation with your boyfriend."

Girl was shocked.

she did not have a boyfriend.

the 'dear' that she called, was her superior.

who is a very good friend of hers and the name 'dear',

was a nickname that she used fondly on him.

calling him 'dear' was out of habit.

Girl was still waiting for Boy to take initiative.

and so, because Boy jumped to conclusions too eagerly,

because Boy was too afraid to profess,

because Girl did not take the initiative to ask,

they missed each other.

for life.

its quite sad when i first heard it over the radio.
somehow chong qing made it really sad.
~~(though i think ling zhi would be better >.<)~~
but i think both Boy and Girl are stupid.
wait here and there.
whats e point.
but then sometimes we have to agree,
that life is like that.

movie marathon!

2009-10-24T10:13:00.000-07:00

had a bad start in e morning today.
was rushing for work at Kumon...
and when i reached bishan mrt,
at BreadTalk there,
my slippers broke.
and i was stranded there, because early morning at 9.45am
none of the shops in Junction 8 was opened.
i was soooo prepared to go Charles & Keith
and just buy 1 pair of sandals or slippers
DESPITE their sky high price that does not justify their quality
and NO it wasn't open.
and SO, i walked back home
BAREFOOTED
from breadtalk there all the way home
quite an experience if u ask me
but definitely not enjoyable since i was rushing for work
=(

but i caught 2 movies today!
please don't come ask me why.

My Sister's Keeper

its quite a disappointment
cause i read the book.
the ending is totally different.
i went 'HUH?!' and 0.o
the feel is different.
when reading the book, i felt such INTENSE DISLIKE for the mother
because i felt she's the one causing all the misery in the family
albeit her good intentions.
sometimes, letting go is the only way to move on
because she cant accept the fact,
because she cant let go,
she brought such misery upon her family and others.
resulting in them having to resort to such extreme means to get the message across.

but i admit that Cameron Diaz did a rather good job
in playing the role of the mother
its very emotionally challenging
to be so drastic all the time.

i was like totally angry and tensed up and agitated while reading the book
the twist at the end of the book left a lingering taste after i finished it
all the 'huh how come this happened' feel
still unable to get over the twist.

strong emotions,
that the movie didn't evoke.

500 Days of Summer

heard pretty good comments and reviews about it

so i went in with high expectations

too high i think.

cause i was disappointed too.

at the ending i was like -_-"

but i like the male lead!

he's kinda nerdy and scholarly with a tinge of shyness

so cute!

but i like the concept of the movie

this is not a love story.

its a story about love.

that sometimes for love,

no matter how much you give,

how much you love,

it will not be requitted.

Like the female lead, Summer.

she does not believe in love.

she does not want to get into a relationship.

but she got married happily in e end.

it just goes to show that sometimes,

it just takes the right person.

one can sacrifice and give all one has to give,

but can still lose the loved one to another who does not put in that much effort.

there's no explanation.

perhaps this would give some people out there hope,

but at the same time,

it would also create doubts in some.

-love-

long weekend...

2009-10-19T03:00:00.000-07:00

i just wasted my entire long weekend.
my 'sleeping disorder' doesn't seem to be getting any better.
despite me sleeping off almost e whole day
=\
4 more weeks to exams
with quizzes and proj deadlines and so many things in betwen
im screwed.
my cGPA must be >4.0
if not i'm a GONER.
i'll just POOF and be gone with the air
no chance for mistakes
i really really really need to wake up my idea!
=X

over the weekend!

celebrate roomie's 21st birthday!

so sorry i din get to attend ur party at Essential Brew!
but we went marina barrage to celebrate
and here's her second surprise!

the ~~bimbotic~~ girl HUFFED and PUFFED to blow out all the candles

cam-whoring!

everytime its her birthday we'll camwhore

hhahahahha

failed attempt to be model-ish

despite guidance from wenhao

hahhaa

im simply not talented

she got high from sucking helium

gazing

the barrage at night

kind of miss all the nonsensical outings and camwhoring last year

pre-exam activity: drinking session!

.sometimes.just sometimes.

2009-10-04T06:28:00.000-07:00

school's starting after 1 recess week.
im soooooo not prepared.
=(

met up with nick and weilin yesterday =)
one interesting convo:

nick: eh u wear until very cui leh.
von: huh? where got! i'm wearing jeans leh! u more cui than me lor.u're wearing tee n berms.
nick: no i'm not. ok later when weilin comes u ask her.
*weilin arrives*
nick: eh weilin. evonne says i wear more cui than her.
*weilin looks at our attire*
weilin: no
von: huh? how come! i'm wearing jeans!
weilin + nick: because ur shirt is oversized!
von: so as long as i change to a fitting shirt i'll look better than nick?
weilin + nick: ya.
-_-"
ok my fashion sense sucks!
someone pls be kind enough and come and mix and match my clothes for me!

retail therapy is effective.
i bought a pair of shorts from Little Match Girl just now
and stuff from Cotton On
and i just bought a dress from online shopping not long ago
PLUS i just bought a dress from Bugis 2 wks ago.
i need to STOP spending.
and find other therapies.

and then the whole cycle starts again.

if only.
sometimes i just wish.

2009-10-02T07:00:00.001-07:00

.do not be myopic.
.look elsewhere.

UPDATES!!!

2009-09-24T12:06:00.000-07:00

haven't blogged for very very long!
purposely left the Breadtalk Mooncakes post up there cause i want pple to see =P
have been having lots of activities recently!
long entry ahead! but got pictures! =)

MAF @ Hwa Chong

went back to Hwa Chong for the long awaited MAF
weirdly we love this event now that we graduated
back then in Hwa Chong we find this event damn useless
but as seniors, it provides us with a proper excuse to gather and meet up =)
and hear all the stories hahahaha!
having fun doing the mass dances and singing the songs
hard to believe that i actually spent 2 years there
and that e 2 years are actually 2 years ago
it seems that we just graduated only.
but the sea of unfamiliar faces of juniors reinforced the fact that
we're old. we're the alumni now.

5 GENERATIONS OF S73!!

the bigggg family!

isn't it amazing! =)

us camwhoring with Chengyuan's DSLR in a tutorial room

left Hwa Chong for sooo long, that i didn't know how to find my way to the tutorial room

what with the A block, B block etc >.<

and DSLR really rocks

not nice take with DSLR also become super nice

we're still childish! look at us!

my dear friends who made my 2 years in Hwa Chong fantastic

glad we stayed close! (other than nahhhhh)

BRANDON NAH DUN U REGRET NOT COMING??

Cousin's Wedding on 2009 2009

went for cousin's wedding the next day
at Riverview Hotel
near Mhmd Sultan that area
the food was nice =)

big group photo of all of us cousins!

with the 2 young grand-grandchildren in front (don't know what they are to me)

i'm their auntie >.<

my super duper cute and pretty cousin (???)

she's my cousin's daughter.

i don't know. she's my niece??? hahaha!

the beautiful bride

who had difficulty navigating due to the loooong gown haha

do i look like the flower girl?!!

hahahaha.

bought the dress the day before for the wedding

cause i realised to my horror that i have NO DRESS FOR E OCCASION

who ask me always dress till so casual and cui =(

thanks to nicholas for shopping with me!

the dress is indeed nice =)

Sending off our Dear Ying Chern

our dear Ying Chern went back to UK on tuesday
cabbed down from NTU to Changi Airport and back again
within 2 hours i think haha!
so sorry couldn't spend much time hanging out while u were in spore =(

our group photo!

(with someone clearly missing) =P

YC wearing the scarf that i gave her!

all 5 pretty girls =)

oh and as u can see in the photo, I CUT MY HAIR.

and lastly, the F1 attachment that i just came back from!
have soooo many things to gush about!
how atas the whole event was,
how beautiful the girls were (all are super big shots, includes models),
how the food was soooooo tempting (especially the dessert, which was a chocolate ball)
blah blah blah
but i think this post is long enough
shall return with more pics next time!

oh I SAW LEWIS HAMILTON
=D

plus! when i got home, i saw this package on my table
my first purchase from online shopping has arrived!
next time show u all =)

MOONCAKES FOR SALE!!!

2009-09-09T10:22:00.000-07:00

hello hello people!
i'm still in OVE committee this year!
so the sales person in Evonne is out again!
this time, i'm selling delicious
BREADTALK mooncakes!

ok, i know breadtalk isn't the first brand that comes to ur mind
when u think of mooncakes
BUT. their mooncakes are also of good quality!
and i think maybe breadtalk is still too young and the brand is not as established
as those old names like Goodwood etc.
i sampled the mooncakes okay~~~
=)

here's what available:

The Classic

$32 per box

(4 pieces x 180 grams)

5 different flavours available

can mix and match according to ur own preferences

MINI - Set A

$13.50 per box

(4 pieces x 60 grams)

4 different flavours

no mixing though

MINI - Set B

$13.50 per box

(4 pieces x 60 grams)

4 different flavours

no mixing though

please please please try to support k

take this chance to try a different brand of mooncake!

funds raised will go buying stationery, books, clothes etc for the unfortunate overseas

ur money is NOT WASTED ok

thank u!

.why do i still feel so out of place everywhere.

acer laptop sucks

2009-09-08T06:48:00.000-07:00

i just changed to my new Acer laptop
Acer Aspire 4935G
but then its starting to give me problems.
and i think it sucks compared to Fujitsu
Fujitsu is such a good brand man.
i love my old and small white Fujitsu laptop.
its still functioning well
unlike the acer one
this is how my laptop looks like

supposed to be a very good laptop for viewing movies and shows
with what surround theatre system
its even called Dolby Home Theatre
and then the home theatre advertisement would pop out and start playing by itself
(i haven't figure out how to get rid of it yet)
but then, the keys to adjust the media player and volume IS NOT SENSITIVE
the touchpad is NOT SENSITIVE
(comparing it with my Fujitsu where i use the touchpad even better than e mouse)
it cannot open my Facebook applications
somehow the applications bar became at the top and at the side
yesterday msn was working fine
i shut e laptop down n today when i came back i cant sign in to msn
giving me different error codes each time i restart the computer
one fine day i just ran a virus scan
the scan went fine.
but then, i cannot remove all the tracking cookies, virus etc from the computer
what use is the scan, if u cant remove the unwanted stuff afterwards
and in e process of doing so, the computer hangs -_-"
WHAT THE HELL.
is it me or is it the stupid laptop.

the devil wears prada

2009-09-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

its a damn damn damn old movie
came out when i was in j2 i think
which was like 2 years ago
somehow, i just finished watching it AGAIN
despite knowing that i have tons of tasks to do
need to finish up my ove stuff
catch up on my hw
plan out how to teach my tutee
and organise my life >.<

somehow, it seems that e busier i get
the higher the tendency for me to want to slack
and avoid completing my tasks

the devil wears prada is very nice
-know what you yourself want
and the rest doesn't matter
even if it matters to the rest of the world-

2009-09-05T11:25:00.000-07:00

RECESS WEEK IS COMING IN 3 WEEKS.
meaning after 3 weeks, half the semester is gone.
half of my year 2 semester 1 just flew off like that.
0.o

NO MORE TIME TO SLACK, EVONNE!
i should really get rid of this bad habit
of thinking that i have nth to do
of thinking that i still have time to do
because the truth is,
the direct opposite =X

another nice video of OVE'09 posted online!
check this out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qm1G8dpnygA

NICE RIGHT!!

YAY NEW TEMPLATE!!

2009-08-31T09:16:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA
qiaoling helped me to 'repair' my template by fixing the picture there for me
=D

.sometimes we just have to learn when and how to grow up.

new template! =)

2009-08-31T01:38:00.000-07:00

hahaha
supposed to change my template with the help of my new roomie - yiting
but i'm too dumb =(
she helped me change the template WITHIN SECONDS
and up until now i don't know how to make the picture come out
<--- see the blank space over there?
there's supposed to be a picture.
a random random picture
but somehow it doesn't come out
and i duno how to fix it (obviously)
so i tried to change to another template
but ALAS!! i don't know how to save my tagboard
tried the same method she did by searching for tagboard within the technical jargon
but cant =((
CAN SOMEONE PLS ENLIGHTEN ME???
i know im a noob >.<
haiz.

Farewell Treat

2009-07-01T08:57:00.000-07:00

finally met up with my angel last night
on my last day of work =)
had a good and long talk,
catching up with each other
just before he leaves for US on tues.
and the stupid guy says no need go airport to send him off
(i hope u read this! =P)
haha

i can still remember our long angel-mortal letters
where i can spend HOURS replying just 1 letter
its twice the length of any essay that we need to write for school assignment
and i will not listen in any lecture or tutorial cos im busy replying =p
and then get kinda frustrated because there's just so many things to say!
i still keep all ur letters ok
and i still smile whenever i take them out to read =)

i can still remember our orientation campfire
where u pretended to be some random senior n dance with me
n i was wondering whether u're my angel
but at e same time wondering if u're from my senior class

im glad that even though i changed class
we still keep in contact n stayed close
cause u noe already, u're like the only senior im close to in hwa chong

"live life as best as you can k =) "
i'll keep this in mind as i enter my new sch year
and somehow when i saw that last line
i felt ________ haha duno how to describe.
I WILL =)
somehow u always have a way of inspiring n motivating me
with the way u say
"must be ZAI"
haha!

and i'll keep this piece of advice in mind
2 different pple told me at e same time
so i guess its good advice
"just go for it. worry later. live life to the fullest"

A long overdue entry

2009-06-29T01:04:00.000-07:00

supposed to blog after i come back from STONG

but was caught up in a lot of stuff.

how i wish i nvr came back from there haha

its a form of escape.

and since im blogging this entry from work (its my 2nd last day! cant wait for it to end =D)

i have no STONG pics to decorate this entry

but there's alot on facebook =P

haha!

belicia's fav phrase from there: SHAGGED CANT THINK

lolx

the waterfall was beautiful

the stars at night was amazing

the shooting star was fascinating

(and to think i mistook it for a plane -_-" )

sadly our little red dot has none of it =(

haha

i wanna whine whine whine

for the first time in my life,

i don't know what i want.

and to think i was still fretting over what i shld join next yr

cos i was scared i would end up studying n doing nth =\

now i gotta choose

and i just cant have everything

and now i just don't know which option would result in me having less regrets

because i noe that no matter what i decide,

i would have a teeny weeny bit of regret abt e loss of the other

and considering the fact that i MAY add 1 more core for this upcoming sem

because its IT related n i wanna leech/free-ride on our prof choong jigang

>.<

i'll definitely have to choose

if only i can be those ultra zai pple

so smart

can join lotsa activities and yet do well for their studies

haha!

so many thoughts going through my head

im fickle =(

after tues im going to head down to Changi Airport, curl up at a coffee place there

read a good book (yes, im finally fulfilling this tiny dream of mine since last year)

and just clear my mind so it'll be empty.

like wad lihui says,

any decision made when u're confused will be a wrong one.
haha!

i just find it hard to understand

why some pple love to judge pple so early

judge pple abt things that they themselves have not been through before

and only to realise later on, that

sometimes in life, things are not purely black n white.

sometimes due to duno wad reasons, ur actions will deviate from what is the supposed right.

and yet by doing the theoretically 'wrong' action,
u can put things right and reduce damage to the least.

HAR.

Pre-STONG entry!

2009-06-12T10:05:00.000-07:00

hello hello!
finally going to STONG tml.
in case u're wondering where it is,
its at west kelantan Msia.
(apparently quite a few pple asked me n i said i duno >.<) will post personalised pictures here after im back! instead of koping from internet actually cos i lazy la =P we're taking e train dere! im going to slpp and slpppp and slppppppp like a pig so sad cant spend the time watching dramas but im sure dear bels and lauren will provide me plenty of entertainment =D life has been quite good and smooth sailing recently until i find it unbelieveable i really should do more good deeds to accumulate good karma friends keep bringing me good news under hexiang's reminder, i checked my biz major and i got my first choice!
TOURISM & HOSPITALITY MANAGEMENT
im sooo going to work in the Intergrated Resorts or some hotel next time
i'll make sure of it!
because recently working as an Acct Asst has made me realise that
im really not cut out for accounting =(
because im not as detailed, meticulous, and careful.
these qualities of mine has brought my supervisor alot of trouble
where she had to go through so many lines of items with me
just to find out where i had made mistakes
and most of the time its stupid careless mistakes
=(
i really really thank her for her patience with me.
and then i get bored of the task fast.
and cos everyone in e office is busy and rarely tok
i find a need to open my mouth n make noise
which of cos i didn't, n made me so xingku
=(

and then ryan got me to check my email
where i got the email from HALL 2!
i managed to get back HALL 2 for my 2nd year!
=D
i was really having no expectations
and making arrangements and plans on wad to do next year
with NO HALL
really really thankful.

oh and i still haven finish watching BOYS OVER FLOWERS
its no easy feat!
every1 finished it within DAYS
its been 2 mths for me now
and i still haven finish it
even dear simoneeeee caught up with me, overtook,
and reached the finishing line!
0.o
these are e 3 versions!
i've conquered 1 (taiwanese)
on my way to conquering the 2nd (korean)
and after that, to the 3rd! (japanese)
and THEN after that,
rewatch e anime version
=D

ok i need to start doing some work
then watch my drama
PLUS pack for my trip
=\

this is cute!

Adidas Sundown Marathon

2009-05-31T06:55:00.000-07:00

belicia and i went for our first ever marathon!

adidas sundown marathon

10km women's

(yes i noe we're quite cui to just join the 10km run)

and obviously stupid and lazy me went for the run without training
>.<

but it was a good thing that belicia asked her fren to help come and be e pacer

(cos im super slack and have totally no motivation)

haha!

but im proud to say that i managed to complete it! =D

managed to run 6.5km (around there?) without stopping

before i finally puked =X

shouldn't have went to drink the water man

but i like only drink 1 teeny weeny sip lor

my weak body

and my weak stomach

and after that as i complete the run,

i was like burping and hiccuping all e way back

-_-"

and cause i increased my pace when its very near the finishing line,

i vomitted AGAIN after i crossed e line

SIAN

bels is thinking of joining the Army Half Marathon

omg

i tink i just wan to be road marshall and collect the shirts

us before the run!

very happy and excited! haha

we kinda look like sisters lolx

got some LOREAL pple came and asked to take our photo -_-"

us AFTER completing the run!
=)

can see all our sweat and red faces

it was the first time i sweated sooo much

until my entire arm was wet

i mean, WET haha

cause i always sweat very little only, (as my friends all noe)

what an experience haha

been busy with work lately

travelling is driving me nuts

and making me very tired

and i keep making mistakes

careless mistakes here and there

missing out on small details here and there

and then making things so mafan and troublesome

i cant imagine travelling this distance to ntu everyday next sem

HAIZ

and my workplace is so ulu

dere's nth to eat here

i actually bought cup noodles to stock up here

so that i can have sth to eat

sick of the food at the 'canteen' downstairs

forgive me for my wilfulness, childishness and stubbornness sometimes

i know its not easy for u

im sorry

but could i just have a tiny tiny fraction of ur everyday?

i have never compromised so much before

or rather, i have never compromised before

but im willing to try my best

cause i don't want to lose you too

my 101 post

2009-05-26T09:39:00.000-07:00

WOW.
i just saw that i had posted 100 entries.
after erm 2 years and 5 mths.
is it too much or too little?
hahaha.
anyway!
wanted to blog about my outing with JINGLES today.
had a great dinner at Marmalade Pantry.
they have Girls' Night Out from Mon-Sat so its a good deal for girls!
here's the promotion deal:

http://www.themarmaladepantry.com/

thanks to Yirene for recommending!
=)
next time shall continue visiting nice places for meals!
instead of sticking to the same old few places.
first time i cannot finish e chocolate cake for dessert.
even when me and shuyi combined our powers.
haizzz.
the slice is really big!
u guys shld go try =)

and i got a new wallet!
from GUESS
like the nice and bright colours
here it is!

picked it out myself from GUESS
its having a Sale!
hahaha
love some of the clothes there
but they're seriously too ex
next time when i have financial spending power!
muahahaha!

and my lovely friends!

JINGLES
(or called jingle bell by nicholas lim -_-")

i was wearing my new top that i bought from Bangkok
haha
but kena blocked
i forgot that i actually bought this top
lolx!
thanks to JINGLES for always being there to listen
although we dun always meet up
but then each time we do we always find alot of updates!
miss tan ying chern is coming back soon
STOP FACEBOOKING OK!

to nicholas lim
though i know you wont read this cos u're stranded somewhere in the forest
>.<
JIAYOU!!!
u have the ability
u can do it!
when u ORD
u can haolian to pple
how tough u're =)
hahahaha!

ok gotta go already
cos starting work tml
gotta reach e office at 0830 later
and gotta travel all the way to boonlay
=(

confession to make =(

2009-05-19T10:34:00.000-07:00

i think im a bad friend.
or maybe i just have the bad habit of taking people for granted.
or more specifically,
people who mean alot to me for granted.
so im so glad and grateful that i have this few cliques of friends around
who are always there for me
even if we do not keep in contact often
u guys know that i do keep u all in a special part of my heart right!
when i get caught up in doing stuff
i'll forget about everything else
sad to say, my multi-tasking skills are deteoriating
i may not always take the initiative to keep in contact
or plan for outings
but this does not mean that i don't care or have forgotten about u
this holiday,
i shall attempt to meet up with all my friends
and keep all pple who means sth to me close to me
someone teach me pple-to-pple skills pls
>.<

oh ya
I CUT MY HAIR!!
supposed to accompany my friend
but apparently i just cant resist cutting hair
think alot of u noe that i like to cut hair,
and feel the snip snip snip of the scissors
its therapy for me =P
but then my hair grow very slow =(
so now my hair is kinda mid-length
its a layered bob
i shall not put pic here so that u all will wanna meet up with me in person!
then my above mentioned goal will be fulfilled!
=D
i noe i've been saying i wan to keep it long
and after 5 months it has finally grown long enough to fall below my shoulders
but nvm!
hopefully by august it'll reach dat length
then when sch reopens i shall have my long hair
hahahahahha

sori no pictures to entertain u guys >.<
go facebook? =P

BACK FROM BANGKOK!! =D

2009-05-17T01:27:00.000-07:00

Hello
im back from bangkok!
actually back for quite a few days already la.
but lazy to blog.
and uploading pics onto facebook has been a killer.
next time i just take pics n let someone else upload and tag
>.<
some pics are very nice!
when i'm free and in e mood i shall try to play with some photoshop =P
(although im really quite free now)
been nua-ing everyday watching my Boys Over Flowers
=D
i really really like Kim Bum!
so boyish!
actually got quite some stuff to do but just too lazy >.<

in our hotel SUITE in bangkok! =)

found some nice pics on dhika's blog about our outings last week!
here they are!

taboo the gay bar
for some post-exam party organised by CS pple
witnessed some horrible fight over there
i wonder why everytime i go night places,
i'll always bump into fights and quarrels =X

celebrating my bdae!
look at my name written by sparklers!
albeit the 'e' abit fail haha!
but i love it all the same =)
shall find a chance to wear the nice present
its white gold and diamond bracelet!
hahaha.

for further interesting pictures about bangkok,
kindly refer to Facebook.
i have 9 photo albums on it
plus a very very funny video! =P

been sending out alot of resumes...
hopefully by end of next wk i'll have a job!

THANK YOU~~~

2009-05-08T11:38:00.000-07:00

haha im finally 20
=(
and all the heartless people who keep reminding me of it!
wad welcome to the 20s club
argh
i'm forever 19!
=P

thanks to hall 2 dance supper heroes!
who gave me a surprise
and although i was smart enough to detect some weird stuff going on
like daphne n dhika being missing for sooooo long
i was also stupid enough to believe all the random and simple excuses they give
it was also the first time i had a surprise for my bdae =)
and the bracelet is very pretty!
(pictures kindly refer to facebook haha im lazy)

thanks to the OVE peeps!
you guys also gave me a surprise!
stupid me was still looking abt and wondering whose bdae is it >.<
haha!
also the first time i had such a surprise.
but no thanks for the cake smearing ar!
=)

thanks to mr lee jiahao4
for giving me a nice dinner treat!
u're the first one to do so!
and for playing pool and teaching me how to read angles on the table
i know i deproved A LOT LOT LOT!
=X
and for listening to me talk
you know i appreciate it lots
=)

thanks to all these people who msged me
some whom i totally din expect
and some whose wishes made me really happy
because they remembered =)
here they are:
ying chern (who msged me from far away manchester!)
weilin
hong xiang (no need to try matchmaking until so obvious ok.later pple tink i despo >.<)
youzhi (thanks for the cab! n u really so eager to spend money to stimulate economy huh!)
weili
soon swee (good welfare rep!)
han ming
shuyi (13 years and still counting!)
vincent
brandon
teng kiat
waikuan
zhikai
chengyuan
he xiang
belicia
candance
yupeng
yen ling
my dearest nicholas lim (hahahahaha!!!)
sim yee
lihui
huiqi
joseph
zhao cong (the cockster)
guojie
mavis
SK
eng how
simone
fiona
singhwa
qiaoling
stacy
shuxuan
daryl lim (WHERE'S MY TREAT!!)
because of the bdae wishes i got the chance to chit-chat with some of those that i haven't talked to for a superrrrrr long time
and i'm glad for that

thanks to all those who had wished me on facebook and msn =)
i had to say that facebook is indeed a very good tool in keeping track of bdaes =P
haha!

and in 1 hrs time im setting off for the airport
and in 3.5 hrs time im going to fly into the sky~~~
to my holiday trip in thailand! =D
sawadika!
from 9 May to 13 May
will be back on 13 May early morning
don't miss me!
=P

actually i have ALOT of things to blog about
from exams
to post exams
to last day of rooming with huiying
to moving out of hall
to all the ktv sessions that i've been having (erm so far its twice each wk =p )
to outings here and there
meeting up with frenz whom i haven seen for very very long
but no time and im abit lazy =P

and next week i noe i still gonna meet somemore frenz!
=D
jingles
nicholas/weilin & co.
ice cream gang
h.e.l.p??? haha KTV again pls!

ok im going to stop here
and catch a 30min slp
before setting off for the airport!
=)

the taleof my blindness

2009-04-22T00:07:00.000-07:00

there was this question from our dear statistics paper on wed, 22 april 2009
and we're supposed use this test (Durbin-Watson test).
and we're supposed to compare our d value with the value in the formula table
and this d value is actually GIVEN IN THE QUESTION.

but stupid me din realised it
and spent 15min wondering how the hell do i get this value
and while wondering, i was staring at all the information given in the question
including the table where the answer was staring right in front of me, in my face
but alas,
i was too blind somehow
and i din realised it until e end of the exam
so i handed up my paper with that part BLANK
and after the paper,
even after people tell me its given,
I STILL CANT SEE.
and they actually had to POINT IT TO ME
then i saw the value!
OMG
i think this is like the biggest joke la
i duno why for every exam i'll make some careless mistake or blur errors =(

on e bright side,
2 more days till the end of exams!
though i still cant really see the end of exams coming
>.<
to the mighty one above:
teach me how to study for marketing
and bless me with superb crapping and smoking skills
so that i can get an A+ for marketing
and make up for all my screwed up papers so far =(

i shall conquer exams!

and then head towards this planet on friday! =D

random random!

2009-04-08T11:22:00.001-07:00

hahaha i think mone's tag is the magic tag
cos everytime she tag n say i never update
i'll update =P

but actually i got nth to say here leh
my life's been miserably mundane!
exams is starting next wk
n ending in 2 wks time
but surprisingly,
i cant see the end of exams.
like i cant visualise the end of it
i wonder why.
i always use the end of exams to motivate myself.

i've been addicted to this song since huiying recommended it to me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQFyEisuvJQ
its actually tong hua in korean
e MV story is exactly e same as the chinese one
but somehow i find the song to be nicer than e chinese one
i think kim hyung joong sing in a very straightforward manner
until u jus feel e emotions likdat
n i love towards e end where they add in all the children's voices
so angelic haha!
huiying agrees with me on this =)

oh ya.
the kim hyung joong is not e actor in Boys over Flowers
apparently his name is very similar to e one in BOF
but HE IS NOT.

im feeling lousy about myself.
hahaha
positive self-talk
increases motivation
self-leadership
i need them now
hahahaha

(koped from deviantart)
if i ask u to write a 100 word essay on this picture, what would u write? haha.

2009-04-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

shall put this at the front to make myself hapi =)

haven't updated for 1 week plus.
n seriously my life is too mundane to update.
haha unlike u simone n bels!
cos i only want to put happy stuff here.
cos even i myself visit my own blog to rem e happy things =)

n since i really feel like whining now,
i shall complain here.
I REALLY DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO STUDY
so much for my resolution made when Sem 2 first started
=(
unless i can finish my marketing report by Fri,
i cant mug for my exams in peace.
cos i will keep having this nagging feeling that sth is not done yet.
it is so mighty rare that i actually have e mood to study,
anytime, any module, anywhere,
and yet i cannot put in my 100%.
n since e report is only 10 marks,
im thinking of just hecking it >.<
but then i realised its no point
cos during e exam, its more or less the same thing.
=(
i never thought that i would prefer projects n presentations to reports n essays 1 day
0.o
or maybe im just too lousy to handle everything.
or maybe im just too lazy to even try to handle everything.

on a brighter note!
im going overseas for a few days each month during the holidays!
=D
May: Thailand Bangkok
June: Msia Stong
July: Cambodia (for OVE)
=D
im oso going to go broke
muahaha

words of wisdom learnt in Marketing Lecture:
1st, learn to accept it.
2nd, learn to face it.
3rd, learn to let go of it.

Nicholas's Commissioning

2009-03-21T09:52:00.000-07:00

yay! Nicholas finally commissioned!
haha went for his commissioning parade.
was amused at how LOUD they sang all the songs.
and weilin was tickled everytime they shuffle,
cause obviously they don't need to shuffle.
lolx
sooooo proud of Nicholas!
we know that e whole process was certainly not easy
but YOU MADE IT! =D =D =D
everything just for today =)

and this just made me all e more determined to push on
regardless of what happens,
cause i noe what matters to me and my priorities =)

saw quite a few friends too.
didn't realised so many people commissioning today.
felt like a mini-gathering over there.
keep bumping into people....
friends from pri sch all the way till jc =)

and there was a rainbow after the parade!

haven't seen a rainbow for very very long!
it just made me so hapi.
the whole sky was sooooo pretty!
the colours were so niceeeee~~~

oh and i realised that OCS is REALLY near ntu
no wonder i can see the safti tower from my hall there
i'll be sad to noe that u all are no longer opposite me =(

after e marina barrage trip yesterday,
and seeing a rainbow today,
somehow i feel a sense of calm.
i guess maybe thats y i always like natural surroundings =)

some chances only come once. and i may have missed mine.
how many chances is life going to give me, and how many am i going to continue to miss.
i may not be fortunate enough to have so many chances
they will run out one day =(

=D
brandon nah, pls rem to save the drowning child =P

hahaha! our fav photo of the day =P

2009-03-20T02:07:00.000-07:00

it takes some adaptation
for the one who has been doing the selection
to turn into the one who is being selected

exams in 2 weeks
omg
muggggggggggg

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YC! =)

2009-03-17T06:41:00.000-07:00

Ying chern!
To my dearest fellow jingle YC:

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY! =D

we couldn't get u any present cos u're overseas,
we couldn't skype with ya cos we are not gathered tgt
so i came up with this idea!
hope u'll feel hapi when u see our blogs!
=)
its been 5 years since we knew each other!
super loooong!
when we separated to go into different jcs,
i really thought that we'll just lose contact and all.
but it didn't happen!
and now that uni has started and 1 sch year is almost over,
we're still as close as ever =)
we may not chat all e time,
we may not meet up for gatherings all e time,
but we noe deep inside that whenever we need a fren or each other,
we'll be there =)
and thanks to facebook and msn n blogs!
it felt as though u're still in singapore.
cos we're constantly getting updates from u! =D
(and vice versa too)
glad that u're hapi with ur bdae party over there
rem to come back n cook for us!
along with ur oreo cheesecake.
miss ur reminders of asking us to drink enough water,
take enough fruits and vegetables.
=(
and don't worry
bels + lihui + shuyi + mone + shuyi + me
will have ALOT ALOT of exciting stories to tell u when u come back.
mayb we can even film it down into a drama!
0.o
hahahahahahaha!
so jiayou with ur studies over there!
don't keep looking back on e past,
cos its OVER.
look at wad u have in the present,
and ENJOY and make it better!
we'll jiayou over here too!
and then u'll be back here with us in no time!
=D
happy birthday!
(lets continue to spice up each others' tagboards haha!)

Lotsa <3
von

i cant find a pic with me n u (cos its now in my laptop, not cos dun hav ok!)
so i put 1 of Jingles instead =D

response to yc's entry =D

2009-03-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

haha went blog hopping after i haven't done so for a superrrr loooong time.
and saw our dearest tan ying chern's blog update! =D
so wads e season over there now?
i just felt so hapi reading ur entry u noe!
felt some normalcy (is this how u spell it?) amidst all the hectic work
especially these few weeks.
i guess while growing up, we all learn how to appreciate the moment?
cause we have been through so many regrets that what we want to do now,
is just bask in the moment and enjoy it
so that we don't have to experience the same idiot feeling called regret.
which is why now i tell myself not to ponder too much over things that i cant control.
i received this piece of advice before:
if something has happened and things have changed,
so what if you do not want it that way?
if you have done your best to redeem/change,
and where the rest lies out of your control,
do not blame yourself or get too affected.
because ultimately,
you have done wad you could.
i think all of us would like to know that we can always make a difference,
make things better.
and we would naively think that as long as we work harder, just a little bit harder,
things WOULD become better.
but sadly in life, sometimes,
reality doesn't work that way.

contrary to wad lihui says,
everyone's (referring to jingles??) nick may be emo
and i tink mine is too.
but its not cos i emo.
i just saw the phrase on e cover of a Jodi Picoult book.
everything breaks, but some hurts more than the others
and find it very apt and impactful and can relate to it
since when do i put emo stuff on msn and my blog? =P
hahahahahaha!

yay lets all do a blog entry about each other
and use this cheap thrill
to make each other hapi =D

2009-03-07T11:05:00.000-08:00

monday.
1 suicide cum stabbing case in NTU.
first day of school after recess week.
and now friday.
another suspected suicide case.
seriously.
whats wrong with the school or the people in it.
feels like e 2nd one see the 1st one and then decided to copy.
isn't life precious.
there are many things in life that u may have lost,
many things in life to be depressed about,
but there are also things in life to be grateful about,
things that we can rejoice about.
the difference lies in your perspective.
i really feel sad for the family.

its 4 more weeks to the exams!
n im sad to say that i haven't been touching my books.
its gonna be a mad rush of intensive mugging in the wks leading up to exams.
positive visualisation: i can get through this!
believe, believe, believe.
i don't allow myself to succumb or become weak!
>.<

Floating into the Unknown

welcoming 2012

and as the end of my exchange journey nears

somehow it just doesn't feel right

the nonsensical mindset of sporeans

ntu accountancy grads don't really earn

I AM GOING FOR EXCHANGE!!!!

sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me

it does feel lonely sometimes

the forum

tin pei ling - the new spore celebrity

thought provoking. hmmm.

因为幸福没有捷径只有经营 ﻿

crossroads

what are words

im useless after all

iphone is awesome!

林志炫 浮誇

what would be your next stop?

Remedies

Day 2 in Phuket: Being an Interviewer for the First Time (Part 1)

Farewell to Taurus, but deep down, im still one!

Ophiuchus.

Smartie Pants Evonne

Leaving for Phuket! Day 1

Five Regrets of the Dying By Bronnie Ware Platinum Quality Author

perhaps love

a stroke of inspiration

如果我變成回憶

off to laos!

updated 21st wish list!

gone....

my 21st wishlist

kudos to nbs

'excuse me, i'm lost. can u help me find my way back?'

its my fault

the outsider

its been raining these few days

“Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.”

- Mary Manin Morrissey

make a wish.

new phone E72

Xmas canvassing!

post exams sem1 reflections

the 7 deadly sins

你看不到的天空 - 蔡旻佑

你看不到的天空 - 蔡旻佑

nice song.

i like his album cover. so light.

2 days without technology

johnny depp to the rescue!!

running out of time

Are you suffering from Facebook Addiction Disorder?

hp802 working in the 21st century

Role Play

inter-connectivity

story of a Boy and a Girl

movie marathon!

long weekend...

UPDATES!!!

MOONCAKES FOR SALE!!!

acer laptop sucks

the devil wears prada

YAY NEW TEMPLATE!!

new template! =)

Farewell Treat

A long overdue entry

Pre-STONG entry!

Adidas Sundown Marathon

my 101 post

confession to make =(

BACK FROM BANGKOK!! =D

THANK YOU~~~

the taleof my blindness

random random!

Nicholas's Commissioning

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YC! =)

response to yc's entry =D

因为幸福没有捷径只有经营

林志炫浮誇